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31. Low Key Relationships

N.GRIER

10:12 am

"Okay class. Remember those assignments two weeks ago. Hope you checked the rubric because they're due today. Presentation time." My teacher claps gladly. (ref to chapter 12).

Right. Cameron and I had a whole project about hidden relationship. The pros and cons of having a relationship that has to stay a secret. Almost like him and Cameron. Why don't we talk about them instead of us.

Because, after all, Cameron and I never worked on the project. We only have the title on a white poster paper. "Lowkey relationships."

"Okay. So Popsicle sticks number one. You're up." Our psychology teacher tells us. I stand up proud and go look for my poster somewhere in one of the class room drawers. Cameron asks to the class, "What if you don't finish?"

"You'll have to go tomorrow and loose a few points. Did you not finish?" She asks and before Cameron can speak up, I talk for us. "Oh. We can do this by winging it. We both know a lot about low-key relationships."

Cameron's mouth drops and I internally laugh. Yeah, that's the shade. I've got the right stuff going on.

"Low key relationships. They're when, you don't want to publicly confess your relationship to your family or friends because you're afraid of what they might think." Cameron starts.

I laugh and state my point, "Or they could be relationships that you hide in general, because you're having an affair."

"Nash. Not right now." Cameron whispers. I end up circling the front of the room, my hand in hand as I walk one heel in front of the other. "What? It's low-key right?"

"So why are people affected by hidden relationships? In my words, not Cameron's definition of a low-key relationship, by the way. Because it's pure torture. To be with someone, and you don't know what they're up to. Somedays you'll be missing your significant other and call to see what's up. But he won't pick up, and if he does? Oh well it's usually an excuse for being busy. With hiding another relationship from your significant other, it shows that clearly something is going wrong in the relationship and the cheater is just too afraid to admit why he's wrong. But in the end, who gets hurt? Both of them. Because the one who's gotten cheated on is left with a heart break and shame while the cheater probably has a sex disease."

"Nash!" Cameron says loudly. "Stop!" He hands me the poster while shoving it to my chest. Cameron stands center of the classroom with all eyes on him.

"Look. Our project is about of low-key relationships, and not the affair, but, when you love someone so much. See, I loved this um, guy and he didn't want to tell his friends because he was afraid of what they might think. And as for me? I was afraid too only because people thought that he wasn't up to my standards. That hurt me, because this guy is everything to me. And I don't care about things like that. Though, we had to sneak around and hide this beautiful thing we had going on. I couldn't go on dates in public with him, or hold his hand in the school hallways. I feel bad for it. But why did we keep it hidden? Because I was only trying to help him and now I know it didn't do anything beneficial and I was hurting him. So overall, low-key relationships. Don't do them unless you're okay with both hiding and lying to all your loved ones. But, as of right now, I really love him and would like to go public with him."

I look at Cameron with tears in my eyes. I hide my face with the poster paper. I hear Cameron say, "And that's the end of it." And then whole class is applauding. "So much passion! Great way to start the presentations!" Our teacher shouts. "It was like the best winging it ever. Real life stories and actions too." Yeah, if only she knew, those were real.

"Nash. Let's talk." Cameron says while walking down the aisle behind me to my desk. I shoo him away but realize I'm sitting alone today so he takes the empty seat and sits with me.

"Thought you said you would always take me back? You said that you'll still love me. Even if I had to try to love you, you love me." Cameron whispers. I don't look at him and focus on the next pair of students.

"That was before you cheated on me with my best friend. Cameron, I love you but, I don't know if I can keep up with you. I thought about our past. And, you've done me wrong. A lot of times." I say softly, everything comes to mind possible.

Cameron picks at his jeans pockets. He pulls out his wallet. I glance to see what he's doing and soon I see him slide me a penny. It drags from his side of the desk to me as his finger twirls it. "Just remember the day."

"Cameron, I never forgot the day." I tell him softly. He reaches for my hand and puts the coin in my palm as his hands close my fingers. "Just, tell me. Do you want to get back with me or not?"

"I'm not going to say no. But I don't want to say yes." I let him know. His hand is still holding mine with the penny in my hand.

"That was my lucky day because I found you." Cameron laughs quietly. "Well, why'd you cheat on me." I retort and take his hand off mine and slip the penny out my hand, hearing it drop on the desk.

"Can't we put that in the past? Nash, I love you and I'm willing to cut ties with Matthew. I'm done with him. I'm not throwing away six months just because of him. The person that I really want to be with is you. Don't you get it?" Cameron stands up and it causes a lot of attention from the classroom.

He soon slams his fish (I'll leave that typo there) on the table and leaves the room hurriedly. I sit and look at this penny and hold it close to my heart.

And it's not only because he's cheated. But the last month I've been going around his way. He's nearly broken up with me twice. Now he's the one who wants me. I don't want to tolerate him no matter how well I know about all his personal disorder issues and shit.

"Oh. So those were true stories." My teacher whistles. And I put my head in my arms and hide in an awkward shame.

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I might get back to my smut one shot book. And I actually made one recently.

The nine guys play with some dirty dice and do things that it says and what not and la di da if you guys wanna peep at it.

Written: 0401
Published: 0413
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