i'm here | m.e.

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''Good Morning!'' A voice shouts in my room. Ashton can't speak yet and Matt is at work, and I'm not talking. 

I shoot my eye open to see Matt next to me. ''What are you doing here?!''

''You don't seem happy to see me.'' Matt frowns, staring me down.

''Of course I'm happy, but I'm concerned on why you're here.'' I tell him, looking at the clock to see if it's time for Ashton to wake up. 

11:00AM

I usually wake up at nine because he's crying. I turn to Matt and furrow my eyebrows, ''Did you wake up Ashton?''

''No, why?'' He questions. 

''Oh shit!'' I shout, jumping out of bed. I sprint to Ashton's room to see him standing on his little bed, staring at everything. ''Hey baby.'' 

He looks over to me and smiles. I pick Ashton up and get him ready. I don't give him baths in the morning since he gets a really good one at night. I always wash his face and brush his teeth. I had Ashton wear a white t-shirt, khakis, and white vans. Ashton, being almost two, he's been learning how to talk slowly; but he's very very quiet.

I turn around with Ashton in my arms to a smiling Matt. He walks over to me and kisses Ashton then my lips. ''I think we should take family pictures at the mall or something.'' 

I slightly smile at that, but me not being the mother or Ashton and not being married to Matt has bothered me. I look up at Matt, ''Yeah, you two should also get a frame for the pictures.'' 

He shakes his head confused and looks back down at me. ''What do you mean ''you two'', you're apart of this family as well.''

''I know,'' I sigh, looking down, refusing to look at Matt. 

''Then what's stopping you from wanting to be in this family.'' He says.

''It's not that I don't want to, it's that I'm not married to you which means I'm nothing to Ashton besides his father's girlfriend.'' I quickly say.

Matt laughs and runs around the room.

I scoff and walk away. ''I was being serious too.'' 

''Belle seriously?!'' Matt shouts, making me stop. ''You are Ashton's mother. Maybe not biologically, but in a way. Being a mother is taking care of a child with love. You give a hell a lot of love to Ashton that I get jealous!'' 

I smile a bit, looking down, blushing. 

''And who says we aren't going to get married, huh?'' Matt smirks, grabbing Ashton from my hands. ''Now since I'm ready, you need to get ready so we can take these family picture for our house. Okay?'' 

''Okay,'' I smile, walking away to our room. I brush my teeth and wash my face before walking into my closet. Matt and Ashton are wearing white... That must mean we are having a white out! I grab a white bohemian dress that went right above my knees with tan gladiator sandals. I take my hair out of a bun and left it wavy. I fix a bit of my fly aways and put two braids across my head. 

I walk into the bathroom and put on mascara and highlight my cheekbones and my brow bone. I grab my phone and put it into my purse before leaving to go downstairs. 

''Yay, mommy is done!'' Matt claps his hands with Ashton following along. 

''Ya!'' A small mumble escapes from Ashton's mouth. I stop in my tracks and look down at Ashton, covering my mouth in shock. 

''Say it again,'' Matt whispers to Ashton. 

''Ma!'' He claps again, showing me his teeth. 

Some tears slip from my eyes. I attack Ashton with a hug. ''Ugh, I love you.'' 

''Learned that one from papi.'' Matt winks at me. 

''He never tried saying a word with me.'' I say still in shock. 

''Let's go!'' Matt whines. I roll my eyes and grab Matt's keys. 

''Babe, you drive.'' I throw him the keys before buckling Ashton. I walk to the passenger's seat and buckle up. I turn to Ashton and smile. He looks at me for a second and smiles. I turn back to the front. 

I grab Matt's free hand and smile.

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i have a confession to make guys

ive been catching up with my favorite tv shows and the best two shows that ive been watching was the vampire diaries and containment. christopher wood is in both of those shows and like im like on the urge on going into his fandom BUTTTT!!!! i ofc still love matt, always will. im not just saying that, im being serious. i dont think it would hurt to be in chris' fandom as well. i will still be active with  matt espinosa fanfictions ofc, i read them everyday so aye :))))

-shekinah xoxo