Louis POV
"This is my girlfrined. Jenna." Liam said pointing to the obvious slut beside him. I tried to hide my surprise and forced my jaw shut before he realized it ever dropped. Liam usually doesn't go for girls like this. I don't know why all of the sudden he is. I looked at El, Perrie, and all of the other boys. They were just as surprised as I was. I could tell from the look on their faces. But I wasn't really focused on that when I was looking at all the other people in the room. I was noticing how empty my heart felt without Harry here. It killed me inside to know I had to pretend to not love him, and now he was in the hospital. The nurse said he should be able to come home tomorrow, so I had it planned that we go back to his flat and watch a few movies, just me and him like old times. Empty. Not only me, but the room felt empty without Harry. Then again, rooms with Harry have felt all empty in the past year and a half. He was there, but it was like he wasn't. He was alive, but wasn't living. And it killed me to know it's all my fault. Eleanor is a great friend. She knows me better than I know myself so she can tell when I'm upset. "We're going to be heading home, it's getting quite late. Ready, Louis?" She winked at me and I gave her a greatful smile. We walked out the front door and I gave her a freindly hug. "El, you're literally the best friend a man could have. I was getting pretty upset that Harry wasn't here. And then I started reminding myself that Harry hasn't really 'been here'" I put my hands up to show quotes during that part "for a year and a half. And it's all my fault. I should have done something. Management shouldn't be allowed to control my life like that. And now I've lost him, the one person I could ever see myself spending my life with, in more ways than one. And I love him, El. He means the world to me and all I want to do is fight for him but I can't because of some stupid contract I regret signing. So why did I do it?" I told her as we got into the car and drove away. She turned her attention towards the road and tears welled into her eyes. "Oh, Lou. Please don't feel like it was your fault. You had absolutly no choice. Management would have made your life a living hell and you would have regretted it more if you didn't sign it. And as for Harry, he obviously still loves you. You haven't lost him yet." Eleanor told me and gave me a reassuring look. I weakly smiled at her as we kept driving. The rest of the ride was completely silent and she dropped me off at my flat. "I will be picking you up tomorrow morning at 8 to visit Harry, okay Louis? Don't beat yourself up over something you can't control, it's not worth it. Stay strong, Lou and remember I'm always here if you need to talk." She said and pulled out of the driveway. I opened up the door and walked inside, throwing my jacket over the couch and heading upstairs to get ready for bed.Putting my phone into my iHome, I pressed shuffle and 'Kiss Me' by Ed Sheeran came on. Harry and I's song... well it used to be. I couldn't help but feel peace from this song. I closed my eyes and listened to the lyrics, forgetting every care in the world.
Settle down with me
Cover me up
Cuddle me in
Lie down with me
And hold me in your arms
And your heart's against my chest, your lips pressed to my neck
I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet
And with a feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now
Kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
We're falling in love
Settle down with me
And I'll be your safety
You'll be my lady
I was made to keep your body warm
But I'm cold as the wind blows so hold me in your arms
Oh no
My heart's against your chest, your lips pressed to my neck
I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet
And with this feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now
Kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
We're falling in love
Yeah I've been feeling everything
From hate to love
From love to lust
From lust to truth
I guess that's how I know you
So I hold you close to help you give it up
So kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
We're falling in love
Kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
We're falling in love
Oh, how that song made me feel happy inside. Almost like Harry was still at my side and we were happy together. Almost like we were still not signed to Modest! and we were allowed to show how much we loved each other. Almost like Harry knew me and Eleanor were just pretending. Almost like we went back in time.
I logged into twitter to see more people than usual were tweeting me. Twitter was blowing up. I went to see why and I literally couldn't stop the tears from coming as I realized what was tweeted from my account... "@skyleridk Hows this , Larry is the biggest load of bullshit I've ever heard. I'm happy why can't you accept that."
A/N: dunn dunn dunnnnnnnnn. Haha so not exactly a long chapter but I kinda like this one. Maybe if you wanna leave feedback... that would be appreciated hehe. But yeah I felt like this was the only way to go. Literally writing this chapter my mind was wandering because I knew I wanted this chapter to change the course of the story and I hope this did do that. Are y'all getting into the story yet? I know I am starting to! But it's not nearly over. Okay not gonna make this any longer because y'all won't read it anyway. So vote, comment, and follow bye y'all!
~Mary
