Being the best

Being Natural

It was only natural that we became a "thing". Everyone was talking about it. Nathan had gone for Vesper. I mean it was a shock because I was THAT girl, you know, I was meant to be the one that no one noticed until I had a degree and then it meant to be an intelligent doctor or teacher or something stereotype and then we would of disappeared and that would of been that, like every other misfit and odd one out their. But that all changed when Nate came into my life. First it was the girls sucking up to me but I didn't know any different and then they started their pointed comments, there teasing and nasty, backstabbing comments. And then it was the boys. Trying to get with me and I don't know what it is but as soon as you are with someone, people begin to violate and disfigure your once good image.  But we were happy, we first of all did all those cliché things, you know, carve our names into trees, play and sing music together, read a book together, draw each other, have a food fight and bake first thing in the morning, sneak out to see him and have late night calls. But then he began to realise there was something wrong and it all went pear shaped when he found me one night passed out because I hadn't eaten properly in the past 5 days. He became false, acting as though if he touched me I would break. He became paranoid and pushy and completely domineering, he no longer cared about how I felt or what I needed at the time. He was trying to fix me but first he needed to fix himself and I couldn't help him with that. He had his own problems and as he drifted away from me and the bullying got worse I broke us up. It tore him, I saw it in his eyes and understood the depth of his love. He was besotted with me, yes I know , cheesy and big headed, but the feeling was mutual, we were each others full worlds. I thought the bullying would get better but instead it got worse and the problem was I had no one else to go to anymore, I was utterly alone. But I survived and was finally getting used to being me again in this  school until I saw Nathan run today and it reminded me... of us, I guess or what used to be us. I hadn't ever seen his that torn, not even when we broke up or when his grandpa died. He was dead inside, that's what it looked like. Complete and utter darkness was surrounding him and I'm scared he will let it immerse him.