A hearts story

The break up.

    Normal girl, normal day. Waiting for his reply. Can't wait to see the guy of her dreams. To be in his arms. To kiss his lips. He's the only thing she has always missed. As texting goes on with an eerie feeling. That feeling was the scariest of thoughts. Then suddenly her thoughts became the worst reality. Getting that one text that turned her whole world upside down. That moment of seeing someone's heart just simply darken before a shattering end. Mind goes blank with nothing to feel anymore. All she can do is just cry. When she couldn't just sit there anymore she goes to the one place no one goes to. Turned on the music and danced.

      Danced to just  fall and feel the pain. Because at this moment she isn't feeling anything. Dancing turned quickly into tears. When turning the music up louder and louder so nobody hears her heart break isn't working anymore, because she simply got worse and worse. She screams out her heart so maybe it hurts less. Turns out, she was sadly mistaken. Song after song her legs slowly became weaker and weaker. Collapsing down to the floor on her side she lays there in a wet salted puddle. Could she ever get up? As her songs went on she slowly begins to stands. Her whole body shakes not knowing what to do or what to say. Going down the stairs as another wave hits and forces her down she quickly covered her mouth to hide her pain as she rocks back-and-forth.

      Breathe in, breathe out going through her mind as she tries to do so in a chopped up way. Even when that's the last thing she would possibly want to do.

      As she wiped her tears once more she ran to her room before and someone saw. When she sat in the bed she looked to her left and saw stack of letters written just for her. Slowly grabbing the pile she come to read she reads "if we break up." Those are the letters he gave her for Valentine's day to help her when she is down. She sat there holding it afraid to have it be opened. Her breath shortens more and more. Finally she got up the courage to open it with all her might left. As she read it she slowly can't read anymore, as everything becomes blurry.

      When others caught on to the brokenhearted girl. She couldn't speak. Her voice was gone and she didn't know when it would come back. Not knowing what to do with herself her mom tries to get her out of the house and "happy" again. But as she brought her one place to the next  she would catch herself tearing up out of the blue. Quickly she covers it up and moves on hoping nobody noticed. As they so desperately try to make her smile she just gave herself a block to all emotions. That block is only temporary but who knows when it will fall. As the day winds to an end devil's surround her every thought trying to make her give into temptation. What strength does she have left to refuse? The world will never understand her fight with herself that day.

     Soon after memories of their time flow through her mind. From the very first night they met. With how crazy she felt the first time she was on "cloud nine". Then the next week having that awkward first date rush. He never knew that was also her very first date. Words can't even imagine how fast her heart raced when he finally asked.
      She was so scared to meet his friends for the first time. So scared to speak and say the wrong thing. But seeing him be openly fun and silly got her mind off of them and on how lucky she is to have this crazy amazing guy be all hers. And how it all is at the masquerade dance yet none of us put our masks on.
     Or, how nervous she was to meet his siblings and his parents. Turns out she had nothing to be afraid about. They were all so amazing.
     The shock of their very first kiss. Every one of them was better than the last. The feeling of them getting to be closer and closer to know and feeling everything together as one.
     What about the butterflies of her first slow dance ever. It couldn't have been any better. She was so clueless on what to do, but with him nothing really mattered to her.
      How they would always comforts each other whenever things went wrong or got stressful. From family issues, school question and anxiety, friend problems, everything wrong in their lives there knew that the other would make it all better again.
     Even when they had a weird night calls and he almost never talked. All of those memories will stay with her forever.

     His childness was her favorite thing about him. He wasn't afraid to have fun and be who he really is inside and out. Being a kid at heart is better than a person with a dark past like her. Him and his personality made her forget her past and look at him to be a kid too. To just be able to look at him and smile. But she can't see him be that way probably not ever again. With his new profile picture of an event she was at but is nowhere to be found.

     Now as she writes the story she hold back her tears and grabs on tightly to the necklace he gave her, hoping it's all is just a dream and she can wake up again to a "good morning beautiful" text from him. To have him still love her and make more everlasting memories together. She will never forget those amazing memories they had together, and she will always miss his crazy soothing  voice. And she will never be able to finish reading that text or that note that he has wrote as his goodbye. All she wants is for him to be happy even if it doesn't feel it with her. He means more to her than herself.