Realizing Each Other's Love

Chapter 17

Marie's P.O.V

      Stress, stress, stress. This is the only feeling that I am feeling at this moment in time. I have finals this week and I am beyond stressed with studying. I have been spacing out when my friends are talking to me, along with not being with Dustin a lot. I think he knows why I haven't been hanging out with him, but I feel bad. 

      My teachers have been piling on homework and studying packets all week. I have been up all night working on these and I have fallen asleep in some of my classes. 

      Today is the first day of finals. Today I have science, math, English and lunch. I get to leave early today since my last period is lunch, but once I get home I am going to be studying the rest of the night. I'm not done with these finals and studying until it is the Saturday after and it is finally winter break.

       So far I have done my science and math final and know I'm going to be doing my English final. I feel more confident on my English final because my teacher knows I do good in her class and I actually understand english more than any other subject.

*****Skip the English final******

       I am finally done with the first day of finals. I was going out to my car, when I heard someone yelling my name. I turned and saw Dustin running towards me.

       "Marie, what are going to do when we get home?" he asked me.

       "Obivously I am going to be studying for the finals that are tomorrow." I said.

       "Well are you at least going to eat. I know you haven't been eating a lot since finals got closer. You need to eat. Let me take you out to get something." he told me.

       "Fine, but then I am going to go straight home to study." I said and then got into my car, to follow Dustin to whereever he was taking me for lunch.

       Dustin took me to the diner that my mom, Gwen and I went to when she took us out of school. We sat down and I immediately got out my notes for tomorrow's finals.

       "M, just realax for a while. You are going to do fine on the finals tomorrow." Dustin took my hands, so I had to look up.

       "I know, but I don't want to forget anything and fail them." I told him.

        "You are going to do fine." Dustin leaned down and kissed one of my hands. 

        "I know, I'm just stressed. I'm sorry I haven't been hanging out with you for the past couple weeks." I said.

        "I get it. You are totally fine." Dustin said.

        "Okay." was all I said and then we ordered and hung out the rest of the afternoon. 

        It was nice to hang out with Dustin. It has felt like years since I have. All afternoon, Dustin has been dragging me to different places; the park, the movie theater, almost everywhere he could thnk of.

        He dropped me off at my house around five. It was good to get out and not worry about studying and school. Obivously when I got up to my room, I pulled out al of my notes for tomorrow's finals and study all night.

                                                                                          *****

         The next day, I finished all of my finals and then I was finally on break. These finals weren't that bad. All I had was history, spanish and choir. Choir wasn't a real final because all of our finals are our concerts. We jsut played a fun little competition game. 

          After those three finals, I went to meet Dustin, Gwen and Isaac at a little cafe that is by our school. I am so glad that I am on break. I need it and so does everybody else who works and goes to that school. 

           I got to cafe and I saw all of my friends already sitting in there waiting for me. 'How could they all get out faster than me?' I thought to myself as walked in there. 

           I sat down next to Dustin, but none of them stopped their conversation. It's like they didn't see me sit down and I wish I never did.

           "Dude, Marie is just a lonely bitch who just needs attention. She only got with you because she doesn't want to be alone and wants to be popular." Gwen said.

            "No she is not she is an amzing person and I love her." Dustin said.

            "She has Daddy problems. No one can deal with her daddy problems." Issac said. 

            I had enough once Issac said that, "Well I can see that I'm just a fucking loner and will never be with anyone in my life. Thanks for being my "friends." Hopefully I never get to talk to you three ever again. I never had and have daddy problems. My parents divorced becasue my dad always came home drunk and beat up my mom and I. My mom was finally done with that and she filed for divorce. See you after break or not at all." I got up and started to leave, then I turned back, "Oh Dustin, we are through for good." I theen left and went home.

           No one knew about what my dad did to my mom and I. It was only my family who knew. I was done with people, school. I'm just done with everything in my life.

          When I got home, I slammed the front door shut and ran up to my room. I turn 18 in two days. Once I turn 18, I'm going to finish school and then move. I don't want to move away from my mom and brothers, but I do want to move away from everyone at school. 

          I was in my room for a couple hours after I got home from the cafe. My mom wasn't home yet, but both of my brothers were. Will has come up to try and talk to me, but I didn't budge.

         The whole time I was in my room, I was thinking of what I want to do with my life. Since the first time Dustin and I broke up, my hair has turnd back to the blonde hair I grew up with. I decided to go to the hair salon and redye my hair to a different color. I also want to get a lip pierce, a nose pierce and another tattoo. 

        I left my room and to dye my hair, get piercing and get another tattoo. I told my brotthers what I'm going to do and then left. My mom is fine with whatever my brothers and I want to do with ourselves, so she won't care. Also I'm going to call her and ask if it's okay.

       After break, I am going to be a whole different person.