Kissing girls (GXG)

9

I don't know what it is.

All I know is that as I was drifting in the silent black obis when suddenly I was filled with amazing tingles. They spread from my lips and travelled all through my body, sending waves of pleasure through me.

My eyes open to see a plain white ceiling of what I assume is a hospital and the blurry face of someone hovering above me, I squeeze my eyes closed  to block out the burning light and my ringing ears. I groan and rub my face with my hands the re-open my reluctant eyes.

"Scar!" Blake exclaims making me jump out my skin,

"B-Blake?" I ask, my throat dry and gravely. Blake's tear stained face breaks into a huge grin as she scans over my face, she lets out a breath then pulls herself closer to my body, hugging me tightly.

"You're okay, you're okay!" she repeats over and over as she squeezes my aching body and rocking side to side as she grins into my shoulder,

"What-" I start, but Blake cuts me off,

"-You're passed out due to low blood sugar, hypoglycaemia. Did you know you're diabetic?" she asks,

"...No"  I state,

"Well you had a seizure while you where in the shower and hit your shoulder really hard, the lose of blood was enough to almost kill you." she said, a pained look crossing her face,

"...Oh" is all I say,

"If I knew-" Blake starts, deep pain in her eyes, "If I knew how fragile you where..." she said as tears collected in the corner of her eyes,

"It's not you're fault" I try to reassure,

"NO!" she snapped, tears flowing freely, "It's my job to look after you and yet I allow you not to eat. I can't forgive myself for that" she finishes, then starts to hug me again,

"It's okay, I'm fine" I state,

"I know you're not." she sighs "I wish I could go back and made you eat something, before I even thought of marking you. I should of known, what type of mate an I? I'm so, so sorry you got stuck with me. You don't even know how worried I've been" she rambled,

"What?" I ask, completely lost and confused about everything she had just said,

"I'll tell you when you're well enough to come home again." she sighs,

"When will that be?" I ask,

"A night or two, doctor said you'll need to sleep for a while and let the sugar work its way into your system" she informs as she continues to hug my drowsy figure,

"And you promise to tell me the real truth?" I ask,

"Promise." she finishes.

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Blake hasn't left me for the last three days. Not even while I sleep. Which is a lot. She doesn't say much, just sits there deep in thought. She watches me while I eat, being sure that I don't leave even a speck of food on the plate.

I asked her how she was getting out of school, she said I'm more important. I was flattered but at the same time felt guilty for taking her education away from her, no matter how much I tried to get her to go into school, she refused.

My mum came over one day, what an event that was. She stayed for about ten minutes in total, all the while making both me and Blake feel very uncomfortable. All she did was ask how I was feeling then sat in the chair next to my bed and dazed off.

My mum has depression. Not the type people claim to have because they feel sad every so often, but the type that prevents her from being able to go to work, school, the shops, parties or anywhere. The type that kills you. That was the first time she left the house in three months.  

"You said you'd tell me when I get out of hospital." I state is sit down on Blake's bed, for some reason Blake didn't drive me back to my house for some reason, she insisted she has to look after me until I'm at full health.

"Oh yeah" she mumbled as if she'd forgotten,

"You promised" I added, she sighed and sat next to me,

"Maybe we should wait until you're better" she suggests as she fiddles with her hands,

"I'm fine Blake, I would have been discharged if they thought I was at any danger." I push,

".....Fine, just promise you won't freak out" she compromises,

"Promise" I smile, happy I'm not going to be kept in the dark any longer,

"Mates ... are a ...thing that are a .... thing" she starts as I raise a brow at her, she sighs frustratedly running her hands through her tangled hair, "I'm not what you would think" she states, looking towards the floor,

"What do you mean?" I ask lost,

"I'm a .. person who has ...abilities you don't." she says, treading carefully,

"You're not making any sense, you promised you'd tell me so just tell me." I sigh,

"Fine. I'm a werewolf, you happy?" she snaps, my eyes widen as do hers,

"I'm so stupid." I mumble, "I actually thought we were friends but you're treating me like a idiot" I shake my head, standing form the bed,

"It's not like that" Blake sighs standing form the bed,

"I'm such an idiot, I really thought you liked me, but you don't do you? I hope you've had a lot of fun fucking with me." I snap with clenched fists, I turn and storm out the door with Blake hot on my heels,

"Scar, it's not like that. I do like you, I like you a lot. I promise I'm not -" I cut her off by slamming her front door closed.

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Angry tears stream down my face as I slam the door to my brothers room and flop back onto the freshly made bed.       

It's been so long since I've been in here. George. That was his name.

He basically raised me because my mum is a hopeless mother. He was the one to hold my hand when I was scared, the one I ran to when I was in need. No one else.

I wish he was here now, to hold my hand and tell me how I'll make different friends, that she's just some random bitch how I'll replace in no time. But he's not.

I wish my mum was like all the others and didn't spend almost all her life locked in her room, leaving me to look after myself since I was eight.

I wish I had a dad to look after me.

I wish Blake loved me as much as I love her.

Fuck.

A/N;

Sorry this is the first chapter in ages, I gave up in this story for a while. Any votes, comments and ideas for the next chapter would be greatly appreciated.