Memoirs of a FABULOUS IDIOT!!

Kamisama Onegai~

I think I may be getting a glasses girl fetish whoopsie!!! or a "megane-kink" as said by Yuu. 

Aaaaa~ Mirai is so cuteee fufufu (◍•ᴗ•◍)♡ ✧*。 

I've been in an...almost 10 hour call with Yuu-chan (with technical difficulties in between hehe)

 °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°

I've been  helping her with her new original story, which btw you should check out 

 Mmmmm...Rin has disappeared somewhere. I think she may have left for war. 

COME BACK TO US DARLING!!! (  •̀ω•́ )

I feel pretty comfy in my new bunny kigurumi. SO SOFT AND WARM!!! FUWA FUWAAA~

 ／(,,◕ × ◕,,)＼ ~♡*✩⁺˚ 

Ugh i go back to school tomorrow, what a bummer. At least i'll have time to update everyday as long as I donut forget! 

I was complaining when doing an English project because I honestly DESPISE, i did not say hate even though I really do but, that class. It just...doesn't really do it for me. No harm as long as I pay attention and do my work in that class i guess. 

AW CRAP I HAVE P.E TOMORROW. 

ヽ(￣д￣;)ノ

I...

WILL 

DIE

I hope it rains hard then. I DONT CARE SO MUCH ABOUT BEING SOAKED ALL I CARE ABOUT IS AN EASY-GOING P.E PERIOD. 

*checks weather* HNNNNGGG IT ONLY SAYS CLOUDY.  (╬ಠ益ಠ)

I'm going to pray to the gods of rain tonight. 

Even period days suck because I don't have the classes with my two besties Yuu and Rin, and I have all my least favorite educational classes. 

Lately i've been hating on my school. I'm not sure why. 

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

I do have a preference tho. 

Since i'm leaving to another city after middle school ends, I build up more and more hate on the school so I can be happier when the year ends and I leave. 

It sounds pretty selfish I know, but this year lots of things changed and it makes me feel uncomfortable.  

Like for example: 

I care too much about my reputation ,

I care too much about how many people like me 

I care too much about how pretty I am

I care about how I dress

Its okay to care about those things, i know. Its good to have nice self-esteem rather than loathing one's own self. 

 Now i just think, "i've been doing all these things for my OWN enjoyment because I don't care what people think about me, but i'm still unhappy with how I am?" and thats because i'm not really doing it for myself, i still care what people think of me. Mainly at school.

People influence me to do things to make me look better and act better. And I hate it. 

Whether its something small such as me getting jealous over how this  girl in particular looks cuter than me, to something big like someone pointing out my insecurities. Anything and everything flips a switch within my system. 

And if it starts involving my friends, it becomes a huge disaster. I have habit of getting annoyed or mad over small things. I just explode on them and become more stubborn than I already am. *sigh*

I'll be honest I get jelly like if Rin looks pretty and she's just LOOKIN GOOD

or if Yuu is simply being cute and she's just the adorable person she is.

HOYE THIS IS A COMPLIMENT BTW GUYS 

but all of this is just me being selfish. =͟͟͞͞( •̀д•́))) 

I really believe a fresh new start will do me good. 

Yes of course I will miss all my best friends to death, but i'm not exactly dying. I realized I actually have quite a large amount of time to spend with them, and i could visit whenever I have the time. Sorry for sounding selfish again.

They're the only things I truly look forward to in going to school anyways. I'm lucky to have them. Rin and Yuu the most. 

I feel bad just because i'm starting to only see those two as my closest friends now. I used to think my group of 4 *Rin and I included* were my best friends, but now i'm not so sure. I care for my other best friends just as much of course, its just I care for Rin and Yuu a lot more than I did before. That's a good thing though. I don't want to take any of them for granted AT ALL

Wuah got a bit serious there eheh. I just had to let that all out. 

Sorry if this was confusing!