Waste the night || Lashton

Chapter 17

Luke's POV
I grabbed onto the door for support as I felt my world crashing down around me. A strangled sob escaped my mouth and the two boys lips disconnected. Pure shock and dismay washed over their faces as they saw me standing in the door way. Michael immediately scrambled off Ashton and tried to compose himself while Ashton sat in the hospital bed, tears welling up in his eyes and his bottom lip quivering.

"It's not what it looks like" Michael pleaded and the tears began to roll down my cheeks.

"I thought you were different" I whispered to Ashton because I couldn't trust my voice if I spoke any louder.

I could no longer stand to be in the room anymore so I ran out and down the corridors, trying to get as far away as I could, as if to escape the memory. My heart felt like it was shattering inside of me and my lungs felt tight in my chest. I felt a new, horrible feeling arising, a feeling that made my chest ache in pain and my eyes burn with tears; betrayal.

I had made it out to the car park when I felt a tight grip on my arm. I spun round to be faced with Michael. Guilt, frustration, desperation and sadness were written across his face as he tried to make eye contact with me.

"Luke listen!" He exclaimed as I tried to pull my arm away.

"Let go of me!' I shouted at him but his grip on my arm tightened.

"Let me explain!" Michael cried out but I didn't care about what said.

"No! I saw what happened, you were kissing my boyfriend!" I screamed at him.

"Fúcking listen to me Luke!" Michael shouted, loosing his patience as he grabbed my other arm so I was facing him. I tried to struggle free but he was much stronger than me and I was trapped. He took him a deep breath, loosening his grip on my arms ever so slightly.

"It wasn't what it looked like. I know it looked like Ashton was cheating, but he wasn't. I don't blame you for storming off because I know that if I was in your place I would have done the same thing. The thing is, I thought I was pansexual for a long time but recently I've been getting these feelings and I got so confused with my sexuality that I didn't know what to do. I ended up speaking to Ashton about it and he was very supportive and understanding and he let me kiss him to help me figure out my sexuality. The kiss meant nothing, we're best-friends and nothing like that would ever happen between us. Ashton was only doing it to help and we literally only kissed for seconds. I've known Ashton for a long time and he would never cheat on someone, especially you Luke. I mean he even got your name tattooed across his wrist that's how much he loves you! And you better not hold this against him because you know the condition he's in right now and you can't afford to fallout and loose him and neither can he. Out of everybody Luke, I thought you'd understand. I thought you'd understand what it's like to be confused about your sexuality. I know now though, I know I'm actually bisexual."

Michael sounded like he was on the verge of a breakdown, his voice cracking as he said the word 'bisexual.' I just stood there, trying to take I'm everything Michael had told me. I suddenly no longer felt anger or betrayal towards him because I understood. I understood the place he was in, and all he had wanted was to figure himself out but it had ended badly. I felt a slight feeling of pride for Ashton. The fact that he had tried to help his bestfriend with something so difficult and personal made me feel proud that I was his boyfriend.

"I understand" I said to Michael and he looked slightly taken aback that I had forgiven him so quickly.

"You do?" He asked me, making sure he'd heard me correctly the first time.

"Yeh. I know what it's like and i completely understand." I simply said.

Michael didn't even reply but instead he wrapped his arms around me and engulfed me in a hug.

"Thanks so much Luke" he said sighing with relief.

"It's alright man" I told him patting his back.

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I entered room 136, following Michaels lead. Ashton was sitting up, his eyes red and bloodshot and his face tear stained.

"Luke I'm so sorry! It honestly didnt mean anything and I was just trying to help Michael. I would never cheat on you or hurt you and I was going to tell you but you saw it happen-" Ashton apologised but I cut him off.

"Michael explained everything to me. I understand Ash." I told him but he still looked guilty.

"But Luke you have every right to be mad at me and-"

This time I cut off his rambling by locking my lips with his. He kissed me back with such passion that I knew he was trying to say sorry through the kiss and show me that I was the one he wanted. I felt like all the shattered pieces of my heart were pieced back together when Ashton's lips met mine. The electric feeling spread through my body as he bit my lip and slipped his tongue in my mouth. We shared this heated kiss for a few minutes until we heard Michael cough awkwardly in the background so we pulled apart.

Our faces both flushed red in embarrassment and Michael shifted awkwardly on his feet.

"Ashton I'm bisexual" Michael spoke up, breaking the awkward silence.

"What?" Ashton said, looking quite shocked at Michaels outburst.

"I'm bisexual" Michael repeated, a small smile creeping onto his lips.

"That's great Mikey!" Ashton exclaimed, genuinely happy for his bestfriend.

"Congrats" I told him, giving him a small smile.

"Thanks." he said but I could tell he wasn't just saying thank you for that, but for everything that had happened in the last hour.

"So you really do forgive me?" Ashton asked me again, slightly unsure if I was still angry at him.

"Yes Ash, I do." I told him, grabbing his hand and giving it a squeeze.

I watched his eye lids get heavy and I watched him drift off to sleep, not letting go of his hand, never wanting to let go of him.

I wrote this chapter at 3 in the morning so that's probably why it's a emotional mess. Thanks for reading, commenting and voting <3 ~Hannah