Harry
I'm kind of surprised I haven't heard from Liv yet. I know she's supposed to be with Liam right now and she's trying to keep us separate. Trying to figure things out. But after that kiss in the bathroom I thought there was no way she could stay away. I tried to keep my distance that night. But watching her dance I couldn't stop myself. The way she was dancing playfully with the girls, the way she kept smirking at me whenever I caught her eye. And that dress. The cleavage alone had me drooling. I wanted to fuck her right there on the bathroom sink. I would have if she would've let me.
I kept my distance all yesterday, waiting for her to text me with a place and time to sneak off. But she didn't. I know she was going to Liam's photo shoot yesterday. Sexiest Man of the Year. As if I wasn't already comparing myself to him. I haven't felt insecure like this in a while. I got over that. Being seen as a kind of heartthrob in a boyband kind of does that for you. But Liv was attracted to him first. Not me. I can't help but think about all the reasons he's better than me while I'm sitting around waiting on her. I would reach out to her, but I don't want Liam to see and raise any questions.
After Lexie cornered me this morning I thought about backing off. Maybe she is right. All I'm doing is confusing Liv and hurting her in the long run. Maybe Liam is the better guy. As much as I love her and want her to pick me, I want her to be happy. Maybe she'll have a better shot at that with him. I don't know what the hell I want. I'm not exactly a relationship guy like Liam. He can give her what she wants and to be honest, I don't know if I can. But when Niall returned from the car, I happened to get a text. From Liv.
Liv: Where are you?
The way Lexie was talking it seemed like Liv was talking to her about having second thoughts about me. But clearly she isn't if she's texting me and asking where I'm at. Maybe Lexie doesn't know it all like she seems to think. I hold back the smile I get knowing Liv is thinking of me until I say goodbye to Lexie and Niall and head back to my room.
Me: Home...why?
Liv: Meet me in my old room in 10 minutes? We need to talk...
Me: I'll be right up ; )
It's ridiculous how happy her text made me. I can't get over how much hearing from her affects me. On the one hand, I miss her. I miss talking to her. I love the girl after all. But I am a man. I can't wait to get my hands on her.
When I get upstairs I knock twice and stand back to wait for her to answer. When she does I can't help the smile that spreads across my face. She is so damn beautiful standing in front of me with her bare feet and in her pajamas. She smiles back at me and I swear, it makes me light up even more. This girl has me in the palm of her hand.
"I was wondering when I'd hear from you." I tell her, looking both ways down the hallway before stepping forward towards her. I take her small face between both of my hands and lean down to kiss her but she turns her head away at the last minute.
"Harry, no." She almost whispers, looking down at the ground but not stepping out of my grasp.
"What's wrong?" I ask confused, trying to make her look at me before realization finally dawns on me. "You said we need to talk." I say slowly, finally realizing what those words meant.
"Yes." She agrees, finally looking up at me.
"You chose him." I say, not as a question but as a statement. I already know the answer.
"Yes." She repeats quietly but her eyes never stray from mine. I can't be sure but I can make out a faint wetness to them. She's trying to hold back tears. Somehow it only makes it that much harder for me to keep it together.
