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29. Our Limits

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4:12 pm

My head rests on Taylor's shoulder as I'm still somewhat in a frantic, gloomy mood.

"So, tell me everything you know about Cameron. If that's okay with you, I want to know what you know. The not so positive traits he has. Things that make him, not so great. But, just like, his characteristics." I ask of Taylor. His hand reaches out for mine as it he plays along with it over his chest.

"Cameron has a short temper. He gets easily angry and usually doesn't mean the damage he's caused. But when he seeks for forgiveness, and someone won't accept his apology, he'll only get angrier. He can be aggressive. Mostly, these things make him really bipolar because publicly, he comes off as a really sweet and respectful guy." Taylor tells me and I let these words sink in. Seems pretty actuate of what Nash told me.

Taylor faces me and puts his head against mine. "Anything else? I know you're just trying to feel for Nash. And understand these things."

"Do you know anything about him with a tendency of forcing? Like, I don't know... In general." I speak to him. "Oh. One time we got in a huge fight because I didn't want to volunteer as a camp partner with him. The scariest thing I've ever experienced. But that's the only time I've ever seen him that way."

I debate on telling him what Cameron has some to Nash but I go against it because it's personal. I'll wait until I get Nash's consent; but it's nonetheless right for me to say anything about it.

I sit quietly with Taylor, his hand still playing with mine. I've been planning this since I talked to Nash yesterday. I want to see if Taylor knows my limits. And I guess today is the day I'll try it out, but I'm afraid he'll take things too far and I won't know how to stop him. But it's a risk I'm willing to take.

"Taylor... I want to have sex, with you." I say softly. He kisses my forehead. "I do too. Some day. One day." I prop myself on my elbows and face him. "I mean today."

I look to my boyfriend and soon see his eyes light up as he smiles from ear to ear. "Really? I mean, yes! Of course, Shawn!" I smile at his happiness, who knew something like this can make a boy so happy. Now I feel like I've been restricting his happiness this whole time.

"You have my word." I say softly and Taylor hovers over my hips with his knees propped as he takes off his shirt from tugging on the back of his collar. I must say, that's something that immediately turned me on, ever. That was just some spark to see that action.

I loose my mind and realize, I'm not about to give myself away to him. This is only a test.

Taylor lifts me up as he pulls off my shirt and already begins lowering down to kiss at my neck. He takes sometime letting his lips trail around my skin as he nibbles every now and then. I would loose my hands in his hair, which would also pull him lower to me.

I find him trailing his lips down my chest as he would run his hands against my side and delicately play with a nipple. He simply kisses them before he finds his path down my abs with his stomach.

He reaches the spot I grow afraid of, the waistline of my pants. In a swift movement, like he's done this so many times before, he manages to take off my pants with a tug. "Oh, Shawn." Taylor pats down on my noticeable erection. "I've never seen it before, but I know I love it." Taylor says while grabbing it through the fabric and rubbing it against his cheek.

I don't want him to physically do anything to it because, again, it's all just to see where he'll stop. I know he's touched it in the past, and done things to make me untwine. But, I can't possibly have him touch my member with the actual contact, it's something I'll refuse.

"T-Taylor... Don't play, um... With it. Please." I tell him, although I know we both have the urge and can see the dampening cloth due to me already well, just a tad over wet.

"You've got it. Should I prep? Or just stick it in. I mean, it's really up to you. Oh god, why am I making our first time so awkward. I'll just..." Taylor is in between my legs as he gets indecisive. "Do whatever, Tay."

Taylor nods with a smirk and pulls off the last article of clothing as so he does for himself. He spreads my legs as his thumb traces go down my entrance.

This is the moment where I stop it all. "Tay? I don't think I can anymore." I say softly, not looking at his way. I feel his finger on my cheek. "Shawn?" Taylor gets up and pulls my body onto his.

"Don't think that us doing this will make our relationship stronger. It's perfect already. How many times do I have to tell you that I don't need you to give me sex in order for me to love you." Taylor kisses my lips delicately. "Now, do you want to fix that problem? Because, I promise, I won't fix mine. To prove to you that, I really don't need to." He indirectly talks about both of our solid members.

I get off of him, grabbing his bedsheets and tucking myself under them. He does the same and pulls me close. "So, do you love me?" Taylor whispers against my ear. I look to him and giggle lightly. "Of course I love you. And I'm so proud of you."

"Why are you proud of me?"

"Because, you know limits."

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I notice that my writing has gotten longer. I usually write most of my stories like this but I hoped that this one will be like three lines per paragraph but I guess not... At least the first like twenty chapters started like that.

At the same time, I think I'm only like that when I write content with Shawn or Taylor because it comes easier to me.

And that's the end of my daily week spree. next update back to Monday's & Wednesday's, then Friday surprise if people are active through week.

Fun fact, everything I posted between this whole weekend spree was all written in one day. As you can see most of them say "written" with the same April 1st date.

Written: 0401
Published: 0406
Next update: 0411

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