The First Fifty Pages Of Me by Nailinthewall

Scared (1)

I was so scared of living, I almost died.

I was so scared of tears, I swore I'd never cry.

I was scared of things I had never seen.

I was blind but could not bear to see.

I was feeling nothing but cracking under pressure.

I was deaf but I couldn't stop listening.

My eyes grew blurry but I never stopped reading.

I'd stop eating but the tastes were trapped in my mouth.

I was blocked but air was fresh in my lungs.

I was in love but it was never real.

I dreamt of the future but lived in the past.

I was scared of being alone but that's how I spent most of my days.

I was broken when I arrived and fixed when I left.

I was happy for it to stop but sad that it took so long to happen.