I Spoiled My Life (Pain Demands To Be Felt)

Complains

Assalam O Alaikum aunty- I heard his voice ..
Mamma greeted back nd offered him a seat..
Kya loge beta? Mamma asked him doing some mehman nawazi..

I was sitting in my room didn't want to face him..
After sometime he came with mamma in my room nd greeted me.. I greeted back nd he smiled a fake obe may be..

Tm is k pas betho beta me abhi ayi- Mamma said leaving us alone in the room..
Nooo.. Mamma don't go.. Why am I feeling awkward? He is my frnd or should I say was my frnd? Everything is changed now.. We can't be like before..

He waved his hand in front of my eyes nd me got me back from my thoughts.. I asked him to sit nd he sat down..
How are U? He asked ..
M gud Alhamdulillah- I replied luking down..
WBU? I asked nd he smiled..
Why is he smiling that much?
M gud too- He replied I passed him a forced smile..

For some time we both sat there quite.. When he broke the silence..
Aammm.. Sorry to hear about ur divorce- He said luking straight into my eyes.. Nd I felt pain inside me..
That pain.. That event which m trying to forget.. The most horrible event of my life..
My eyes started pooling up .. He held my hand nd came closer to me..
Hey it's ok Ajwa.. Nothing is wrong in this.. Agr koshish k bd bhi shadi na chale to uska khtm hona hi axha hota he- He said while rubbing my hand nd I pulled it back..

Plzz Shehryaar stop talking about that.. It's none of ur business- I said rudely nd he stared my face..
Nd BTW shadi khtm nhi hui he usne khtm ki he.. Usne chorha he mjhe- I kept saying nd he shook his head in NO..

Nhi Ajwa.. Usne khtm ki he ye uski bdqismati he tmhari nhi.. Plzz stop behaving like an abla naari who is nothing without a man.. U are a strong girl I know U- he said giving me courage to fight back with my pain..

I used to be strong girl Shehryaar.. But now m not that Ajwa anymore.. Everything has changed.. I am changed.. Even U are not that Shehryaar who was my best frnd- I said with soo much pain in my voice cuz I was feeling soo alone..

Noo.. Nothing has changed Ajwa.. Sb wohi he.. Tm ek bar dekho to.. Sb wahin ka wahin he.. Me wohi hun tm wohi ho.. Tmhari family wohi he.. Sb wohi he- He said holding my hand again..
Kxh nhi bdla he yaqeen kro mera.. Sb thk ho skta he agr tm chaho to.. Plzz us insan ko apni life nhi brbaad krne do.. Wo tmahre ye aansoo deserve nhi krta Ajwa .. He is no one- He said wiping my tears nd I kept listening to him .. I felt a relief while listening to him.. As if I was luking for this..

Han agr kxh change hua he to ek chez- He said leaving my hand..
Kya? I asked..
Tmhari smile.. Pehle thori real hua krti thi- he said with a cute smile nd I laughed a lil..

Oh thank GOD bs yahi missing tha- He said pinching my nose..
Tm kahan the itne din? I asked nd his face expressions changed suddenly..
Meri yd nhi ayi tmhe? Ek bar bhi contact nhi kia- I said to him but he didn't give answer of my questions..

Ary han mene text kia tha tmne rep nhi kia yr- he said compalining nd a frown appeared on my face..
Kb kia? I asked nd he siad kxh din pehle calls bhi ki thi- he said nd I raised my eyebrows remembering..
Wo tm the? I asked nd he huufffdd
Obviously me tha yr- I said giving a obvious look..

Mjhe kese pta? Jb itne mahino me tmhe meri yd nhi ayi to mere dimagh me khayal hi kese ata tmhara? I asked trying to get the answers..
Ajwa I know U are hurt.. But I don't have answers of ur questions- He said luking at his hands..
U don't have answers? Or U don't want to tell me ?? I asked nd he luked up when mamma came..

She sat with us for sometime than Shehryaar went to his home..

I laid down on my bed nd closed my eyes..
I want my answers Shehryaar.. Where were U? Why didn't U contact me? I want every single answer...

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