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I'm not feeling the happiest so I needed to write down my feeling. Sorry if this triggers.
Anyway. Stay Strong guys
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Suffocating.
Why can't I feel the cold air rush down my throat and to my lungs?
Why do I feel like there are hands around my neck? Stopping me from breathing, but not letting me die.
The cold invisible hands; Cutting off my air, causing my vision to become black.
The cold invisible hands
That stay on my neck
Because of all this stress and anxiety having their hold on me.
The stress of not having everyone like you,
The anxiety of having all your loved ones be disappointed in you.
I'm scared.
I'm scared of hurting everyone.
I'm scared of disappointing everyone.
I want to change the world.
But how can I,
A young teenager
Even put a dent,
In this messed up society controlled world?
A society that thinks the deadly skinny, 3 inches of make up and big butts is beauty.
Why are we okay with this?!
This is not beauty!
This is brain washing.
Telling us what is beauty then letting us figure it out ourselves.
I've already figured it out.
Its within.
It's the kindness, the pure of heart that truly hold beauty.
'Never judge a book by it's cover' they say.
But they judge us by our exterior.
By our eyes and flawless skin.
Instead of the real beauties that hold scars upon scars on their skin.
They have been through hell.
And sad to say, we've lost a heck ton of them.
We've lost them to society's picture of perfection.
To sadness eating away at their souls.
Just because they weren't "Good enough" you say.
They were beyond good enough.
Their hearts held purity.
But we drove them to death.
To suicide.
To silting down that pretty wrist.
Jumping off that tall building to see if they could fly.
Swallowing their sorrows in handfuls of pills.
Visiting the hanging tree just to end their life.
I feel guilty.
We've lost so many.
Just because of this stupid generation.
Why are we the ones that turned out wrong.
It's not their fault.
It's ours!
We drove them to it.
By prompting this so called 'beauty'
It is not beautiful to flaunt our so called 'beauties'
It's not just girls who have lost their live because of us.
Because of feeling no beautiful, not good enough.
There are countless men and boys who have committed.
Yet, we don't mourn over them as much?
Why?
They are important too!
They have hearts!
They have kindness and love ready to be shown.
But we drove all that under.
To be stored on bottles and placed on the highest shelf until it fell.
Until it fell due to the weight that the shelf couldn't hold.
It collapsed.
They broke.
We broke.
We cry.
We cut.
We skip meals.
We lose our lives to sadness.
Why are we dropping like flies?
Why are we cutting our wrists, thighs, shoulders, sides, stomachs and destroying our minds?
Oh, yeah.
Because of judgement, society, beauty and many more things that ruin this earth.
Life is beautiful.
Don't kill it before it starts to spread its wings...
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Sorry guys. Hope that wasn't too sad. I just needed to let it out.
This seems to have turned into my outlet.
I hope it's helping others and not only myself.
Remember. It may be dark. But someone is always there.
Even if you don't see them.
Stay strong Guys. I know life can bring you down.
Don't let it beat you. You all are strong willed.
Byee xxx
-=Lix=- <3
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