Kissing girls (GXG)

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Me and Blake find our way to a large garden and sit by a fountain. We haven't said anything to one another, just walked. I don't really want to talk I just want her presence and I think she knows that.

"I don't know if I can deal with this. It's all to much." I admit, not looking at Blake but at the water in the fountain.

"I get how this is a lot for you to take in, fuck even I'm finding it hard." Blake sighs,

"It's not the fact that a whole new world has been brung to my attention, I can handle all the monsters. I cant handle the whole ... family thing." I say.

"What do you mean?" Blake asks.

"I'm not used to it. I don't trust it." I say. "Everything I get involved with dies. I know it sounds stupid but every time I get something good it all blows back into my face." I say, tears building in my eyes. "It's tiring, just constantly wanting for the things I love to turn against me. I'd rather just not be given nice things to begin with, it's just less trouble." I admit, I start crying fully for the first time in a while. Blake puts her arms around me, rubbing my back soothingly.

"I'll always be here." She promises. "No matter what, I'm not going to leave you."

"You cant say that certainly. You'll die one day, just like George" I mumble. "He was here, he told me he would always care for me and then one day he wasn't here anymore and I was so lost." I say.

"George?" Blake asks, pulling away to look at me slightly.

"My brother." I say, Blake wipes away my tears, kissing my cheeks. "I don't know if I can watch people fade away anymore, it hurts more every time. I give them my trust and they leave." 

"Scar, you're the strongest human I've ever met. You can't pussy out now, not now that you've got so far." Blake says making me smile a little.

"You're terrible with this you know?" I ask.

"Still made you smile though" she grins. "Now little miss trust issues. We're going to go back in there and you're going to look your new family in the face. You're going to say hey, I'm Blake and we're all going to try and be a strange misshaped family and if it doesn't work that's just how things happen, I have my mate,, I have a future with her and if you don't want to be a part of that then it sucks to be you because I'm the nicest, most giving, beautiful, hottest, funniest family member you could ever dream of." she grins.

"I'm not sure I'm comfortable with my family thinking I'm hot" I laugh to myself.

"Well, you are" she gins, pecking my lips.

"So even if this doesn't go well, I should at least give it a chance?" I ask,

"You wont forgive yourself if you don't try. What ever problems you had with your mother let it be the past, give it this a chance." she suggests.

"Yeah, okay." I  smile, feeling a lot better.

I'll give this a chance to be a family and if it doesn't work then it doesn't work. I have Blake now. I lived without family I can do it again, it would be nice to have one but if it doesn't work out that isn't my fault.

Blake walks us back down the halls, some how remembering the way. Must be a werewolf thing.

"Sorry." I apologise as we enter the silent room, they all look relieved as if they had worried I was demand to go home. "Had to have a breather" I say.