Kissing girls (GXG)

8

My eyes feel heavy. My whole body feels heavy, too heavy to move in the slightest. I feel like I'm being pinned down by some sort of strong invisible force, I hate it. All I ant to do is open my eyes and ask Blake what the hell she's playing at, did she really bite me though? Maybe it was just some sort of weird hallucination, I thought up in my ill state.

But if it was an allusion why would I think of Blake kissing my neck? Did I like it? .....no. Okay, maybe I did a little but that doesn't have to mean anything. Right? I'm don't even know anymore. I'm straight. A least I thought I was, until I met Blake I was a so sure of my sexuality and now she has me questioning my orientation all together.

Would it matter if I was a lesbian? To my mother, maybe but do I actually care if she doesn't approve of me? No. Maybe I'm okay with being gay. Maybe I am gay. I'm gay, and I love it.

Wait. I'm gay. Gay. Into the same sex. That's weird to think, I'm kind of happy I am though. It feels like a weight has finally been lifted of my shoulders and I can breath again, which is weird because I never really noticed it being a problem before.

Okay, so I'm a lesbian who may or may not be into a girl called Blake. Urgh, Bake she's so perfect it actually hurts. The thought of her with another person just brakes my heart, I cant think like that. I wonder if she's a lesbian too, I hope she is.

"Please wake up, I'm sorry" I hear Blake's voice, I really want to reassure her but I simply cant. Which is frustrating, even if her voice is very tempting.

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Who knows how long I've been here, time doesn't seem to be a thing here, where ever here is. I hate listening to Blake cry, it's heard breaking to know it's my fault. My mum was here a while ago but she didn't stay long, she never does.

All I want is to open my eyes and reassure Blake, she comes in here and apologises and cries for hours. Which makes no sense, I doubt what I think happened actually happened so why is she sorry?

I guess I'll have to ask her when I wake up.

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A/N : Sorry it's been so long, I've been 'busy'. Yeah, not really. I've just been out and about, visiting friends mostly. Sadly I cant drive so had to take the train everywhere, God I have the train. Especially the London underground, so busy in the day, so creepy at night.

Also I'm sorry for how short this chapter is, I promise the next one will be longer. I'll try and update soon.