Atuality *editing*

Chapter 7

"What were you thinking?!" David yelled. "That you wouldn't get caught?! That you wouldn't get punnished for this?!"

We are now at the police station. It didnt surprise us that Cole killed his dad. We saw it coming. That's all he's ever wanted. I guess he didnt really think all the way through though, because he was in tears.

"I don't know," Cole said. "I just wanted him dead. I didn't think about anything else."

I kind of felt bad for him. All he was was a hurt, thirteen year old boy.

"Did that satisfy you?!" David yelled. "Do you feel complete now?!"

He stayed silent.

"I'm sorry," Cole said.

"This is why I don't trust you," David said. "Trust is earned. And you did the exact opposite of that. I just give up on you. I don't know what its going to take for you to get used to it here."

"I really am sorry David," Cole said, crying even harder. "Please give me another chance. I'll change, I promise."

"After you already got what you wanted?" David said. "It's too late for that."

I've never seen David give up on anyone. I didn't think that was possible for him. I really want him to give Cole one last chance. That's all he needs. One more.

David walked out of the cell along with the other boys but I stayed behind.

Cole looked at me, surprised that I was still here.

"Now what?" He asked. "What are we going to do now?"

"As much as I'd like to help you, I think you're on your own on this one," I said.

"I'm scared," he said. "Why didn't I just listen to Max?"

"You wanted revenge," I said. "Thats something that takes over you."

He just stared at his feet. I remember when Max did that all the time when she was scared or felt alone. When she felt that no one would understand. I felt tears start to come but I blink them away.

"I was in this spot too," I said.

"For what?" He asked.

"Killing my parents," I said.

"Really?" He asked. "Why are you still not in jail?"

"It was self defense," I said. "And I was let out for good behavior."

"If you dont mind me asking," he said. "What happened between you and your parents?"

This was kind of a touchy subject for me. Only me and the cops know what happened. No one else. I never talked about it with anyone I'm afraid that everyone would leave if they knew what I've done. But maybe it was time to.

"My mother used to..... rape? Me," I said. "I dont know exactly how to put but thats basically what she did. My father was really abusive. One day I had enough. I hid a knife under my pillow. When my mother came in and got on top of me, I stabbed her. My father heard the screams and he came in my room to see what was going on. He saw my mom on the floor bleeding out. He started hitting me, over and over again, so I stabbed him too. I called the cops on myself. I didn't fill the hole that I thought I would by doing that. If anything I was emptier, and I felt like I deserved to go to jail. I was never  to live with myself for it. Even now. After I got out they took me to live with my grandmother. But she kicked me out because she didn't want a murderer living in her house. Then I found Leo. A couple of months later, we found Max in the street. Almost dead. I suggested that we do something about it. They agreed. We jumped her father. I have always felt connected to her since then. Always needed to protect her. And I'm sure the others felt the same."

"What about the others?" Cole asked. "How did they get into your gang?"

"I think thats up for them to tell," I said.

I think it would be a good idea for the boys to tell Cole their story. But it would be hard to get them to now.

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Hey guys!!!

I really hope you're enjoying this so far.

Wow. Now we know the past of the mysterious Chris.

The song is called "If I Could fly" by One Direction. I couldnt find one that had the boys in it. They were all covers, but close enough I guess.

I think it kind of goes with the chapter because Chris is telling Cole everything. And Cole is the only one who knows besides the cops that were there. And Cole is feeling lonely which is why Chris tells him everything.

Also I love the part where it says "I've got scars, even though they can't always be seen" because Chris hides a lot. His past, his emotions, etc. A lot of people think he's fine and happy, but you can tell his past kind of haunts him a little, and then everything with Max. He's actually hurting.

Idk just thought I'd put my thoughts in.

Abviously, there are parts of the song that doesnt really go with the chapter. But the point of the song is that they're letting their guard down for a person, whether its to help them or maybe even themselves. At least thats how I see it.

Definately one of my favorite songs off of Made In The A.M.

Once again, I hope you guys enjoy the book so far.

Love you guys <3

X- A