I Need You

Chapter 14

Two weeks later
It's been two weeks since I lost my little brother. Two weeks since I last went to school. Two weeks since I last spoke to anyone. Two weeks of sleepless nights and cries. Everyday since the day I lost my brother I have locked myself in my room. Only coming out for dinner then going straight back to my room. I don't think people understand how much it hurts to lose someone close to you until it happens to you. But today I had to talk. Today I had to come out of my room. I had to leave the house. My phone began to buzz on my bedside table whilst I laid on my bed staring at the celling. I reached over and grabbed my phone. I looked at the screen to see the calling had stopped and I saw 50 missed calls and 100 unread messages. I looked at the time and sighed, I had to get up. I put my phone down and rolled out of bed. I grabbed my towel from the back of my door and went to have a shower. When I was done I dried myself off and walked back to my room with the towel wrapped around me. I shut the door behind me. I walked over to my draws and pulled out my underwear and slipped them on. I walked over to my wardrobe and looked through my dresses until I found a black one. I grabbed it out and slipped it over me before I walked back to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth, put on deodorant and did my hair. I put on my makeup lightly and put in my earrings and put on my necklace my mum gave me. I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked different from the last two weeks. I didn't look like a mess. I looked presentable, but I had to look nice because today was my brothers funeral.

"Melody you ready?" I heard my mum ask from the other side of the door.

"Yeah" I replied and walked out of the bathroom. I saw my mum standing there. We stood for what seemed like hours until she took me into a hug. I hugged her back and sighed, I haven't hugged my mum in two weeks.

"Come on let's go" mum said pulling away from the hug. I followed her to the front door and slipped on my black heels. I walked out to the car and hopped in the back, dad drove us all to the church. Once we got there I saw all of our other family members and friends. Standing around the church dressed in black from head to toe. Dad parked the car and we all hopped out. I was immediately surrounded by people, a massive group hug went into motion. I looked around to see my friends, they all looked at me with sad faces.

"How are you?" James asked me. They all pulled away from the hug.

"Okay I guess" I replied, I saw Nathan walking up to me and I ran and hugged him and I felt his arms go around me too.

"Hey you okay?" He asked and I just shook my head. I felt my eyes fill up with water,  I hugged him tighter and I felt him place a kiss on my forehead. I wanted to be like this forever but I knew I couldn't.

"Can everyone please come inside for the funeral to begin?" A tall man asked. I pulled away from the hug but he still held my shoulders and looked at me.

"Come on, you can sit next to me" he said. I nodded, then we walked inside with everyone else. I sat down towards the front with Nathan and my friends, while my family sat across from me. The funeral began and I listened to people talk about my little brother. I couldn't stop looking at the photo of him, standing next to his coffin. He was smiling, he was happy. Soon my parents went up to talk, I watched as they both cried. After they had finished their speeches they sobbed back into their seats.

"Now we will have Melody, his sister come up and talk" the same tall man said. I stood up and walked towards the podium next to where my brother laid. I stopped walking to the podium and walked over to his coffin to see his small pale body lying there, with his arms crossed over his chest. His beautiful brown eyes closed and hidden from the world, his chest as still as a rock not rising nor falling. I felt a tear roll down my face. I walked past him to the podium. I felt everyone's eyes looking into mine, I took a deep breath and opened my mouth.

"My brother, Chris. He was the best brother I could ask for. He was too young, not even double digits and his life was taken from him. He was a loveable kid and always had a happy vibe about him. He wasn't just my brother but my best friend. It wasn't very often but I would sing him to sleep and he loved it. There isn't a day that goes by where I don't wish that it was me lying in the coffin instead of him. He never gets to fall in love, finish school, get a job, have a family and drive. Sometimes, we had massive fights and we said that we hated each other, but we both knew we didn't mean it. He was too young, but now I would like to sing a song for him for the last time" I moved over and grabbed the guitar, I put the strap around me and and began to play Photograph by Ed Sheeran. I was half way through the song when I couldn't do it anymore I put the guitar down and ran. I ran out of the church with water filling up my eyes and tears racing down my face. I ran until I reached a big oak tree, I fell down and cried. I hugged my knees and let the tears fall. I felt someone sit next to me. I looked up to see Nathan looking into my eyes. I leant my head on his shoulder and he wrapped his arms around me. I just cried, I didn't care that he saw me crying. I buried my face in his chest. He whispered soothing words into my ear to try and calm my crying, I felt him rub my back. After a while of crying I pulled away from him, his shirt soaked from where I was crying. I laughed a little and wiped the tears away.

"I'm sorry" I apologised. He looked at me with a confused face.

"For what?" He asked.

"For soaking your shirt with my tears" I answered him and he looked down at his tear stained shirt.

"It's okay, I'll be your shoulder to cry on any day darling" he smiled and I leant my head on his shoulder again. His arms went around me and we hugged.

"Can you stay with me?" I asked him looking at the trees sway in the wind.

"Always" he replied. A small smile spread across my face. We just sat there under the big oak tree, Nathan holding me and the breeze blowing in our faces.