i'm here | m.e.

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adrabelle

Exhausted. Tired. A feeling of not being able to do anything. Laziness. That's all I am! How the hell am I supposed to take care of a baby if I'm like this?

"My mind is so negative," I whisper to myself while looking down at Ashton as he stares at me like a stranger.

I promised to take care of him and that's all I have to do. I pick up Ashton and hold him as I walk to the other end of the room. I lay him down and change him. I got this, I'll be a super mom once I finish this.

''Tada!'' I raise my hands up and wipe them. I tickle Ashton and touch his. It reminds me of Matt's nose. Speaking of him, he's been working really hard with his whole acting career. He gets home while I and Ashton are sleeping and he leaves early in the morning while we are sleeping. I mean, once in awhile, I could feel his kisses being placed on my template, but rarely. I was say this has been happening for about three or four weeks now. 

Meanwhile, I've been taking pictures of Ashton every week so that when he turns older, Matt can see him grow as if he was there. I also have been packing my stuff from me and Alexis' apartment because Matt is planning to get a new home for us. 

Everyday has been so boring without him, my only distraction would be Ashton. I take care of him, play with him, and even take him out to parks. All day everyday. 

I pick up Ashton and take him downstairs as Mahogany and Jacob make out on the couch. I cover Ashton's eyes and mumble, ''Keep it PG 2 months old here.'' 

I walk into the kitchen and place Ashton in a high chair. I turn around to the drawers and bend down, rumbling to see if I can find Ashton's baby food. Okay let's see...  Green peas? Mash carrots? Let's just stick with milk. I fix him some milk and watch him drink it up.

Being by myself all day with Ashton really has only led me to one choice... Teaching him in his early stages. Maybe he'll be the smartest kid in the world, who know's. 

A burp escapes from Ashton's mouth, knocking me out of my thoughts. ''Wanna go visit daddy at work?'' 

''Wanna go visit daddy at work?'' I ask again in a goofy voice, tickling Ashton. He laughs, screaming a bit. I let go and carry him to the front door. ''Sperry's? Yes.'' 

I put some Sperry's on Ashton, matching his black t-shirt and denim pants. I grab a pair of lace gladiator sandals for myself to match my denim shirt dress. I take my hair out the ponytail and let it down wavy and grab a pair of sunglasses to hold my hair back. ''Alright let's go.'' 

I buckle Ashton up and ensure that it was secure and close the doors. I go to the driver's seat and buckle up myself. I lock the doors and start the car, making my way to Matt's near-job. After a few moments we arrived. ''Maybe we should get your dad some dinner, sounds good?'' I look at the view mirror at Ashton, he just smiles and looks out the window. 

I get out of the car and unbuckle him. I grab my phone, wallet, and Ashton's car seat. I walk into the lobby with Ashton's car seat next to me. Maybe Matt will like some Chipotle. I walk up to the front and order me and Matt's food. My favorite part of this Chipotle is how fast they are. ''Espinose?!'' 

''Here!'' I raise my hand, grabbing Ashton's car seat. I grab the food and thank the cashier. We go to Matt's floor or where he's supposed to be at to study his scripts for the movie he will enroll. 

I stop before entering the floor, making sure to get a better grip on the car seat and walk further. I look through the glass double doors to see Matt, two other guys, and two other girls. The guys seem to be eating and Matt is off to the side looking at stacked papers. By my point of view, this isn't fair. 

I walk inside quietly, hoping to surprise Matt. As I got in, Matt's head shoots up. His smile turns big as I appear closer with the Chipotle. He gets out of his seat and walks up to me. ''Hey baby, what are you doing here?'' 

''I thought me and Ashton would come by and get you some dinner.'' I peck his lips. He releases and bends down to Ashton. As he plays with him, I quickly set up our food. 

''Hi, you must be AdraBelle.'' A guy that seemed to be a little bit older than Matt, greets.

''Hello?'' I question, confused. 

Matt walks up behind me with Ashton. ''This is my partner for the movie, David.''

''This is your son?'' David says, amused. ''He sure looks like you.''

''Yeah, his name is Ashton.'' Matt smiles down at Ashton. I smile and hug his waist. 

''You guys made a beautiful child.'' David chuckles. 

''Same father, different mother.'' Matt says, quickly. I slightly smile, already accepting the facts. 

''Oh,'' David looks down at me. I nod my head bringing Ashton with me to the table as Matt joins. 

''Ignore him,'' Matt says, looking down at the food. He grabs my hand and kisses it. ''Thank you for thinking of me, baby.'' 

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im so lazy!!!

im sososos sorry for not updating but it was FSAs ugh.

but what about this chapter huh, it was pretty long and NOT edited so forgive my mistakes. 

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