"I'm just not ready"
I wasn't expecting this.
It's straight forward, but I can't deny i'd love to do just that: leave to live with Harry.
But I'm 18, I'm too young to move in with him...
I know we've been living together since a long time now, almost 3 months, but we were not paying to live here, except for the water and electricity and my parents knew where I am, and If something happens there I wouldn't be able to come back here because I would have nowhere to go. This apartment won't be mine anymore, and If anything went wrong... I'd have to go back to Orlando... I don't want to risk it..
"Harry... I don't know"
"Don't answer now, just, think about it, okay?" Harry asks, hope sparkling in his eyes.
"Fine" I smile nervously.
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It's been a week.
A week during which Harry made sure to remind me how awesome it would be to live with him.
A week during which I grew more scared day by day.
My mind is killing me. I'm overthinking everything too much, like usual and it's killing me.
I don't feel ready to leave my safe place and take risks. But Harry seems so happy and excited... He even accepted to buy a cat! He hates animals, but he knows I love them... He's ready to do this, for me. I feel so pressured. I feel like I must say yes, but i'm scared that something might happen.
What if he changes his mind? What if he realises how annoying I am? What if he doesn't love me anymore?
He's the only thing i've left, I'm so scared to lose him. But if I don't go, I may lose him too...
"Babe, stop torturing yourself, you'll love it! I'm sure." Harry says, rubbing his hand against my thigh as he drives us to the apartment he bought, with his new car.
When he pulls over to the side of the road, I look through the window to an amazing house. It's isolated, with not a lot of neighbours. Of course Harry wouldn't like to have neighbours. On the outside the house looks like those houses you see in shows like the Desperate Housewives. It's beautiful.
We visit the house, and on the inside it's very modern. I admit It's everything I've always dreamed of. Harry makes me a tour of the house, with three rooms, two bathrooms, a kitchen and a beautiful backyard. In the yard, one thing catches my eye : a beautiful small lake surrounded by flowers and a big tree. The lake is so small, it has the size of a small pool.
"Wow, Harry this is beautiful" I sigh at the beautiful view.
"I know, when I saw it, I knew you'd like it" He smiles down at me and I raise on my toes to kiss him on the lips. "So... What do you think?"
"I love the house really" I answer truthfully
"But?" He asks, now frowning "You don't seem so sure" He looks at me with concern. He knows.
"Harry-"
"Wait, if you don't like it I'll change it, I swear we can find a way, it's okay" He rushes the words
"No wait. Hear me out" I sigh, looking at him in the eyes. "I love the house, i really do" I can't help but let my gaze fall to the ground "But I don't feel ready to live with you in a house, far away from-you know- reality"
"What? But we've been leaving together since a long time now! It's not going to be different, just a new place"
"No Harry, not just a new place. It's going to be our place. Which means we will have to pay the bills together, buy everything we need, the closest market is 10 minutes from here, and I don't have a car, we need to drive to work, and to school, and I-" I rush the words, not knowing how to explain how stressful it'd be to live together.
"Babe, don't turn your back on me... We can make it, I have money, you won't even have to work anymore if you don't want to. And I'll help to pay your scholarship too."
"No, Harry i refuse to let you pay for everything and for my scholarship."
"Fine, but i'll buy you a car so-"
"Harry stop! I'm not ready, I'm sorry" I state, and Harry sighs, looking defeated, and.. very mad.
"I'll drive us back. let's go" He states dryly and I sigh.
The ride back to our apartment is silent. I know Harry's mad. But i don't think I can do anything. I'm just not ready to buy a new place with him.
"Hello" I loo at Harry who has just answered his phone. "Yeah, okay. Sure. Yes I did. What for? Fine, I'll see you there" He says as I listen close.
"Who was this?" I ask hesitantly
"Denise, my lawyer" He answers dryly again
"Oh" Is the only thing I manage to say. He has a lawyer now. He has money, and drives an expensive car. Everything happened so suddenly... It's just a lot of changements for me.
Harry parks the car in front of our building and I start to get out when I see he's not moving.
"You're not coming?" I ask looking at him with my hand on the door, ready to go out of the car.
"No." He says
"Aren't you going to tell me why?" I ask frowning
"I got stuffs to do. I'll be back tonight, don't wait for me" He says not even looking my way.
"I wasn't planing on waiting for you anyways" I mutter mostly to myself as I get out of the car, and walk towards my apartment.
A/N :
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