Chapter 25
Niall , desperately wants to move on. he , wants to forget her that he also fooled himself. he loved her so much, he fooled himself of having thoughts of loving someone he actually don't. he wants to show her , that he can move on. that he could make it, that he could find another. but that's a lie. he can't move on, he don't want to. but he have to.
he still loves sunshine just like how he love her for the first time. he even looks at her when he kisses jp, he want to think that sunshine is jealous. he wanted too, but he don't want to. when he hold jp's hand he tries to do it when sunshine is around, maybe she'll see niall with someone and sunshine will come back to him. telling him that she still love him.
but no, instead of sunshine being the one hurt , just like he thought. it was actually niall, he is hurt, hurt that even though he have someone new, sunshine look happy. sunshine look fine, he even thought if sunshine really did loved him before or was it all a lie?
Niall , want to make everything right. he want to replay everything and stop at the moment of looking at sunshine on the first time he saw her. the time where niall falls down on his knees and a girl laughed at him, slowly looking up to see sunshine. she didn't offer him a hand, instead she kneels down and ask if he was okay.
and niall knew, he have to do everything to make that girl his. but he is such a coward, that's why he have to talk to her brother, zayn. and that's his wrong , he thought if scaring zayn will give him an attention to sunshine. no it wasn't, he knew its not.
niall smiled, and let out a tear. quickly wiping them, he don't want everyone to see him crying. " niall-- " jp stands up , but he puts a hand up, telling her to stop. " i knew okay? and, do-don't worry, its fine. jp, i know we're both lying to ourselves. we're both desperate for love that we thought we we're actually in love. but we're both blind, wanting to feel something and forget that we just have to open our eyes to see the truth. and right now, i know it is. so thank you, jp. thank you. "
jp hugs niall and they both felt relief. " we're still good friends right? " jp cried and niall just nods, perrie smiled at the sight. she misses her friend zayn, she remembered zayn before he leaves. before he's fully gone." wait, jp? " jp turned around to face perrie. " do you know liam? we'll zayn said before he left, that he handed something to liam that you should take. " jp felt hope, she felt hope. again for the first time.
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