I Spoiled My Life (Pain Demands To Be Felt)

Missing Him

Flashback..

Its been 6 months I haven't talked to Shehry.. Even he didn't try to contact me.. I don't know why everything strange is happening to me..
Azaan's behavior is not like before.. He is not that Azaan now.. He always kept scolding me , taunting on me for I dont know what? What have I done to him?
I never did anything without his permission.. I always did what he wants me to do.. Even I left my best frnd for him.. But he never cared for me.. Now it seems like he doesn't love me or may be he never loved me..

I was standing in the balcony when my phone rang nd hurriedly came in the room nd picked it up.. It was mamma.. I greeted her nd she greeted back..
Kesa he mera bccha? She asked with happiness nd I took a pause.. Hmmm aap ko kya btaun kesi hun..
Me blkul fit mamma pehle jesi aap btayen? Me bhi blkul thk Alhamdulillah- She said nd I smiled..
We talked for sometime nd I kept changing the topic when she comes in Azaan..
Should I ask?
Aaa... Mamma mjhe kxh puxhna tha aap se- Finally I decided to ask her..
Han beta bolo- She said nd I took a deep breathe..
Wooo... Shehryaar ka koi phone wagera aya? Ya wo milne aya aap se? I asked nd hoped for a positive reply..
Nhi beta infact me bhi tmse puxhne wali thi k tmhari bt nhi hui usse? Tmhari shadi k din se ghayb he wo pta nhi kahan chala gya na phone krta he na milne ata he.. Tmhe kxh btaya tha usne? She asked nd felt sad..
Mjhe q wo kxh btayega? Who am I to him?
Nhi mjhe kxh nhi btaya.. Bs yahi puxhna tha .. Chalen me bd me bt krti hun .. Apna khyal rkhiyega Allah Hafiz.. I said nd we hung up..

I put the phone back at the table nd was about to turn when I felt someone behind standing behind me..
Is he?? Noooooo.. Shitttt..

I turned towards him nd luked at him.. He was staring me with anger filled in his eyes..
Le li uski khabr apni maa se? He asked luking straight into my eyes as if he is gonna eat me..
Nhi wo.. Me bss asa... I was in the middle when he cut me..
Han rha nhi gya hoga na tmse.. Mene tmhe mana kia tha us k bare me soxhne tk se- He came closer to me nd twisted my wrist with all his force..
Aaahhhh.. Azaan leave my hand its paining .. Are U mad?? I cried but he didn't leave my hand..
Mana kia tha na mene? Tmne qasam khayi he meri bt na sunne ki? He said still twisting my hand..
Azaan I didn't talk to him I promise .. I was just asking about him.. I was worried about him.. He is my frnd.. Why don't U understand? My best frnd.. I started crying nd tried to take out my hand from his grip but failed..
Ohk M sorry.. Aainda nhi krungi now leave my hand Azaan its paining.. I said nd he left my hand with a jerk..

He went out if the room nd left me alone there.. I sat on the floor nd started crying.. I cried my heart out that ni8 cuz I was feeling soo broken..

He is the man I used to love.. He is not a man.. He is an animal.. How can he be soo harsh.. Mamma was ri8 .. He is not gud for me.. In fact he is not gud for any girl..

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