Lexie
When Liv gets upstairs I can tell I'm snatching her out of her happy place. The goofy smile she's wearing when she opens the door is instantly replaced by a look of dread as she reluctantly walks in and shuts the door behind her. But I need an explanation. She dropped a huge bomb on me at dinner. She slept with Harry. Actually had sex with a guy besides Liam. Cheated on him with one of his best friends. I'm still having trouble wrapping my head around the idea. Eight months ago my best friend was a shy virgin focused on school and graduating. Getting her dream job. Being independent. That Liv is not the Liv that's standing in front of me.
Ever since the bomb was dropped on me in the bathroom I had a hard time concentrating on the conversation going back and forth between everyone. I can tell Liv is worried just by looking at me across the table and I had to put on a fake face and laugh but I'm in absolute shock. I always had wondered what went through someone's mind when they cheated. That's actually what happened to me in my last relationship. He cheated on me. I never understood the reason why and I don't think he did either. So what caused someone to cheat? I thought it was something I did. I know I'm not the easiest girl to get along with. I know I can be stubborn, opinionated, sassy as all hell but I know I didn't deserve to be cheated on. No one deserves to be cheated on and I hate that I know exactly how Liam is going to feel once he finds out. Whether Liv is planning on telling him or not, the truth will always come out. That's exactly how I found out about my ex-boyfriend cheating on me. I remember when I had to tell Niall. It was during one of our infamous pillow talks while we were nursing Liv back to health. I actually think it's sort of where I restored my faith in the male species and when I really started to fall for Niall.
He was lying there stroking my hair just staring at me like a dope when typical me just called him out on it. Like I said, I'm not always the most sensitive either. That's when he told me he really liked me and I asked why. Although I'm sure he'd deny it now he said he saw past the sassy brat I am which I know he loves and told me he saw my soul. He knew I was a good person and I cared a lot about people. Especially the ones I loved. He said I was the most honest person out there and that is something rare. I was always raised to not tolerate any less than I deserve, which is funny considering how my last relationship ended. But I was just sitting there, looking up into his big blue eyes, completely vulnerable as I felt strong façade starting to fade. He asked me what was wrong and I told him I was scared to death by how much I liked him. I never in a million years was expecting to hook up with Niall when I came out to visit Liv. I hoped for it sure, but I didn't expect it and I sure as hell didn't expect to fall for him. It was scaring me how quickly it was all happening and I just started crying right there on the spot. Coming from a girl who rarely ever cries that says something. He just wrapped his arms around me tighter bringing my head to his chest and comforted me until I could finally start to talk. That's when I told him the story of Ryan. I fell for him fast, not as fast as Niall, but faster than normal. He was bold and had this slight hint of danger to him that I craved. We met during our junior year and the connection was instantaneous. I gave him everything I had to offer, was the most supportive girlfriend in the world and he still cheated on me. I found out months after his affair had started with this girl from his hometown only because I surprised him with a dinner at his apartment and she was there. The worst part is that she knew about me. When he got home I confronted him with her but he just blamed it on me. He told me I was too critical of him, that I judged his decisions and that I was too smothering. He wanted something else. I was devastated and from that moment on I vowed to never let that happen to myself ever again. Somehow Niall had managed to get me to trust him and I let him in, completely. I was scared out of my mind but I think he was too. We balanced each other out perfectly. What I lacked he had and vice versa. He really is the man of my dreams.
