I Need You

Chapter 21

2 days later
The past two days I've been alone and all by myself. I've been crying and have got hardly any sleep. I have a lot of missed calls and unread messages from my friends but I have been ignoring then and I've been ignoring Nathan cause it just hurts. I need a way to take away the pain and get away from this sad reality. I opened my door and walked down to the kitchen and looked in the fridge to see a few alcohol bottles which I grabbed and I grabbed a carton that was in the cupboard. I quickly ran back to my room and shut the door and placed the alcohol on my bed. When my dad was sad or hurt he would drink his pain away so I decided to give it a go.

I sat on my bed and opened the first bottle of alcohol and began my journey to the land of drunks. With every bottle I became more and more drunk and was lying down on my bed. I was crying over my brother and my mum which hurt. I had the sudden need to pee and I got off my bed before walking over to the bathroom which was in the hall. I finished and walked out to see the parents door open. I walked over to it to see a note on the bed I opened it to read what it held.

Dear my beautiful daughter,
I'm sorry but I can't do this anymore. Losing your mum and your brother it has become to much for me and I'm scared that I will loose you next. One day we will meet again but for now I need to get away and get myself back together but seeing your face it reminds me so much of your mum and your brother and it hurts me. I'm sorry but if you are reading this I have left and I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry.
Dad x

The tears just fell and I ran back to my room. I drank so much alcohol that I was just so fucked up and had no idea what I was doing. I was still crying and I don't know how but I ended up at James door. I knocked on the door and took another gulp of the bottle before it finished and I dropped it to hear it smash on the ground just as the door opened to reveal Nathan looking at me with worry written on his face.

"Melody are you okay?" He asked. I just cried and wrapped my arms around him. His arms went around me and I cried in his chest.

"I'm alone in the world" I replied still crying. He pulled back from the hug and looked at me.

"Not your not you've got me" he said wiping my tears.

"All my family is gone, maybe I'm just not worthy of love" I said and his face looked sad.

"I love you so much and you are worthy of love, I'm sorry about your family" he told me and I just shook my head.

"NO IM NOT you will leave me as well when you go back to America and then I will have no one" I cried.

"But I'm not leaving" he told me.

"Yes you are your an exchange student you have to go back" I told him.

"No I talked to them and told them I have family here and they let me stay" he told me making me look at him.

"Your lying everyone leaves me" I said.

"No I'm not" he said told me.

"If you love me as much as you say you do then prove it" I said looking at him in the eyes.

"Your drunk I'm not going to take advantage of you" he told me which made me cup his face.

"I don't give a fuck if I'm drunk" I said as I smashed my lips on his. We kissed and it soon became a make out session and I took my top off. I kissed him like my life depended on it. I took off his shirt and I ran my hands over his shirtless body. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him. He shut the door behind me and walked over to his room and shut the door behind us. He laid me on his bed and my legs where still around him. He broke from the kiss to kiss along my jaw and down my neck  to my soft spot which made a moan escape my lips. I unwrapped my legs and began to undo his pants but he pulled away.

"I'm not taking advantage of you" he said looking at me.

"Your not if I want you" I told him and he shook his head.

"Maybe when you aren't drunk" he said as I sighed and laid under him with my arms crossed.

"You suck" I said.

"When your not drunk you will remember it and not regret it" he said as I sighed and he got off me and got off the bed and walked out of the room. I got under his covers and closed my eyes. I heard the door close and the bed dip next to me. I felt him pull me next to me and kiss my head.

"I love you" he said before I fell asleep.