Clouded ( Jc Caylen Fanfiction )

Chapter 8

( Fey's P.O.V )

" So you were vlogging? " I asked confused with the term.

" You know, Like video blogging " he said trying to define it to me as he took the straw of his drink between his lips.

I shook my head still confused, " I still don't understand how this would have to do with you bumping into me " I said smiling a bit.

"Okay let me put this in words only your brain could understand, I make videos on youtube " He joked smiling at me.

" So you're a You tuber " I inferred

He nodded and added, " Well I mean attempting to be a You tuber, I'm not very well known like others are ".

" Interesting " I said making a fake intrigued face at him.

"Hey" he caught my sarcasm, "I got my hobbies you got yours" he smiled.

" Fair enough " I answered.

"So why were you riding a penny board for your video?" I asked wondering why he was trying something he couldn't do.

He looked at me and smiled, "My fans requested it, they wanted me to vlog myself penny boarding" he said as I gave him a look. "Bad idea I know" he finished laughing at my face causing a smile to cross my features.

Me and Shane had been talking over lunch at Taco Bell for the past hour, sharing things about ourselves. I don't know what it was about him that gave me this warm feeling in the pit of my stomach as if I wasn't alone anymore. It was as if he wanted to be my friend and be there for me.

I looked at the time and sighed, "I must have lost track of time, I should probably get going to find my mom" I said sliding out of the booth me and Shane sat at.

He got up as well "Alright, umm do you maybe want my number so we can keep in touch?" he asked reaching in his pocket to get his phone.

"Umm ya sure" I smiled at him, "I'd like that".

We exchanged numbers and headed out of the restaurant together saying our goodbyes.

"It was nice meeting you Fey" he reached out his hand for a handshake.

"You too Shane" I replied shaking his hand.

"I guess I'll talk to you soon..." he said adjusting how he held his penny board.

I nodded and smiled as me and him turned to go our separate ways down the sidewalk.

After finding my mother in the front enterence of lulu lemon, her favorite store, we decided we had enough for one day and went to the car to leave.

The car ride was silent the partial way home from the shopping mall. I don't know what caused the words to escape my lips, I don't know what will power and thought in my brain could have had for me to do this.

" So you think talking to him will be the best thing? " I asked.

My mom glanced at me as she continued to drive, " I think it is but what do you think? " she replied.

I looked down at my hands in my lap, to tell you the truth I hadn't stopped thinking about it even while I was talking to Shane. Jc's laugh and smile that brightened up his hazel brown eyes never escaped my mind from our first encounter at the New Years party.

" What are you thinking about? " my mom asked interrupting my thoughts.

" Why he hasn't left my mind, and why I can't get him too " I replied quietly.

" You're interested In what lies behind the smile he gives off " she replied "reminds me of when I met your father" , " something about him makes you want to study him more " she finished.

I was intrigued of the fact that out of all the people at the party he came up to me, I wanted to figure it out, I wanted to know why I intrigued him even in his drunk state.

" what are you going to do about him? " my mom asked again showing hope that I would have another answer.

" I'm going to call him when we get home " I replied.

An image of his smile and brightening hazel brown eyes entered my mind in a flashback, I was going to talk to him. I was going to figure out why the drunk boy with that intriguing smile and hazel-brown eyes came up to me of all people.

I unlocked and opened the front door slipping off my toms, and made my way over to run up the stairs.

My mom came in behind me closing the door behind her and commenting, " Oh Leah must be home from Liz's".

She must of left her shoes in the middle of the doorway again. Leah is my little sister who is three years younger than me, people say we look alike but I don't see it at all. She always had the habit of pissing me off even when she isn't trying to by either stealing my things or touching my things without asking.

I opened my bedroom door and sure enough there was Leah sitting on my bed on my laptop on Younow. She looked up at me immediatley knowing the trouble she was in.

" What are you doing in my room? " I asked looking at her than glancing at my laptop, " and why are you using my laptop ".

"The computer downstairs wasn't turning on and my favorite You tuber is coming online to broadcast on Younow " she answered as the drowned out voice of a girl talking came from the laptop.

" No, you can't be in here or on my computer " I commented.

" Why not? he's coming on any minute " she argued back.

" No Leah get out " I said.

She didn't understand everything that I had to do, I couldn't explain to her my problems with Jc and sure as hell wasn't going to call him while she sat in my room or go downstairs where my mom was.

She refused to move from her spot and I sighed annoyed while walking over pulling her off my bed.

" Fey! " she whined annoyed.

" get out. " I answered pulling her over to my bedroom door and closing it behind her, I let out a deep sigh as I grabbed my cellphone of my pocket and sat on my bed.

I scrolled through my contacts on my phone as the girl talking in the broadcast made background noise.

" Well I'm going to go cause he's in the queue, bye guys " the girl muffled ending her broadcast as I landed upon Jc's name in my contacts.

I let out a deep sigh trying to calm my pounding heart, it's now or never Fey.

I pressed on his name and was about to press the call button until I heard that laugh and voice.

" What's up guys " the voice muffled from my laptop,did my ears deceive me?, hesitantly and craned my neck over to see what was on the screen.

Jc...was a youtuber?. All along I'd had mixed and confusing feelings for a guy that probably has so many other girls begging for his attention and love.

I laughed a bit when I saw him make a funny face on the screen of my laptop, maybe it couldn't all be bad, maybe I could still tell him how I feel.

"Oh guys by the way, I just wanted to thank you guys so much for all your help" he flashed a smile looking down at the phone in his hands as he tapped on it with his thumbs, "thanks to you guys I found her" he smiled obviously happy as he extended his phone out to the webcam for people to see the picture he clicked on.

It was a picture of me, It must of been the one he took of me when I tried to cover my face. But I never called him or told him it was me. He didn't find me.

I closed my laptop immeadiatley and covered my mouth, he doesn't feel the same way. I felt my heart ache spread through my body as I processed all of this, Of course he could never like me, I knew it was too good to be true. He can't know it's me he just can't, I felt all my confidence drain from me and I feel back on my bed as the tears began to come. I felt so lost and I felt so alone again, I needed to clear my clouded brain.