To Love a Broken Heart

Chapter 4

It was the day after Zayn and I had kissed, I didn't bother staying in school after the incident and I ran home, I was scared; I liked the way Zayn's lips moved in sync to mine and I was scared because I didn't want to fall for him. I liked Louis, I'm stupid I know, liking someone who doesn't like me back when I could be with someone who appreciates me and doesn't treat me like trash. However, I couldn't forget how friendly and close Louis and I are when it's just us two. He's hiding something and I don't want to make a decision until I know for certain that he hates me. I slipped a plain white shirt over my head and put my skinniest black jeans on, my legs constricted as I forced my legs into them. Looking at myself in the mirror I realised my hair was a bit out of place and quickly fixed it before running downstairs where a bowl of cereal was waiting for me. My mum realised I was down and she gave me a sympathetic smile. I forced a smile across my face and began eating.

"You feeling ok honey, you don't have to go School if you don't want to?" she asked trying to reassure me.

I gave a quick nod and finished my breakfast. I grabbed my bag from off the counter and left the house. I walked down the steps of my house and was greeted by Niall. He looked concern, I gave him a reassuring hug and soon after he was smiling, he didn't like it when I was upset and I always do worry about boy so I always tried to stay strong. For his sake. I know there is only so much I can take before I crumble but I'm not ready yet.

We made our way into the School grounds and I saw Zayn waiting for me by my locker. My stomach twisted into a knot as I stared into those beautiful golden eyes of his which can take away all my worries without even trying. I felt so protected around him and I don't even know where I stand with him. Do I want to be his boyfriend? My subconscious answered for me as I looked behind Zayn and found Louis by his locker. He was talking about something to Liam but he wasn't paying attention, he was staring ahead of Louis and as I followed his stare I found that he was looking at none other than Zayn. Wait... Wasn't he a major homophobe? Could it be?

I drew out a heavy breath and walked towards Zayn, his smile grew wider for every step I took towards him, God this guy made it so hard to just want to be friends. I was barely 2 steps away from him when he tackled me into a hug, his scent filled my nostrils: it was earthly, like fresh air, a field of roses. I immediately relaxed into the hug and squeezed him back. It's not like I'm going out with Louis so it's ok. I looked over his shoulder and found Louis' eyes on us, his eyes were replaced by a pit of disappointment, why though? Was he jealous? No of course not.... He isn't even gay. My mind suddenly raced back to the night at his house, during dinner, his mum said something about Louis and he interrupted her, what could it have been though?

"Harry... I know I'm irresistible but people are starting to stare." Zayn's voice snapped me out of my thoughts. I realised I was still hugging him, tight as a matter of fact. My cheeks flushed a deep shade of red as I released my grip from him.

"You're cute when you blush" He whispered into my ear. This made me blush even more and now I was staring at our school floor. It was filthy! Isn't someone supposed to clean this every day after school hours?

I quickly grabbed my bags and made my way to my first class which coincidentally happened to be Maths. I hugged Zayn and Niall goodbye and made my way into class, I heard Niall and Zayn's laugh down the hall and gave out a chuckle. Oh how I love my friends. Class was supposed to begin in 5 minutes and I was the first one there, I took my seat and played with fingers. I heard someone's approaching footsteps and looked up to find swept chestnut hair in front of my face which was followed by a pair of deep blue eyes. Louis had a small smile on his face and I looked at his lips, I tried to stop myself from lunging at him and kissing him.

"You know it's rude to stare." Louis said, a smirk on his face. My eyes widened.

"I-I wasn't...I-I'm sorry" I replied, looking down at my desk and scratching my head. God I'm stupid.