V (A BTS Fanfiction)

chApter 26

[Jungkook]

"No. You will only see me in your dreams." I smile sadly at her from a distance and without another second to spare, I slowly close the door on her.

I let go of my breath as the uncontrollable shaking return. My hands shook violently as I went back into the bathroom to pick up the empty pill bottle. I needed to get rid of it was all that I could think of as my vision blur and went out of focus here and there.

I could feel it settling into my body. The effects of it hitting me hard, the pain just bearable enough so that I could make it to the kitchen with an excessive amount of energy use. My breathing was getting shorter and shorter. My lids threatened to close along with the pace of my heartbeat that seems to be getting slower as I overworked my body.

By the time I reached the trashcan in the kitchen, I could barely feel the beat of my pulse. I could barely hear my own heartbeat. I could barely see anything because everything has gone black already. Everything has gone numb.

Time wasn't known as to where I have left. It was just like what I thought it would be. It was just like falling asleep except you never wake up. You never because it is an eternal sleep that every person will go through sooner or later. But it felt nice. I can finally rest without worrying. I can finally stop caring.

"It's too early for your eternal sleep." A familiar voice came from a far, pulling me closer and closer to it. So close that when my eyes shot open in my dream, he was only inches away.

His bangs dangled down, brushing my forehead. He looked just the way he did that night when he left. Brown eyes that went well with the brown hair. The wide tight smile that he wore so often. Eyes as wide and unknown as the ocean.

"Hm...at least I can see you in my dream." I whisper. But this wasn't a dream. It was an hallucination because I wasn't sleeping, I was dead. Gone.

"Ha." He gave me a crooked smile. "Believe what you want but all I know is, this isn't a dream."

V's crooked smile leveled up and in a split second, he was genuinely smiling at me. I smile up at him as V cradle my head in his laps. Even though this action wasn't what I wish it was, it was enough to make me feel something other than emptiness.

"I told you. Your time isn't up." V repeated himself as he smile up to the white ceiling.

"Is that why you woke me up just now?" I tease him, poking his cheeks.

"I didn't wake you up, I saved you." His smile slowly faded out. "Here, close your eyes and go back to sleep. I promise that you might feel better after a little nap."

I did exactly as I was told. I feel asleep on the cold floor of the kitchen but in the warmth of V's presence. Some time must have passed before I open my eyes again. This time, it wasn't to a room full of sunlight and V but the dark cold room of my bedroom. Even with layers of blankets on top of me and the warm towel on my forehead, chills ran down my body.

How did I get from the kitchen to my bedroom?

I thought it was quite strange. I remember falling in the kitchen but how did I end up here. Not only that but I remember dying. I was dead. I wasn't dreaming. I WAS DEAD!

How is this possible? I took the whole bottle of sleeping pills. I can't just not die from it. There was 20 something pills in that bottle and I swallowed every one of them. I can just not die from that?

I sat up and immediately was hit with a wave of headaches and nausea. Instead of just laying back down, I got up and out of bed because of one thing. One thing that stood out to me the moment I went cold. V appeared in my dreams but what if it wasn't a dream and he really was here with me. Here with me like he said.

I ignored the doubts that grew inside me and made my way out of my bedroom before collapsing against the wall. Pushing off from the wall, I made my way down the hall. My balance suddenly becomes unstable and my vision swerve around as if I was falling.

As if I was falling.

As if I am falling.

Because I am falling.

Falling further and further.

With each thud, my head hits the wall hard.

I continue to recklessly fall with no stop until...

I laid at the bottom of the stairs in this lifeless body of mine.