Old Friends

3- True Feelings

Dean walked in and was sort of surprised to see me. "Hey. Whatcha doing here, Caitlin?"

"Just hanging out with Sammy for old time's sake. If you've got something you need to do, I'll head out." I offered.

"No it's fine. In fact, I had something to talk to you about. Mind giving us a minute, Sammy?" Sam shook his head and went out. I wondered what Dean was going to talk about.

"So what's up, Dean?" I asked.

"Don't think I'm going soft, but I was thinking about why we hadn't talked to you in so long and I realized it was because of me. I made you feel worthless and stupid and like I hated you. I'm sorry for that. I just didn't know how to handle everything. I'm a hunter and I knew that's all I would be and with you not wanting to be one, I knew it wouldn't work as much as I wanted it to. I just couldn't handle your rejection." He explained but I had figured that out years before.

"I know that Dean. I figured that out years ago. It's ok. The age gap is pretty big too. It's like 4 years. It's not as big of a deal now that we're older, but still. I know you wanted a hunter and I was just gonna tie you down." I explained. He nodded. We told Sam to come back in and just hung out for a while. "If you guys wanna hang out at all over the weekend, shoot me a text. I better head back. It's getting late." I spoke up around 11:30.

"I'll walk you back. It's dark and not the best neighborhood." Sam spoke up. He was right. That side of the large campus wasn't the greatest neighborhood. I nodded. We walked out and he took me back to my dorm.

"Why are you so quiet?" I asked.

"No reason." He replied nervously. We got to the building my room was in when I stopped.

"Ok, Sam. What's up? Why are you so into me hanging out with you and talking to me and asking about my feelings for Dean? I know it's been a while but you're being extra forward and asking about my feelings." I asked. This was weird even for him.

"It's just been a long time since we've talked, ok?" He stated. I knew it was a lie but I let it slide for the time being.

"Ok. Just wondering. Goodnight, Sam."

"Goodnight." He replied.

Sam got a phone call soon after. "So, did you ask her?"

"No. She got suspicious of how I've been acting so I didn't."

"Come on, Sammy. You've gotta ask her before we leave town. You know I'm ok with it."

"Dean, I don't want it to end up like when you asked her."

"It probably won't. Just ask."

"I'll ask tomorrow. I'm heading back." he hung up and went back to Dean.

I laid in bed and couldn't help but wonder why Sam was acting so weird. I ignored the thought and went to sleep. I slept soundly. When I got up in the morning, I saw a text from Sam.
Hey, when you're up and want to, we're free all day if you wanna hang out.

I'll be over soon. I replied

I got up and took a shower, got dressed then headed to their hotel. Dean opened the door.

"Hey Caitlin."

"Hey. Happy you guys still wanna hang out. It's been so long."

"I know. It's good to hang with you." We sat around, watched tv for hours, and talked about when we were kids and what's happened to us since. They had really been through a lot with hunting. A lot more than I knew. I left earlier than the night before so it was still light out. Sam walked me out the door.

"Caitlin, I was going to ask you something last night, but I didn't because you kept asking me questions."

"What is it, Sam? You know you can ask me anything." I replied seeing as how he was nervous.

"I'm sure it will be no, but will you go out with me?" He asked. I was kind of surprised.

"Have you always liked me? And how will Dean feel about this?" I asked before I answered. I didn't want Dean getting mad at me or Sam.

"I always had a crush on you just I never admitted it. Dean knows I'm asking you." He replied shyly.

"Yes, Sam. I will go out with you. How about tomorrow? We can have lunch at the burger place on the good side of campus."

"Sounds good." I walked back to my dorm and was excited for the next day. I could barely fall asleep I was so excited. It was kind of weird. I hadn't ever thought about my feelings for Sam because I had been so into Dean, but the more I thought, the more I realized he was the one I loved and always had.