a work of art [meanie]

Chapter 14

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After spending that one whole day together, Wonwoo and Mingyu start seeing each other on their free time. But they aren't able to see each other very often, since they have to study and Wonwoo has his jobs. But still, whenever they can, they go to Mingyu's or Wonwoo's or movies or anywhere where they can have fun. Usually they hang out at Mingyu's late at night, talking quietly in Mingyu's room, blankets around them. They don't see each other that much at the school, but they do spend every possible break and lunch together.

As Mingyu and Wonwoo hang out together at the school, Mingyu's friends have noticed the two guys hanging out a lot together, and so they've come talk to Wonwoo a couple of times. First Wonwoo was really shy and felt uncomfortable talking to Mingyu's friends, but as he noticed that they're all very friendly, he started getting more relaxed with them, and he began to like them.

Wonwoo feels really grateful towards Mingyu. He has never had any friend as good as Mingyu, and he will probably never meet anyone like him. They match each other so well, although they are so different.

And that's exactly why Wonwoo is scared. He's scared that if Mingyu somehow finds out about Wonwoo's feelings for him, their friendship would end. And that's not what Wonwoo wants. He wants to have Mingyu in his life, even if it was just as a friend.

So, Wonwoo decides to try to forget his feelings towards Mingyu, or at least hide them. And damn, it's difficult.

"Is your school day over?" Mingyu asks as he sits next to Wonwoo. Wonwoo's waiting for the bus to arrive.

"Yeah, thank god for that," Wonwoo sighs, and Mingyu nods, "Same."

"Hey! We could go to the amusement park today! You said one day that you want to go there some day!" Mingyu exclaims.

"I wish I could," Wonwoo says voice monotone, "I have to study for midterms and I also have to go to work..."

"That blows..."

"Mmh-mm..."

"Well, we'll go some other day."

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Later that day, Wonwoo closes the door behind him, and makes sure it's locked. He's finally done with cleaning the cafe. It takes him always approximately an hour and half to clean it, and he does it twice every week. It doesn't sound that much, three hours of work in a week, but he also has the other job. Plus he's a student.

Right now Wonwoo feels so stressed. He can't remember the last time he has felt like this. He couldn't stop thinking about his tomorrow's math exam while he was at work. He hasn't studied enough for the exam, and he's scared he'll fail it. He feels like he's suffocating from anxiety, and he's too tired to swim up.

Wonwoo does stress often, almost daily, and he has kind of accepted it already. He was born stressed, he assumes. He stresses because he has never enough time. He stresses because he feels pressured to do well in school. He stresses about a lot of things it's actually pretty ridiculous. But it's not funny for Wonwoo, not at all.

Although he stresses often, he doesn't usually get this stressed out. But sometimes, just like today, Wonwoo gets super stressed, and he is unable to pull himself together. At most times it's exams, assignments or something like that what stresses Wonwoo out.

He sighs. It's already late, and he should study a bit before going to sleep. But all he really wants to do right now is just curl up to his bed.

When he gets home he eats first. Then he goes to his room and checks his social media like Tumblr, Instagram and Twitter. He knows he spends too much time on the internet, but he likes it. Lately he hasn't spent as much time as he used to because he has been hanging out with Mingyu.

After he finally, an hour later, puts his phone aside, he opens his school books. Clock is already nearing midnight, and he's really tired. He'll have to wake up early to do his math exam.

As Wonwoo looks through the math book, he starts feeling the anxiousness again. He'll never be able to study all that before tomorrow. He tries to concentrate, tries to study at least some of the things he should already know, but doesn't succeed. He just grows annoyed and frustrated, starting to feel anger towards himself. Why didn't he study earlier? Why isn't he brighter? Why can't he be better?

The tears start streaming down his face, soaking the math book. Wonwoo gives up, moving the math book aside, and wipes his tears, but new ones fall down his face. He covers his face with his hands, shoulders trembling. He hates himself for this.

// second update this weekend bc i actually had time to write wOW