Waste the night || Lashton

Chapter 5

Ashton's POV
Luke and I walked up the stairs of my apartment block, ours hands intertwined, me being slightly ahead as I led Luke through the building.

My heart ached for the blonde boy next to me, as I found out last night how much he's been through. I was glad he had opened up to me because I feel like he really needed to let it out, and I now felt a lot closer to him. I feel like I understand him more now and can hopefully support him.

We reached my apartment and I fumbled with my keys to unlock the door. I swung the door open and made my way through our apartment. As we entered the kitchen I saw Michael sitting at the kitchen counter eating a bowl of cereal. He was shirtless, his hair was messy and his eyes were half shut. It was obvious he had just woken up.

Michael looked up from his cereal as he heard us enter, his mouth opened slightly and he looked back and forth between us both.

"Are you two are thing?" He asked us as he nodded towards our linked hands.

Luke and I looked at each other, his face was turning red and I could feel my cheeks heating up too. We unlocked our hands and I scratched the back of my neck awkwardly.

"Em.. no we're.. not" I hesitantly replied.

Luke was rocking back and forth on the balls of his feet, unsure of what to do. I noticed he did this when he was nervous and I thought it cute.

"Oh alright" Michael said, slight confusion in his voice.

I gave him a weak smile before introducing the two boys to each other and then dragging Luke through to my room.

"You play guitar?" Luke asked me as he admired the guitar in the corner of my room.

"Yeh, but I'm much better at the drums" I told him and he smiled a genuine smile.

"Do you play?" I asked and he nodded his head.

"Yeh I play the guitar" he said.

"Play me something" I asked and he suddenly looked shy.

"Only if you play something first" he told me and agreed to his deal. I walked over and picked up my guitar. I sat down on my bed and rested my guitar on my lap, strumming the first few cords.
I then began to sing

What doesn't kill you makes you wish you were dead.
Got a hole in my soul, growing deeper and deeper.
And I can't take one more moment of this silence.
The loneliness is haunting me.
And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up.

It comes in waves, I close my eyes.
Hold my breath and let it bury me.
I'm not okay, and it's not alright.
Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again?

Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'm down?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown.
Who will make me fight? Drag me out alive?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown.

What doesn't destroy you, leaves you broken instead.
Got a hole in my soul growing deeper and deeper.
And I can't take one more moment of this silence.
The loneliness is haunting me.
And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up.

It comes in waves, I close my eyes.
Hold my breath and let it bury me.
I'm not okay, and it's not alright
Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again?

Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'm down?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown.
Who will make me fight? Drag me out alive?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown.