Reality (Sequel to Future)

Chapter Eighteen

Devin told Zonnique and I that some guys in prison with Chresanto know who I am and are threatening to come after Deon and I. I didn't know how to feel honestly. It was a mixture between being scared, angry, and annoyed. Scared because I have a child to think about now and I can't afford to put him in danger. Angry because I asked Chresanto if he was having any issues in there and he said no so he lied to me again. Annoyed because I'm tired of playing the role of the damsel in distress whenever somebody feels like messing with Chresanto. Can I just live? How the hell could he have gotten into some mess anyway? I thought he was just going to lay low like he said.

And I would ask him all of these questions except he told Devin that I couldn't come to see him anymore. I didn't know how I felt about that either because if I couldn't see him, Deon couldn't see him and I wanted anything but that. On top of that, I also can't leave the house because it's "too dangerous" so now Devin has to do all of the grocery and baby shopping. Sometimes I even wonder if moving here with Chresanto was the right move.

He sold me a dream of roses, candy canes, and a big house on the hill but the only bliss I've gotten since I've been here is the few months we had with Deon together as a family. God, I want nothing more than to talk to him right now but I know that Chresanto wouldn't make a big deal about this whole thing if it wasn't serious. Right now, Devin is downstairs with Chresanto's boys trying to work out...whatever he was told to work out. If I know Chresanto's business life like I think I do, it probably involves murder.

Zonnique was in the guest room with Deon. I know that ever since I blew up on her a few hours ago she's been wondering what my problem was and I felt like she deserved to know. I mean she is my best friend and it's not like she caught feelings for Devin so she shouldn't feel any negative way about the kiss. I got off of my bed and left to peer into her room. She was sitting on the bed with Deon sitting between her legs both watching Batman. I knocked softly and pushed the door open. She looked over at me and back at the screen.

"What's up?" she asked but I couldn't really read whether or not she was mad at me.

"A lot" I said truthfully.

She nodded in agreement.

"Nique, I really am sorry for blowing up on you back there. I'm just stressed and you didn't deserve that"

"I was never mad at you, Bahja. I know you have enough on your plate without me interrogating you about stuff. I just wanted to make sure you were all right"

"I'm fine" I aid giving her a slight smile. "Thanks for understanding"

"You're welcome. You and Devin are fine too?"

I looked at her hesitantly and sat down next to her and Deon on the bed. I played with his curls preparing to tell Zonnique about what we did.

"We kissed...once"

She looked at me appalled.

"In the kitchen today?!"

"No, girl. Before you even showed up in Miami. We kissed and now he thinks I'm jealous of you guys being all up on each other"

"Well you aren't jealous, are you?"

"No! That's all that arguing you heard. I was defending myself"

"I...I don't understand. Why would you do that? You're with Roc and-"

"I was just feeling vulnerable is all. It won't happen again"

"You gonna tell Roc?" she asked.

"Are you kidding?" I scoffed. "Loyalty sits right next to family on Chresanto's list of stuff that matters the most to him. He can't know, Nique. So swear you won't tell"

"You already know I'm not talking. But I'm not the one you should be worried about. He's the one you kissed"

"He won't tell" I assured her while also assuring myself.

"What makes you so sure? Because he's sure not doing a good job at forgetting about it"

I was silent for a while. Would he seriously tell?

"Just saying, Bahja. If you're sure then don't worry about it"

"Thanks" I said silently.

Now I was full of all kinds of doubt. If he was willing to argue about our kiss while Zonnique was in the house, what about when Chresanto comes back? He could hear by accident and there's no telling how he'd react. Later that night, Chresanto's men left and I put Deon to sleep in his crib. It was late and we were up all night watching Finding Nemo. For some reason, it always seemed to sooth him enough to put him to sleep.

I yawned making my way to bed and shutting off the lights. About five minutes after I laid down, I could hear faint movement from outside of my room and then a door slammed. What the hell was going on out there? Then there was creaking and heavy breathing and I knew what I was listening to. Zonnique and Devin were having sex in my house. I would've went in there and told them to keep it down but Zonnique wasn't getting any in Virginia so I decided to let her live a little. After all it's what friends are for. They were keeping me up though. Their moans got louder and their headboard knocked harder as they went on for another fifteen minutes. I bit my lip contemplating my next action. I reached into my nightstand and grabbed my vibrator. I wasn't going to lie and say that it wasn't sexy to hear them doing it and hell, it had been a while since me and Chresanto's last conjugal visit. My body needed this. I pulled my shorts down and placed the vibrator against my clit. It instantly sent sensations throughout my body. I could hear Devin's grunts becoming rougher.

"Fuck, deeper" Zonnique panted.

That's when I began to work the vibrator in and out of my pussy. I winced at the feeling and soothed myself by rubbing my breasts through my shirt. I moaned silently careful not to wake Deon since he was next door to me. I timed the vibrator pumping in and out of my pussy according to the sound of the headboard.

Bang..bang..bang..bang..

I envisioned Chresanto above me stroking. His hands all over my body touching me in all the ways that he knows I like.

"Chres" I moaned softly as if he was right there with me.

"Damn, girl" I head Devin say in a strained voice.

The sound of their skin slapping together echoed through the walls.

"Fuck" I hissed grabbing at my sheets.

I could feel my climax approaching and my breathing got faster and shorter.

"Oh shit, Dev! I'm gonna come" Zonnique whimpered.

I pumped to vibrator faster.

"Ooooo shit" Zonnique moaned.

"Aaah fuck" he hissed.

The climax that I had been holding in finally burst making me arch my back.

"Unh Devin" I groaned in the midst of my high.

After I caught my breath, I put my vibrator away and sighed laying back on the bed. I felt a whole lot better. Then I thought back a little to when I just climaxed. Did I say...Devin's name?