[Jungkook]
Should I be feeling pain right now?
Is it weird that I don't feel anything anymore?
The weirdest part would have to be the fact that I feel secure with BoNa by my side. I actually feel safe with her here. Almost like the way Taehyung had made me feel but in a different way.
"You know. This remind me of when we use to walk home from grade school together." BoNa smiled like the little girl from ten years ago.
"Almost. Except for the fact that I am now taller than you." I flicked her forehead, earning myself a punch to the arm.
I laughed and put on a smiling mask to hide the fact that this brings up so much good but sad memories. Good because it was when we were carefree. Sad because I can't go back in time to those good old days.
"But...are you really okay?" BoNa examine my eyes closely. She knows my well enough that I can lie but eyes are a dead giveaway.
"I'm fine. Thanks to you, Noona." I smile, avoiding her gaze and looking towards the horizon. "It's getting dark. You should probably head home."
She doesn't move but continues to look at me in awe. Almost in a way that she was surprised I said something not like me.
"What? What's the matter?" My eyes scan her face expression, my mind making sure I didn't offend her in anyway.
"Nothing. It's just, you haven't called me Noona in so long." Me labeling her earned me a sad smile that makes me realize how much I miss having her around to talk with.
I loved her, not in the way I feel towards Taehyung but it doesn't matter now. What I feel towards Taehyung is just like my life. Not knowing which direction it will go towards or if it will stop sooner than later. I guess, it stopped sooner because Taehyung is nowhere in sight.
"Do you ever miss Taehyung?" My words slur out before my mind even had the chance to process through it.
"Hmmm...today marks the 7th day of his absence right?" BoNa asked before continuing on. "Of course I miss having him around, but I kind of knew he would have to leave sooner or later."
I stare at her, surprised at how easy it was for her to let him go like that. But then again, once I saw her eyes, I knew it was just as hard for her as it was for me too.
"Better sooner than later right?" I fake a smile and shrug it off.
She only gave me smiling eyes but her lips didn't budge. BoNa seem to be in deep thoughts as if she was arguing with herself or putting some sort of burden onto herself again. As if nothing was just asked, her mood completely changed.
"I guess I will see you tomorrow." BoNa's face brightened up as she gave a quick and sharp wave, her make to me within a matter of seconds.
"I hope I will see myself tomorrow too." I whisper sadly to the trees and the cloud filled sky.
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FanfictionShe clutch the plush doll tightly to her chest and fell asleep under the night sky, letting go of whatever will she have left to hang on. Either she is found dead tomorrow or not, it didn't matter. Nothing matter because that was how it was already...
