Right or Wrong

Chapter 8

Azure
This was a side i never seen of Devin , i automatically felt tears coming as he yells, " get out " i looked him in his eyes and all i could see was so much anger. I said to him
Me: Devin I wasn't sure or not if Regin---
Devin: AZURE I REALLY DONT CARE WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY GET THE FUCK OUT.
Me: no, i know you don't mean that.
Devin: you think I'm joking? Azure get out real shit im trying my best not to put my hands on you please get the fuck out.
Me: no tell me that you love me and you still care?
Devin: I don't I lied I just wanted to fuck now get out my house.

I felt used, lied to, It hasn't even been 24 hours and I'm gettin regrets already after we have sex I really thought Devin was the one i thought he wasn't gone do me how Reggie did me. I thought he was different but I met a whole another side of him tonight. Im getting terrified because I never seen this side of Devin before. I know he's mad about me not telling him, but i wasn't sure if what Regina was telling me was true or not.
I say to him: Devin please calm down
Devin: HOW THE FUCK IM SUPPOSE TO CALM DOWN AZURE? HOW? EVEN THOUGH JR. ISNT MY BIOLOGICAL SON HE STILL APART OF ME AND YOU OUTTA ALL FUCKING PEOPLE KNOW THAT, I WILL KNOCK ANYBODY OFF THEY FEET IF THEY EVEN LOOK AT JR. WRONG HOW YOU THINK I FEEL TO KNOW THAT A GIRL I REALLY LIKE CANT ACCEPT THE FACT THAT WHETHER SHE IS AROUND OR NOT JR. WILL ALWAYS BE MY FIRST PRIORITY. YOU BEING A SELFISH BITCH MADE ME SPENT ALL FUCKING DAY WITH YOU PAMPERING YOU KNOWING YOU KNEW MY SON IS IN A FUCKED UP POSITION? I CALLED SHAQUAVIA PHONE THIS MORNING THINKING SHE IGNORING ME CAUSE IM WITH YO SELFISH ASS? BUT THIS GIRL COULD PROBABLY BE HIGH OFF DRUGS? OR DEAD? BUT NAWL YOU AINT CARE TO SAY ANYTHING YOU WANNA BE SELFISH AND NOT TELL ME NOTHING TILL 12 HOURS LATER, AZURE DO ME A FAVOR AND FUCKING LEAVE !!!!

This isn't the Devin i know especially to call me out my name, the tears started falling , i put my clothes on and snatch my stuff and called my mom.
Me: mom can you pick me up?
Mom: you ok?
Me:yes just come please.
Mom: ok
* i send her Devin address *
This had to be the worse night ever how could something so good turn so bad. My mom finally pulls up
Mom: you ok?
Me: yes
Mom: you don't wanna talk about it?
Me: no not at all
I couldn't hold the tears back , I felt used and lied to. I started crying in the car
Mom: you wanna hug?
Me: yes
* my mom pulls over and hugs me for a good 3 mins * she finally says, "I called you earlier to tell you that the girl you were arguing with in school the other day was on the news" . I looked at my mom, " on the news for what?" She apparently had a overdose and was beaten up. I asked my mom what happened to the baby, she said " they're both in the hospital . The baby look like it hadn't eaten in months, had rashes, and bruises. Everything Devin was saying to me started to playback in my head. I didn't think what i did was selfish but i realized the way I acted about the situation made the circumstances worse. i just didn't have my facts straight but maybe what Devin is saying is true maybe i am selfish looking at the situation now I do regret not telling Devin right away.If I had said something earlier maybe Shaquavia wouldn't be in the hospital. We finally pull into my driveway i go inside my room and the first thing I do is call Devin , no answer i call again still no answer. Then i just lay in bed looking at the ceiling thinking i hope Devin doesn't do anything stupid. I decide to text him
Me: Devin please answer the phone i know your angry and im probably the last person you want to talk to right now. Please just hear me out.

My message delivered but no reply

Devin
I honestly don't even look at Azure the same nomore i feel so disgusted to even say this girl was apart of my life. How could a person be that cruel ? I give this girl the world and all I ask for is loyalty and I couldn't even get that. These hoes really ain't shit, I'm walking back and forth in my living room when all of a sudden my phone rings I look it's Azure, ignore call, then it rings again it's Azure I ignore it then it rings again but this time it's not Azure it's Shaquavias mother, which is the last person in the world right now that I would expect to call my phone especially at this time of night.
Me: hello
Shaquavias mom: DEVIN , it's Shaquavia & Jr. they're in the hospital !!!
Me: say nomore I'm omw
I mean as much as Shaquavia and I go back and forth I'll always be there for her especially in crisis like this . As im leaving the house I speed all the way to the hospital , I pull up and I couldn't even park properly. Tears filling my eyes cause im not prepared about what I'm going to see I walk through the hospital looking for Jr. and Shaquavia I finally see Shaquavias mom.
Me: what happened they ok? Everything alright?
Shaquavia mom: no Shaquavia overdosed and was beaten by her former boyfriend
Me: what about Jr?
Shaquavia mom: he got little bruises around him and a few rashes but the doctors say he'll be perfectly fine all he need is some food and ointment.
Me: what you mean he got bruises? Somebody touched him?
At this point I don't see nothing but kill kill kill , im losing it I'm about to pull up to Reggie crib and end this fuck nigga life . As im thinking i get a text from Azure, I'll check it later i got other things on my mind at the moment. Few hours past by and the doctor comes out and say , they'll be alright but Shaquavia has to stay in the hospital for a few more days , but we have DCF who might want to take Devin away from Shaquavia due to this situation.
Shaquavias mom: no im the grandma I'll take care of him Shaquavia wasn't living with me at the moment she was hanging out with the wrong crowd.
I jumped into the conversation
Me: no I'll take him, I promise you'll have nothing to worry about
The doctor: well are you the biological father?
Me: no but my signature is on his birth certificate that's my Jr.
The doctor: well we'll setup an appointment with DCF to come by your house tomorrow to check everything ok and if everything is cleared then you're free to have full custody of baby Jr. till then he must stay with his grandma.
Me: no problem.
I walk in the room to go check on Shaquavia
Me: * knock knock *
Shaquavia: come in
Me: you feeling any better
Shaquavia: i have a terrible headache i feel like a bad person, how could I let something like this happen?
Me: it's cool don't beat yourself up about it just calm down and rest.
Shaquavia: i got so caught up with wanting to be happy like you and Azure. Wanting to take revenge i didn't realize the risk i put my son in when i moved in with Reggie
* I pushed her hair behind her ears and stoked her cheek softly *
Me: don't worry ima handle that nigga im just glad you ok, and forget about Azure that's done .
Shaquavia: seriously? What happened?
Me: look at you always trying to feed into drama just close your eyes and go to sleep babygirl .
* i kiss her on her forehead *
Shaquavia: Devin i know i don't tell you this a lot but thanks for everything , you've always been there no matter if we were on good or bad terms and i want to apologize for making you look dumb if i could go back in time and take it all back i would.
Me: it's cool I forgive you now get some rest.
I go into the lobby and still waiting for them to release Jr. I decide to get on Twitter and tweet
" Glad my family ok "

Azure
It's been hours later and still no reply from Devin but his Twitter notifications get sent to my phone and he tweeted " Glad my family ok " so I'm thinking what nigga y'all a family now? You just gone do me so dirty and act like what happened tonight didn't happen? I was hurt, my feelings were everywhere I felt played,i felt dumb. This nigga didn't care about me he used me for one thing here i am thinking he my Prince Charming, he gone do me right, why didn't I listen to my mom when she said these boys are no good. I started crying my mom knocked on the door, " Azure dinner is ready. " I replied, " I'm not hungry. " she responds, " well whenever you are the food is on the table im leaving for work"

2 Weeks pass Devin has full Custody of Jr. , Azure and Devin still haven't spoken , Reggie is in jail till his hearing , Devin is still tempted to get revenge . Shaquavia is still in the hospital.

Azure

2 weeks pass and i still haven't spoken to Devin, im glad he gotten full custody of his son though. I wake up to the smell of breakfast being cooked , so happy my mom stop working night shifts because now I get to eat breakfast , sleep late , and get a ride to school. My mom knocks on my door " sleepy head wake up ", I yell " im already up " I hop out of bed to get ready for school and i automatically run to the bathroom and throw up. Which i automatically think oh shit my period hasn't come yet, im a week late. my mom walks in the bathroom, " what's wrong with you? " I respond, " uh probably cause I haven't been eating p " , she replies, " girl if you don't get over that boy and eat , i made breakfast , so start your day off with a good meal " I hop in the shower so many thoughts running through my head, I can't be pregnant no he said he pulled out, no no no this is impossible. I get dressed i notice im a little thicker in my pants than I usually am , this can't be happening. God please just make this go away, how do I tell my mom about this oh lord. My mom calls my name " AZURE COME EAT YOUR BREAKFAST BEFORE IT GET COLD " I go downstairs and try to attempt to eat my breakfast but the scent makes me wanna throw up which is weird because I love eggs , i try to force myself to eat but i couldn't , i just tell my mom " mom im running late ima just grab some grapes. " we're on our way to school all im thinking about is I can't be pregnant I can't be pregnant i can't be pregnant . my mom is talking to me but im so distracted because im terrified Devin is done with me , my mom would probably kill me if she knew . Im so confused i don't know what to do , I finally get to school i say bye to my mom and text Sierra, " where you at? I need to talk to you ASAP "