The First Fifty Pages Of Me by Nailinthewall

Music is my life

I just want to know how to sing, it would be awesome. But my voice kills the happiest cat. I try my best, knowing I hurt people's ears and make them wince uncontrollably. (I'm exaggerating.)

I love playing the piano but all I ever do is make up random tunes. They sound pretty good to me. I know how to write a functional melody on piano, the Distinction in my music class tells me that I'm not hearing what I want to hear.

I have no rhythm but I can force myself to stick to timings. People always get pissed off, if we're working in teams, but their anger and annoyance just spurs me on.

I am a song-writer and, not to sound full of myself, I'm quite good at it. I can tell you a story, rhyme in time, and structure my words to fit a melody in perfect harmony.

I at first learnt to play ukulele when I was 12/13. I learnt how to play guitar through an awesome teacher-still my favorite teacher of mine. The first song I ever learnt was Stand By Me by Ben. E. King. I know one song on guitar off by heart but it hurts to pick up a guitar and play it. Don't ask me why. It just is.

Everyday, for at least six hours, I listen to music. Whether it's whilst: dancing,  drinking tea, reading, writing, walking, eating or just breathing, I do it. It's an addiction but I'll overdose before I stop.

I love music of any kind. (Even classical, though I will never admit it face-to-face.) As long as it has a good beat, possibly some guitar and an engaging musician within it, I like it. 

There's a process known as pen-tapping and at a time I would pen-tap to my favorite songs but more times than none I would beat the shit out of my pen and bruise my hand. It was quite fun for a while.

If I'm nervous I tap a random beat, or a made-up beat, on something close to me to try and remove my nervousness. It doesn't really work but it calms me. 

I was part of the choir when I was in primary school, so my voice wasn't that bad. But I think, as I've grown older, that that talent has diminished to a miniscule flame. I even sung in front of many peers. I was very confident in primary school.

I've been in a musical production when I was fourteen with many talented musicians. I played guitar and sang with a group of people. It was honestly the most amazing experiences that I have ever had.

I've been to music clubs at school and would love to meet and date a musician in my life at one point. That would be awesome. But I doubt any musicians, good ones, at least, live in my town. 

I know all about the music industry and want to be part of it in the near future. I would love to work in a record store and help people enjoy music as much as I do. I'd love to teach the next generation what music really means and I probably will never curb my addiction to music but I think loving music is the best disease anyone can have.