Well, I'm not really sure how today went. I saw the boy I really liked today, but whatever. I don't know. Like, he makes me so happy but he puts me in a sad mood all the time. He doesn't even know he makes me upset. But like 1st and 2nd and 3rd period, he'll ignore me (that's what I think) and will make sad faces at me and then it'll put a bad vibe on me. Then in 4th period, he'll smile and talk to me. Then at Lunch he'll sometimes sit with me and talk with me. 6th period is different every day because of my schedule. So in Art on Day 2 and 5, he'll talk the whole time with me and make me smile. On Days 1 and 3, he'll draw on my back and tickle me and say stupid stuff that makes me laugh. And on Days 4 and 6, he'll completely ignore me or make sad faces at me for no reason. Then every day in 7th period before class starts, he'll come to my locker and hold my books for me and hug me. 8th period he'll draw on my back and tickle me and smile at me and say the cutest things. And then in 9th period, he'll sometimes smile at me and talk to me, but in 9th period he really doesn't pay much attention to me. And then 10th period (FLEX) we don't have that class together, so I barely even see him that period. But right before 10th period starts, he'll come to my locker and hold my books again and hug me. The only three periods we don't have together is 3rd, 7th, and 10th. But like, I'm not even sure what to think right now. OH yeah, and he has a girl friend to TOP IT OFF. AWESOME RIGHT? No. Not awesome. And other girls will try to ya know, FLIRT with him, and it makes me really angry. And then I either go home in a REALLY good mood or a REALLY bad mood. I feel bipolar because I don't know how to feel right now. Is it me or is it him? I'm not even sure anymore. I'm not even sure if it matters anymore. I had A LOT of people tell me he likes me and wants to date me. Him himself even asked me who I liked and if I liked him. But I can't be honest with him because right now, he's not being honest with me about his feelings. So while we're both confused because we're not open about our feelings, we're both wasting our time on each other not knowing if we even should be together or not. So whatever. For right now, I give up.
