i'm here | m.e.

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adrabelle

I quickly run inside the house shocked at that couple. Not just any couple. Chris and Cassie. After seeing them, I knew I had to get out of the mall right away. I left Matt and texted him to find an Uber. 

I jumped up from the couch cause of the high pitch bell and walk with Ashton on my hip to the door. I look through the peephole and open it to Matt. 

''Thanks for leaving me at the mall with my car," Matt says with anger, pushing past me.

"I'm sorry!'' I tell him. "I saw them, Matt!"

"I thought they were through with you?" Matt questions, walking in the kitchen with me tailing behind him.

''Alexis told me that and I trusted her,'' I mumble. 

Matt looks down at me as I stare at him. He probably saw the hint of anger in my voice. ''That's the past.'' 

''And Chris and Cassie are in my future!'' I raise my voice a bit. 

''Wow, you made Ashton cry,'' Matt rolls his eyes, taking Ashton away from me. I didn't even notice...

 He walks upstairs while carrying a crying Ashton. I sigh before locking all the windows and doors. Better to be safe than sorry. I don't even wanna think of the possibilities of what would happen to Ashton if he gets involved with the mess I made with Cassie and Chris. 

Maybe I should clean the kitchen and living room before going upstairs.

...

 I check my phone at the time. 11:21p.m.

I've been cleaning for the longest times to get things out of my mind from scrubbing the floors to dusting the shoes. At least Matt doesn't have to clean his shoes next week for his show premiere. 

While walking up the stairs I look at the frames I put up on the walls. The house smells like a nice faded cinnamon with a hint of cherry. I continue walking to Ashton's room. I stop at his bed and kiss his forehead goodnight. ''Goodnight baby boy.''  

I walk to my room to a sleeping Matt. I strip off my clothes, knowing Matt wouldn't see me because the only light on was the bathroom night light which was gleaming through the room. I put my shoes in my closet and pick out a black t-shirt and boyshorts underwear. I walk into the bathroom and get ready for bed. 

''I thought you left us,'' Matt whispers, placing his head on my shoulder. 

I stare at the mirror and nod my head 'no'. "I couldn't.'' 

"It must've been easy when you left before,'' Matt says, still half asleep. 

I gulp and blink before any tears could escape my eyes. Just thinking about what I did hurts. ''That was the past.'' 

"That's what they all say,'' He mumbles before walking away to bed. 

I take a deep breathe and think for a solid minute. This is what Chris wants from me. He wants me to blame him for all that happens in the future. All I have to do is defeat it. 

I walk to the bed and get in the sheets with Matt. I hug his bare torso and kiss his back. "I love you." 

I slowly close my eyes and hold onto him even tighter.

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short chapter ik!!!!!!!!!!! but im trying to make a new book for you guys and updating this book which is hard since i have online summer school for extra credit and chores and blah blah. ive been reading the comments you guys give me and it's just so motivating!

will update soon! :) 

-shekinah xoxo