What have I done? I may have just hurt the one person in the world who truly loved me. I'm so fucking stupid. There I was telling him all that stuff about loving him and I didn't really mean it... I was just feeling bad for him. I know he must hate me now.
Here I am walking home alone and the tears are just pouring down my face. I could have done that in a whole better way or Atleast waited until he was feeling better.
Not only did he lose the only person he could confide in and loved more than anyone in the world, but he lost someone he was probably in love with. Don't get me wrong... I love him, but I'm just not in love with him
I never intended on him falling in love with me, as well as I never intended on falling in love with him. This was just an experiment that went too far. 3 years too fa-
Oh fuck! What am I saying? I do love him! I'm in love with him!
I turned on the heels of my shoes and ran as fast as I could to Angel... My Angel. I ran as fast as I could. Using every ounce of energy within me!
What was I thinking? He was hurt and defeated and I left him alone in his time of need. Instead of hurting him I should've been there with him. Making him feel safe and warm.
There was really no SJ. He was just consoling me the past few weeks while I was away from Angel... We were on the same wrestling team so I had to talk to him. I was just running on false feelings from being away from my Angel.
I finally got to Angels porch and knocked on the door as hard as I could. The tears still falling from my eyes. After about what seemed like an eternity, the door was finally opened.
"Hey Mrs. -"
"What do you want now Brock," Angel's mom snapped. "Angel is torn because you dumped him. I heard everything you told him earlier. These walls are thin."
"I know Mrs. -"
"No you don't know. My son is in his room on a total psycho breakdown because you hurt him Brock. You hurt my baby and I'm in the right mind to hurt you."
"Mrs. Garcia. I don't know what to say. I was just confused and lost. The truth is there is no one else. It's Angel... And I love him."
"If you loved him you would not have hurt him. Now I think you should leave while I keep him from destroying the rest of his room. And to think I was going to let him go on that camping trip with you next month. You probably woulda just left him there."
"Can I please just talk to him?"
"No Brock. Right now he's sitting in his room all curled up on his floor and crying. He even took everything from his dresser and just threw it across his room. He destroyed everything!"
"His dresser. What was in his - FUCK!"
I ran past Angel's mom and up the stairs. The whole time his mom and Nevaeh right behind me asking questions.
"What is it Brock," Angel's mom cried as I stepped into his room.
The sight before me was horrific. Everything was in shreds; clothes, stuffed animals, pictures.... Of us. Wow! I never thought that he would go that far. He has extremely lost it.
I couldn't move from the spot. Just the view of he room put me into a world of misery and hurt.
"Boy," Nevaeh shouted, snapping me out of my daze.
I looked around the room in search of Angel but nothing. I looked at his nightstand with the drawer still open.... The drawer where the razor was. I searched around frantically for it and didn't find it.... Then it hit me.. I know exactly where it is and Angel. That would explain the running shower as well.
"No," I shouted.
I jumped up and over Angels bed and rushed to his closed bathroom door. I tried to open the knob but it was locked...
"Angel," I screamed beating on the door. "Angel, open the door!"
After the third time of calling him and no response I stood back and and with all my strength, I charged the door, breaking it off of is hinges. The surroundings before me just made me fall to my knees and crawl to the bathtub.
I didn't care about getting wet p getting blood on me. I crawled into the tub and cradled his body, "Angel... Angel come on baby stay with me," I said while rocking him back and forth in my chest.
"HURRY! CALL 911," I shouted to his mom and sister. "HURRY... HURRY!"
YOU ARE READING
Where Do I Go (boyxboy)
Não FicçãoAngel is gay. Most people don't see that as a problem. Except his dad, who is an anti-gay group leader and a gay basher. After telling the rest of his family about his sexuality they come up with a plan to tell their father. Whom they are sick of ca...
