Foreign Love || Harry Styles AU {completed}

Forty two❦

"How the hell did I end up here?"

I know I need to tell him. But I can't get myself to call him. 

I'm only a week into my pregnancy and I'm already all stressed out and panicked. Only Cara knows, and she has been a lot of help, but I can't put my head to what is actually happening. It all happened too fast...I feel like i'm in some sort of dream and i'm going to wake up soon and everything will be back to normal, but it's not true. 

I have to face my reality. 

"Miss Gomez? Doctor Tanner will see you now" The nurse calls out in the waiting room and I get up to follow her to see my doctor. 

Sitting on the little bed thingy, I'm waiting for the results of my analysis. 

"So, Miss Gomez, you're actually four weeks pregnant. Congratulations" She smiles nervously obviously noticing i'm very young and that there's no baby daddy by my side. 

"Thank you doctor, but If I can be honest, I'm not sure If i'll keep the baby" I sigh "I'm not a very religious person but I want to keep the baby. I think I have no right to stop it's life before it even started. But I'll have to ask -you know- the dad" 

"Well honey, you have until your twenty third to twenty fourth week max to get abortion. But the sooner the better. And may I suggest to tell the dad as soon as you can. I have a lot of cases when women waited until they were a few months into their pregnancy to tell the dad and it is a lot of stress which is very bad for the hormones of a pregnant woman." 

"Okay, I will let you know my-our decision" 

I need to tell Harry. He deserves to know, but what if he already started a new life? What if he is all happy living and I break in with his soon-to-be-baby in my tummy and all the problems that comes with it? 

What if he doesn't want to see me anymore? 

I don't want to ruin his new life. 

And of course I need to tell my parents... They are going to freak the hell out... I'm 18, dropped college, got pregnant and I'm now homeless, crashing my friend's couch.

How the hell did I end up here? 

Harry Styles came into my life and ruined it all-no. He didn't ruin anything... I'm so glad I got to meet him. Yes he changed everything but he was my first love, and he still is. I'll never love someone else... At least I'll have his baby to keep me reminded of our love. 

And when I think of this night I lost my virginity to the man I love, I can't help but be happy about it. I'll never regret it. If I had to redo everything, I'll do it exactly the same. Well, maybe I would have taken that pill though...

"Hey there, how was the appointment at the doc?" Cara asks as I enter the small flat. 

"It was okay. Cara I need to tell Harry" I look at my friend in desperate need of help. 

"I agree, every man deserve to know they're going to have a baby for sure" 

"If we have it" I answer, looking at the floor like it's suddenly some kind of very interesting work of art.

"Sel, please, don't say stupid things like that. Of course you're having that baby. Don't you realise it? There's a little life in there" She says touching my belly "It's living in you, and soon it'll be a baby Harry running everywhere" She chuckles lightly "I can imagine him or her already. Brown hair, green eyes, with big dimples and a beautiful face that will turn heads"

I don't realise i'm crying until she wipes my cheeks with her tattooed fingers. 

"I- I just don't know what to do" I sob like a little girl "I'm so scared" She pulls me into her arms. 

"Shh, it's all gonna be alright. You're not alone Selena." 

A/N :

I CAN'T WAIT FOR HARRY TO KNOW !!! 

Don't be a ghost reader! 

Hope you're all doing great!! 

lots of love! 

-Elie xx