Zayns pov
I ran. Ran as fast as I could away from Liam.
The kiss...
It felt so wrong.
But so right.
As cliche as it sounds the spark that I hadn't felt with Perrie I found again in Liam.
My entire body was filled with an electric current that I had never felt before. The feeling was indescribable.
All I wanted was to feel that again.
But I can't.
I can. Not.
I'm marrying Perrie. Soon. But not soon enough. I grabbed my cell phone out of my pocket and called Perrie.
"Hey pez."
"Hey zayn. What's up?" She sounded upset and a little agitated. Like she had been thinking hard.
"I was thinking. We should get married. As soon as possible. You already have your dress we can get the boys tuxedos invite our closest friends and family. We'll get married next week." The words felt bad in my mouth. They burned my throat as I said them.
Her breathed hitched and than she fell silent. Like she was thinking.
"Ok zayn." She said quietly.
"Alright. See you later than?"
The line was dead.
I needed to get these feelings for Liam out of my head. I needed to marry Perrie for this reason, to get Liam out of the picture. I'm not gay. I love Perrie. She is the love of my life.
I was lying to myself and I knew it.
I'm scared. I can't be gay. People will hate me. Ill be an outcast. It wasn't worth it.
I didn't like Liam that much anyway.
Lies.
I think I love Liam. More than anything. Gosh I'm so fucked up.
I pulled out my phone and sent a text to all the boys telling them to meet me at the tuxedo shop downtown.
I'm going to marry Perrie.
I love her.
I love her.
It feels like I'm trying to remind myself that.
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"That one looks good." I said.
Liam was the only one left I needed to see in a tux. Louis and harry already had suits, and weren't able to make it today. I'm not sure why.
I had been dreading this moment from the moment we had walked into the shop. Seeing Liam in a tux would just sadden me.
But there he was. Standing in front of the mirror, in a tux.
To say he looked hot was an understatement. The jacket sleeves hugged his biceps just enough to show how fit he really was.
And the pants hugged his bum in such a way that made me weak at the knees...
Jeez I need to stop. Your marrying Liammm no Perrie. You are marrying Perrie, I reminded myself.
"Ok." He smiled. He didn't look happy though. He Probaly regretted the kiss. "I'll rent it than" he went back into the chAnging rooms and walked out hold the tuxedo.
We all payed for them and than left the store.
"So next week..." Niall said smiling. He had no idea what I was going through.
"Yep" I said plastering a fake smile on my face.
Liam kicked at a rock on the floor and Didnt say anything.
Gosh.
I'm going to Marry a girl I didn't love.
And I ruined my relationship with my best Freind.
Could this get any worse?
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Liam's pov
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My head hurt. I don't remember the last time I ate was. I felt myself getting really angry and emotional all of the time.
We are just walking out of the tuxedo shop. I'm not really listening to what Niall and zayn are talking about.
I have to concentrate on the ground in front of me other wise my vision would get blurry and I would get dizzy.
I kicked the rock in front of me. I can't believe I was so stupid. I had let my chance with zayn go, two years ago if I had told him how I felt there wouldn't have been this mess. Even if he had told me he didn't care about me like that I would have gotten over it.
But I have lived with this crush for two years. Two long hard years. I can't believe I let that chance go. Now I have to live with my mistake.
There is always a part of me that wonders if I Had told him what he would have said.
PRobably that he hates me.
And that I'm fat and ugly.
And stupid.
And mean.
And annoying.
My head started to spin. Zayn turned around and started talking. My vision was going black around the edges. There was a loud buzzing sound in my ears, so I couldn't hear what he was saying.
He looked confused, and than worried and he kept talking.
Kept moving his lips.
My world was closing in.
I saw zayn start to scream as I fell back and I was cradled into a blanket of darkness.
My entire world went black.
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A/N
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