Chapter 32
Jp's POV
everyone is back on being happy again, everyone is back where they supposed to be. Sunshine and Niall, Liam and Harry.. but what about me? not that i feel envy or something its just i feel like i was left out?
I know i should be happy for them.. but these feelings wont leave me. If i could just move on, if i could just find someone else. but its not like that Zayn isn't someone who you could easily forget , Zayn is not like everyone.
I just wish to go back in time and maybe, do things i never had done. Hold his hand, kiss him, hug him or even tell him everything. Tell him i was there , tell him i apreciate him. I want to tell them all, but would he believe it? would he even say I love you back?
I'm walking on the clear dark road heading to go home. Thinking for the 100'th time of him. Its also the 4th day and the school has ended. I was expecting him earlier, that maybe he'll be there tell me why he's gone.Maybe its all my fault too, I knew i had feelings for him before but i wasn't so sure if i should tell him. I was afraid of falling apart and also afraid of losing someone.
As I look on the lonely sidewalk i remembered seeing him here, remembered the first time we met. Wishing he was here i stopped from walking and look up saw stars and now i feel so glad. But i would feel better if he was here with me.. saying 'You shouldn't be afraid of the dark'
Maybe i was too lonely, that i want him to appear right then. But he didn't and i continue walking, still wishing something out there he'll shout my name. and talk to me, face me in the night because i wasn't afraid anymore. Darkness becomes my peace, and stars became my savior and everything is so beautiful. " I miss you Zayn " I cried.
" JP!! "
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