To Love a Broken Heart

Chapter 6

The rest of that day was a blur to me slipping in and out of conscious only having time to see my bedroom ceiling before being plunged back into darkness.

The headache I received this morning was unbearable, waking up screaming, my mother being the organised mother that she is was by my side in a matter of seconds holding a glass of water and some painkillers. Unfortunately that didn't help a lot and now here I am, in my first class with my head feeling like a sledgehammer has come crashing down on it. To say the least, I was moody; anything could set me off like when Samantha accidentally walked in to me receiving a few degrading comments from me, setting her off into a crying fit. It wasn't my fault though...

I stared at Louis who was, quite obviously, trying to avoid my gaze, every ticking second was like a knife repeatedly stabbing my square on the chest, I'd do anything to be able to just give him a hug to comfort him or even just talk to him, I really missed his cute yet very sassy high voice which was like music to my ears sending pulses throughout my body, relaxing it. Not hearing it has made me even grumpier and mad, not at anyone but myself.

"Mr Styles, the answer to my question please?" A voice came from in front of me. Turning my attention to it, I found a pair of eyes boring into mine, my teacher was staring at me waiting for an answer, which never came.

"Please pay attention. This isn't like you Mr Styles."

The monster inside me finally broke free hearing those words, slamming my fist onto the desk, I shot straight up and gave a death glare to the Teacher. His eyes suddenly widened. A few gasps came from behind me and I looked at Louis to see if he was reacting to my inappropriate behavior but there was nothing, he remained head down focusing on his work. This just drove my anger even further, I was ready to burst and hit someone in the face.

"Well I'm sorry but your class isn't really my main priority, I'm facing some hard times now and I don't need your pathetic voice to be added onto my list so you know what... Goodbye." I yelled at him receiving a few murmurs from the class as I got my bag and headed for the door but not before flipping off at my classmates. God I was so mad.

I knew exactly where I was going, where everything clicked, where I realised I loved him, I ran straight for the auditorium. Upon arriving, I sat on the end of one of the rows of seats in the auditorium, staring out onto the stage. Memories of me and Louis flooded into my mind and all my anger suddenly became guilt, I don't know why it hurts so much. Oh yeah, I love him. I just didn't why I would fall for someone like Louis. He was a complete bitch to me when he was with his friends. On the other hand, he was an angel who liked me back when we were just alone, maybe his pros outweighed his cons. I must have been so caught up because I didn't notice a shadow looming over me.

"Need time to think?" The voice, which I immediately recognised to be Louis', spoke, making me turn to him.

"I-I...Louis? What you doing here?" I asked.

"I saw you storm out and I never saw you like this it was kinda hot." he said, taking a step closer with each word until he was inches from me.

"Louis... I love you but you know I can't... not with Zay-" I started but was cut off as Louis sat on my lap, wrapping his arms around my waist for support.

"Sssh... let's not think about that and live in the moment, shall we?" He cooed, resting his forehead against mine, he was right, why reminisce the past when we can step into the 'now'.

"Then you won't mind if I do this" I said with a smirk before crashing my lips onto his, he quickly responded and deepened the kiss.

Let's just say that the next half hour or so was very wet, sloppy and adorable.

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The school buzzer brought as back into our senses and we pulled away from one another and walked out into the school hallways.

"I'm off to go find Liam, see you later, yeah?" He asked and I quickly nodded with the biggest smile on my face causing my cheeks to scream in pain but whatever Louis was the cause of my pain and it was bliss.

 I turned on my heels and went to look for Zayn, I haven't seen him since he asked me out yesterday and was wondering what plans he had for us. Obviously I knew about the fair and stuff but like, was he going to be one of those cliché boyfriends who paid for everything, which I totally wouldn't mind, or will I need to bring my own money?

Searching the hallways I found nothing, where the hell could he be, it wasn't hard to find him in this ocean of students due to his hair so it was clear he wasn't in this vicinity, I turned to see Louis walking towards me, puzzled.

"Have you seen Liam?" he asked.

"Have you seen Zayn?" I replied, he winced at the sound of his name but shook his head nevertheless.

"Me neither"

"Where could they be?"

I shrugged and started to walk to the restroom as my bladder was yelling at me to release its contents. Louis seemed to follow me into the restroom and stopped at the mirror, probably to fix his fringe, I swear his fringe was like a religion to him, he would get so touchy about it. He didn't get mad when I touched it though, haha suckers.

Finishing my business I walked towards the sink and began washing my hands, even though the sound of running water was very loud I could hear a faint noise coming from one of the cubicles, it didn't sound like speech but more... moans. I looked at Louis who obviously caught on to what I was hearing and tilted his head, furrowing his eye brows.

I knelt down and looked under the cubicle. What I saw would probably scar me for the rest of my life, there was someone sitting on the toilet seat, nothing strange about that but... there was another pair of legs in the cubicle, the person was on his knees facing the guy sitting on the toilet. It didn't take a genius to figure out what they were doing. I stopped myself from gagging but mentally I was ready to puke, who would give someone a blowjob in school? Wait a minute.... a blowjob! There were more gays?! I quickly shot up from the sudden epiphany and stared at Louis, I formed my hands to look like I was holding a banana or in this case a dick and motioned it to be moving in and out of my mouth, Louis caught on and let out a chuckle, I would have laughed along with him but I heard something that made my blood boil, my skin turn cold and my heart go dead. Inside the love cubicle, a name was said; a name that was far too familiar, a name I was searching for ever since this morning; a name that was moaned it in pure ecstasy.

"Zayn"

Louis stared at me, he must have heard it because he was now pushing me out of the toilets before I could barge through and slap the dickhead that was getting a blowjob from my date. Wait, I'm being a hypocrite, I cheated on Zayn with Louis... This is different though. My mouth was on Louis' mouth not his genitals. This is past cheating, this is just rude and disgusting and unforgivable. I was too lost in my thoughts because the next thing I knew I was sat down on Louis' lap sitting on a field. Our school field, which indeed was rather big; trees would line up on one side of the field as our school was on the edge forest, well that's an exaggeration, it was beside a small woods.

We just sat there in silence, Louis staring at me with hatred filled in his eyes, shouldn't he be happy? I have a reason to break up with Zayn? I can be with him.

"Lou, why you so mad? I can break up with Zayn now." I said, attempting to put a smile on.

"It's not about you, or Zayn." He replied still staring at me.

"Then who?" I asked, curiosity swarming my mind.

"That voice...” His face suddenly became blank, not a trace of emotion could be found. His eyes seemed to become duller.

"You mean the one who was getting the blowjob of my boyfriend" I muttered, putting emphasise on the word "my"

"Yep..." He replied, popping the "p"

"What about it?" I held his face so I could get a clear view of his eyes. I was so not prepared for his answer.

"It belonged to Liam."