Loving The Enemy

33: Heartbroken

I walked into school a week later, feeling exhausted. This would be the first time I would see Clary, Isabelle, and Cecily since I left, since they had gotten back two days ago. Clary had texted all of us yesterday, saying that her and Jace were finally a thing, and I had freaked out for her. I had thought about Will non stop for the last week, and I realized that I had made a huge mistake.

He did mean what he had said. I had replayed the conversation a billion times over in my head, and it made sense. Everything he had said and done, it had been staring me right in the face. I had been an idiot not to see it. Today I was going to tell him how I felt. I walked up to my lockers, and Clary, Cecy, and Izzy all embraced me tightly.

"We've all missed you so much!" Clary exclaimed.

"I've missed you guys, too." I smiled.

We all pulled away.

"The vacation was shit without you." Isabelle said.

"Why?" I asked.

"Will was a dick the entire time, after you left." Cecily frowned. "He's not himself, Tessa. He doesn't care about anything. And he's been--" She broke off.

"He's been what?" I asked wearily.

"He's been sleeping with a different girl almost every night." She closed her eyes, sighing.

I felt my heart break into pieces, and I suddenly felt sick to my stomach. I felt tears well in my eyes, but I quickly blinked them away. I would not cry.

"Tessa, we're so sorry." Clary put her hand on my arm.

I only nodded, not being able to speak. Suddenly, Isabelle got a horrified expression on her face, and I braced myself. Jace, Alec, Simon, Gabriel, and Will all walked up to us, then. They all smiled at me, except for Will. He was too busy holding hands with someone. A girl. Tatiana Lightwood, Gabriel's year younger sister, and Izzy and Alec's cousin. I felt my heart shatter even more.

"Hey Tessa." Jace said, snapping my attention from Will. "How've you been?"

I put on a fake smile. "Good. You?"

His eyes went over to Will, who was whispering something in Tatiana's ear, and then looked back at me. "I've been better."

"You're not going to say hello to Tessa, Will?" Cecily challenged.

Will's piercing blue eyes then were on me, and I couldn't read any sort of emotion in them.

"Tessa." He greeted expressionlessly.

"Will." I barely choked out.

He then looked away from me, and said something to Tatiana, and she burst out laughing, and he smirked. I felt crushed, and Jace was looking at me sadly. The girls were too busy glaring at Will. The bell rang a few minutes later, and I walked to English with Clary.

"Are you okay?" She murmured.

"I--I don't know." I stuttered. "I just feel shocked."

I didn't know why, though. Will was going to move on, and I was an idiot not to know that. I felt so stupid. So, so stupid, for thinking that he still liked me. Of course he had moved on, I was only a crush to him, just a girl, I wasn't that important to him. I blinked away tears, again. I took my seat in English, and a moment later, Will threw himself down in the seat to my right. He didn't say anything to me, and I felt my phone vibrate.

Isabelle💋: I'm so sorry Tessa :(

Cecily💙: Me too :( he's such an asshole

Clary🎨: Why is he with Tatiana of all people? 😷 no offence Izzy

Isabelle💋: None taken. Alec and I don't like her

I sighed and started to reply back.

Me: Thanks guys 😕

Cecily💙: Don't be sad about it. Will's not worth your time. Jace was getting so angry at him after u and Clary left.

Me: Really?

Isabelle💋: Ya. He was saying that Will was being such a dick to u

Clary🎨: Good he deserves it

Me: Lol I won't deny that

I put my phone away, and snuck another glance at Will. He was looking down at his phone, looking deep in thought. I quickly looked away from, and then Clary turned around to face me. She gave me a sympathetic look, and I gave her a weak smile.

"How was the rest of your break?" Will suddenly asked me casually.

"Fine. Yours?" I replied.

"Fine." He said, and then smirked to himself.

I ached to touch him, and have him touch me. To kiss him again, and tell him that I was his. There wasn't any other feeling quite like when Will touched me. It felt like he was touching me everywhere, even though he wasn't. I knew that he was being with Tatiana to get back at me, and he was doing a good job. English went by quickly, after that. Will and I didn't talk after that, and every so often I would sneak a glance at him from the corner of my eye.

Lunch came by quickly, and we all sat in the cafeteria. Will was missing. I didn't even want to know what he was doing. I sat in between Clary and Alec, Cecily across from me. I picked at my food, having absolutely no appetite. My mind couldn't stop thinking about Will, and everything that he had ever said to me.

"I'll bet you by the time you stop tutoring me for good, you'll have fallen for me."

"There's no way in hell I'd ever fall for you."

"Hmm, we'll see. You'll be asking me to fuck you."

Those words seemed so unlikely to me then. If only I had known that they would come true.

"Where's Will?" Alec asked, snapping me out of my trance.

Isabelle sighed. "I don't want to know the answer to that question."

"He's such a dick." Jace grumbled, and everyone looked surprised.

"Only took you eighteen years to notice." Gabriel sighed tiredly.

Cecily laughed lightly, and Gabriel blushed slightly. Simon then started talking, and then stopped abruptly, seeing something that made his eyes widened. I braced myself, and followed my eyes to where his were glued. There, standing in the middle of the cafeteria, were Will and Tatiana, making out with each other. He was holding her, tightly, and she clung to him.

I felt my heart shatter in a billion pieces. I was crushed. Absolutely crushed. My whole body felt like it was being stabbed with a knife over and over. I watched them, numbly, frozen. They pulled away, and Will smirked Tatiana, and she blushed. This was all my fault. Why hadn't I believed him? I felt myself stand up, and slowly walk away from our table, not sure where I was headed. I walked outside, and into the pouring rain. I stood numbly, not even feeling the wetness of the rain. Never in my life had I felt pain like this. It felt like every limb was being pulled apart from my body. That's what it was like being apart from Will, like I was missing the other half of me.

What had he done to me?