Chapter 13
My eyes widen in realisation, once my stomach starts doing backflips. Without notice, my hand finds its way up to the side of Toby's head as he continues the kiss. But then my mind fully renders the situation.
What am I doing?
I pull my lips away regretfully. Toby opens his eyes and stare into mine. I feel a pang of guilt.
"What's wrong?" He whispers, his eyes searching my face for any shown emotions. I swallow the lump in my throat and think of an explanation. My hands turn clammy as I ball them up into fists. I shake my head, staring into space. I can't figure out the answer.
Toby's palm still rests on my cheek. He pulls me into a warm embrace, me curled up in a ball on his lap, still wondering to myself. What's the problem?
"I-I don't know." I state simply. I hear him chuckle lightly. I remember all those times I sat watching him on a silver screen, fangirling and fantasising over this very moment...and I'm not ready to kiss Toby?
I crease my brow and frown in silence.
"It's okay Clem. I'm sorry. It's my fault, I shouldn't have..." Toby trails off.
"No. No it's not, Toby. I think it's mine." I say questioning my own self. I look up at him and brush away his brown curls to reveal more of his face. He tilts his head to the side in confusion.
"I don't know how. I don't know Toby." I say in slight frustration. Without thinking I reach my head up and kiss him. I then pull away quickly, staring into his eyes for his initial reaction. First his just stares at me blankly, then he just smiles at me, showing his pearly white teeth.
"I-" Toby gets cut off as my phone starts ringing. For a second, I am tempted to hang it up, but quickly answer it once I see Felix's name appear on the screen. I excuse myself from the room and hold the mobile up to my ear.
"Hey." I breath quietly. My mind wanders off back to this morning. "I'm so, so sorry about today." I say quickly, realising I hadn't yet apologised.
"Huh? Oh, that? Its fine." He laughs. "Hey, um, the thing is, Marzia was having this picnic thing tomorrow with her friends and forced me to go....and I was kind of wondering if you wanted to come?" Felix asks steadily.
"Yeah, sure. I'd love to. What time?" I say gleefully, arching my head so I could quickly give a smile to Toby who returned the gesture.
"Around ten, I think. Its a really long drive..so. Ill just come to your place, so you better be ready." Felix chuckles. I laugh as I try to think of a way to end the conversation.
"Bye Clem." He says.
"Bye." I giggle whilst hanging up the phone. Hopefully I don't ruin it this time. I jog back into the recording studio and help Toby up by the arm.
"Who was that?" Toby ask. I decide whether or not to tell him the truth.
"Uh, just Felix." I say confidently. Wasn't that hard, was it?
"Oh..." Toby's enthusiasm drops, but reappears when I give him a questioning look.
"Yeah." I breath. "I uh, should probably go. I have to unpack and whatnot." I say giggling.
"Do you have to?" He says hopefully. The atmosphere is personally getting awkward and I just have to get some space at the moment.
"Yeah. There's boxes everywhere." I say. Toby shrugs and we walk out of the house together. He stops to lock the door and I continue forwards.
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I close the door softly behind me after I give a quick goodbye to Toby.
Does he like me?
My mind wanders back to Felix. I should probably get him to help me unpack. I jog outside after getting a quick drink of water.
I shut my front door and make my way over to Felix's house. I knock softly on his door and wait patiently for his response. A few moments later, I hear the soft patter of Puga's feet on the floorboards and see Felix's silhouette behind the blurred out glass.
Slowly, the door opens, revealing Felix with a smile plastered on his face.
"Hey Clem!" He says happily. I grin cheekily, wondering how I'm going to edge in the question.
"Hi, Felix." I say, looking at the ground, trying not to laugh. "do you have a few minutes?" I say, looking back up at his confused face.
"Yeah?" Felix answers, unsure.
"Cool." I smile at his riddled expression. I grab his unexpecting hand and lead him towards my house. His feet skid across the bumpy terrain as he decides whether to give in to following me or not.
We reach my front door without much difficulty and I pull him in. Finally letting go of Felix's warm hand, I stand in the middle of the lounge room with my hands on my hips. I sigh, staring at all of the unpacked cardboard boxes. A thin layer of dust has covered the tops of them, which makes the job even less pleasing.
I turn back to face Felix.
"Unboxing time!" I say in a sarcastic happy tone. Felix forces a smile back at me and I laugh.
"Lets just get it over with." He replies, reaching out for the nearest box. Giggling, I do the same, reading the label carefully.
Stuffed Animals.
Widening my eyes, I quickly hide this box behind my back, hoping Felix doesn't see. I edge my way to my bedroom hoping he doesn't turn around.
Nearly there.
A few more steps.
I run for it. And I surprisingly make it. I throw the box of embarrassment across the room and glare at the inanimate object like its my prey. If I could, I would rip it to pieces. But that would mean more things to clean up.
I return to the lounge room to check on Felix.
"How you doing?" I say over my shoulder, whilst picking up my next box.
"I think....good?" He says, carrying a box into the kitchen. "You?" He calls.
"Second one." I laugh.
"Only?" He yells back.
"Why? How many have you done?" I say, quickly carrying my box to its destination.
"Six." Felix replies proudly. I scoff and roll my eyes at him when he enters the room yet again. "Going on seven." He says running off with another box. I shake my head and pick up my third.
I run after Felix, entering the same room. This box is so big I can hardly see where I'm going. I smash into something and the cardboard box sends its contents all over the carpet. I throw the cardboard over my head and drop to my knees, picking up all of the items. Suddenly, I realise I smashed into Felix, who is now helping me.
"Sorry." I mutter. "Hey! That's the second time today I ran into you." I exclaim. He nods his head as if to say 'oh yeah'. I take it as a full response and grin, picking up the last of the books.
"Where do I put these?" He says, lifting up a massive pile of vintage books.
"My room should be fine." I instruct. "You know where that is right?" I ask.
"I'll find my way." Felix grins. I roll me eyes, smiling. I stand back in my lounge room and notice the difference in what's in it. No more boxes, that's for sure.
I let out a large sigh of relief and throw myself onto the couch heavily. Felix comes crashing back in and sits beside me.
"We are done." I say staring up at the roof. I hear him chuckle, a noise louder than the soft patter of rain outside.
"Yes. Thank god." He replies, stretching his feet out onto the coffee table. He kicks off his shoes which go flying out of my field of vision.
I feel somewhat relaxed, with the presence of Felix and the sound of the rain drumming on the roof. I crane my neck up slightly to see Felix staring at me with content.
"Rain?" I say, avoiding touching the staring subject. Felix's look doesn't falter as he just gives a simple nod in response. Somehow, his eyes have captured me. I study the incredibly blue orbs in admiration. He looks back at me, straight faced. I laugh to myself. Poker face battle.
I keep on studying Felix face. Untidy dark blonde hair that sticks up everywhere. It's cute. Stubble that he has let grow. But those eyes are just mesmerising. A sea I could get lost in forever.
Slowly he opens his lips to say something.
"I want to show you something." Felix says, jumping up. He outstretches his arm towards me and I take it willingly.
"Isn't it raining?" I say, already knowing the answer. I pull back with slight restraint but he just smiles at me.
"Just come." He says pulling me through my own front door. The outside air is bitter and it bites my raw skin. I shiver. Felix glances to his side at me,engulfing me in a side hug to keep me warm. I look up at him with wonder. What are we doing?
"It's just at my house." We walk towards the front lawn in the freezing rain. Water trails down my forehead like tears. I bury my head into Felix's arm and continue walking the short distance. I feel the change of terrain as we step up onto his garden.
We walk up the path and reach his front door. Using his other hand, Felix rummages through his pockets. He searches through every single one of them.
"Oh shit." He mumbles.
"You locked yourself out didn't you?" I say, laughing slightly. He lets out a sigh and pushes the immobile door without any success. I giggle at him. Felix keeps trying to wrench the door open with different methods with no luck what so ever. After a while, I just sit down on his doorstep and curl up into a ball to shield part of me from the wet.
Finally, Felix just gives up and plops down next to me.
"You didn't lock your door did you?" He asks. I facepalm myself. I locked my door too.
"The keys are inside." I groan. I wipe a drop of rain off of my nose and stand up. "We'll this is just great!" I say running onto the road. Might as well do something. I kick off my shoes and dance around barefooted. I skip along the slippery surface, swinging my body around crazily without a care. The rain pelts down and I can hardly hear anything but the drum of it hitting the ground.
Felix walks over to me laughing. I shrug my shoulders, still dancing. I hold an arm out to him as to invite him to join him. He shrugs his shoulders as if to say 'why not?' And takes my hand. We dance in perfect sync, me stepping on his foot a few times. We both throw our heads back in laughter.
"So when's Marzia getting back home?" I ask him, not wanting to leave...ever.
"I don't think she is." He says smirking. "She's staying at a friends house." He pauses. "Aren't you cold?" I grin. He pulls me into a tight hug. I bury my face in his chest, taking in the aroma of his cologne. Smells like Puga, their dog. I smile.
"How long has it been?" He asks, placing his chin on top of my head. I scrunch my face up in confusion, even though he can't see me.
"Since what?" I ask, my voice slightly muffled.
"We met." He finishes.
"A week...or three...or five?" I answer in an uncertain tone. He chuckles.
"I've never liked someone this fast before." Felix says. My eyes widen.
"What do you mean?" I squeak. He pulls away from the hug to look at me. Like he was when we were on the couch. He just stares at me with those big blue eyes. He studies my face for any sign of emotion, while I just stand there helpless in his arms. The rain falls endlessly. Anymore water and there's probably going to be a flood.
I quickly lick a raindrop of my lips and blink a few times to get them off my eyelashes. Felix doesn't seem to care about the rain at all. The corners of his lips curl into a smile. I just stare back, motionless. I put my arms around his neck and we both lean forward.
I close my eyes just as our lips crash onto each others. I smile whilst kissing him and hug him tighter. I have to stand up on my toes just to reach him. I feel my whole world spin as the rain crashes down onto us both. I know we don't care. But we are standing in the middle of the road still. He snakes his arms onto my waist and continues the kiss. I lean in closer as it gets passionate. There is this feeling deep down that I can't quite put my finger on.
Suddenly, a loud beep beside up makes us both pull away. I look over towards the source of the noise and see a car. I can't quite make out who it is since the rain has fogged up the glass. Felix shields his eyes with his hand to get a better look, whilst guiding me back onto the safety of the footpath.
"What's Marzia doing back?" He says with astonishment. The car pulls up into Felix's driveway. I hold Felix with one arm as he does the same. That kiss was different. I couldn't even last a few seconds with Toby. But with Felix, it was addicting. I'm a bit disappointed that Marzia came back, but so happy I can get out of my soaking clothes.
She hops out of the car with her umbrella in hand. She smiles at both of us.
"Weren't expecting me were you?" She says gleefully. I shake my head.
"What are you doing here? I thought you were at Alice's?" Felix asks with a bit of annoyance in his tone.
"I see you two are locked out, are you?" She says dodging Felix's question. Felix responds with a grunt. I giggle. Marzia walks over and unlocks the door.
"Lets just go inside." He mutters. My lips form into a thin line, as I am not sure of what is going on between them two. Felix tries to force a smile when I look up at him, but I know he's failing.
Once we get inside, a long shiver runs up my spine. My clothes are drenched. Wait, I have clothes here, don't I?
"Hey Marzia, do you guys still have my clementine costume?" I ask hopefully. Marzia smiles and nods.
"Yeah! It should be in the room you changed in. That's the guest room." She says pointing me in a direction. I let go of Felix and the atmosphere around me changes. It's so cold without him by my side. Oh my god that sounds cheesy.
I walk timidly down the hall and edge my way into the small but comfortable guest bedroom. Sure enough, the box still lays there, untouched or handled. I smile with relief and close the door behind me. I quickly unpack the contents, strewing them all across the bed. I strip and change into the fitting white dress and salmon hoodie. Oh how grateful I am! I mentally praise the lord. I am so going to get a cold after this.
I make my way back out into the kitchen were the other two are having a conversation. Without wanting to interrupt, I quietly slip past them and enter the lounge unnoticed. Tiredly, I plop into the white leather couch and let out a sigh. My eyes seem to glance at an object in the corner of the room. More so, in front if the television that is. It's a WII. Ill wait until I get their permission to play it first.
"How am I supposed to get back into my own house?" I whisper to myself. Ill just have to wait and see what happens. I wonder how Toby's doing? I can't believe I just kissed both of them in the same day. They are going to hate me. I hate myself. Marzia probably hates me. And I just moved. What am I doing? It's simple. Felix or Toby. No it's not bloody simple. I plough my hands through my hair in frustration and anger and let out a groan of equal feel.
What the hell have I done?
At that moment, Felix walks through the door, saving me from harming myself or something.
"Hey." I say. Felix nods in response. I take it lightly and somewhat ignore it. The weight of the seat beside me increases as he sits down.
"I can't get back home." I say, staring out the window at my own, locked house.
"Oh yeah." Felix pauses to think. "You could...you could um, stay here if you'd like." He offers.
"Really?" I say, sitting up to face him. He nods once more. "Thanks. I might as well anyway. With the picnic and all." I shrug.
"The picnic. Right." He adds. For awhile we sit in silence. The awkwardness of the room caving in on me...I feel I have to say something about Toby. Well, I have to tell him sometime, don't I? That's right Clem, you do. I just need to take the time and think about a proper conversation, not just blurt it all out at once. I should probably consult Avery. Thinking about it, I haven't talked to her in a long time.
Slowly, I slip my phone from the dress pocket and glance at the screen.
No new messages.
She sure does care about me, doesn't she? I unlock the phone and quickly type in my 'Toby' password so that Felix doesn't see. Opening up the messages app, I find that my last text to her was on the day I came here. Woah. That was ages ago.
To Avery: Hey, I really need to talk to you...like ASAP!
I turn the phone off once I hear the familiar 'boop'.
"Who's that?" Felix asks.
"Just Avery." I say.
"Huh?" He asks. Oh yeah, I forgot he doesn't know her.
"My best friend from back in England." I answer.
"You're from England?" Felix questions.
"I never told you?" I say, tilting my head to the side in confusion. He shakes his head.
"We've never really talked abut ourselves in conversation." He states.
"We can tomorrow." I suggest, shrugging my shoulders.
"Deal." He says, extending his hand towards me. We both shake in the deal and smile. Then I can probably talk about what just happened outside.
"Um where do I sleep?" I say looking around.
"You can have my bed, ill be filming anyway." Felix says. I smile sweetly, grateful for his offer.
"You sure?" I say, slightly guilty. He just chuckles and nods. "If you say so." I laugh.
"Hey, wanna take a picture?" I ask, holding my phone out.
"Sure. Instagram it. Ill follow you." He says, taking a hold of my phone and typing in the password. I frown. He saw. Oh god. I try to act as if I didn't see Him do that while he opens up instagram. Felix extends his arm and we both pose. He snaps a photo and slides all the filter options around.
"Can't decide?" I ask. He shakes his head. "Do toaster." I request. Felix nods and posts the picture onto his account.
"There." He passes me back my phone with a smile. "I'll see you tomorrow, then. I'm gonna go start filming." He says, yawning mid sentence. I laugh and lay down on the couch.
Felix stands up, stretches and then leaves with a wave. I slide the woollen blanket up to my chest and snuggle into the leather couch, yawning myself. This has been a long day. A very long day indeed.
The rain continues to drum on the roof and dribble down the misted window. My eyes start to get heavy as Felix's muffled voice in the background soothes me to sleep.
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"Hey, genius." A husky voice whispers in my ear. I wake up with a jolt, slamming my forehead into something above me. Instinctively, I start clutching my head with my hands and try my best not to start crying in pain.
"Ow! What the hell was that?" I say, rubbing my eyes to see more clearly. I look around the room, only to find Felix laughing on the floor. He has a big red mark on his forehead.
"Y-y-you-" his sentence fails as he continues laughing hysterically.
"What was that?" I snap. He brushes the tears out of eyes with the back if his sleeve, causing me to crack a slight smile. Felix sits up, trying not to start laughing again.
"It's picnic time." He says simply. "And I did offer you my bed, remember?" Felix smirks. I frown at him.
"And I didn't have to take it. Besides all you can hear is you screaming at your computer all the way down there." I retort, pointing a finger down the hallway.
"Well sorry." He says sympathetically. "We still have to go, Clem."
"I can wear this dress, right?" I say, kicking off the blanket to reveal my slightly wrinkled summer dress.
"Yeah, sure. You look pretty in it anyway." Felix adds confidently. A blush creeps up onto my cheeks as he walks back into the hall. I quickly fold the blanket, and neatly place it to the side of the couch. So much for playing the WII.
I walk into the kitchen and see Marzia and Felix sitting at the small wooden table silently. They both look up once I fully enter the room. Marzia smiles at me and Felix gets up.
"I think we're leaving in a few minutes, right Marzia?" Felix says to her.
"Yeah. In five minutes." She confirms with a small smile. Felix grins at me. Marzia excuses herself from the room, leaving just Felix and I.
"It's good." Felix says simply. I shake my head in question.
"Pardon?" I ask suspiciously.
"I said its good. You don't have to put makeup on like all of the others girls." Felix says. I furrow my brow. He noticed?
"Um, thanks." I say awkwardly. "I don't think I really need it." I say. There's nothing much else to talk about.
"You guys ready?" Marzia chirps, walking back into the room, handbag strapped around her arm. I follow her out of the door, Felix behind me. We all hop into her car. Of course, Marzia drives, while Felix and I sit quietly in the back.
I shuffle around in my seat, unable to get comfortable on the itchy material. I can tell I'm making somewhat of a scene, as Felix tries to stifle a laugh. Marzia obviously ignores me, and starts to drive off.
I notice a few recognisable houses and buildings, but not too many. I don't really get out much, do I?
"Hey Felix?" I whisper, unsure if he is awake or asleep. After a few seconds of silence, I tap him lightly on the shoulder.
"Felix!" I whisper harshly. Marzia is too bust listening to the radio to notice. I whack I
him on the head by accident and he jumps awake. I snort as he looks around the car in bewilderment.
"Huh?" Felix stares back at me.
"Oh, I was just wondering when we're gonna see Ryan and Ken again." I smile, as I know that question was not worth waking him up. He just looks at me as if he'd rather be sleeping.
"I don't know. Maybe next week?" Felix says with annoyance. I accept that as a truthful answer and go back to staring out the window. The scenery has changed a great deal. No more pretty villas and old buildings, but beautiful green valleys and fields.
I roll down my window and stick my head out not the warm, breezy air, breathing in the scents of nature.
"What are you doing?" Felix asks, tugging at the neck of my dress to get me to sit back down.
"Just looking. What? I can't look at the country I just moved to?" I say with confidence.
"You moved here a month ago." He answers defiantly. I roll my eyes.
"I haven't been out much." I mutter to myself.
"I'm sorry, what was that?" He smirks, holding his hand behind his ear, trying to "hear" me.
"Nothing." I mumble. Felix's smirk widens as I sit back in my seat, arms crossed over my chest. Hiding it away, I manage to pull a smile for Felix not to see. I continue to stare out the window, grinning madly to myself. I greatly enjoy hanging out with these two. I've known that ever since I dropped my Gameboy over the fence. The last time I did that, I lost it. Forever. We never recovered the limited edition handheld. Who cares, they invited Cry over that day. That made me feel a whole lot better. This is like my fantasy. Being friends with Youtubers. Everywhere I look now, there is a youtuber. No offence to Felix, but I still haven't had the chance to watch a PewDiePie video. I haven't even had the time to update on Toby's videos.
Felix taps me on my shoulder. I wake up from my daydream, and wince, wondering what he wants. He points with the same hand out of the window. I have to try and squint to see past the sunlight. I make out a green hill.
"Wha-? What is it?" I slur, slightly dazed by the bright light.
"That's where we're having the picnic." He grins, showing two rows of perfect, white teeth. I squint harder to see out the window.
"Oh yeah." I say. Whoopdeedoo..
Marzia pulled into a driveway. She continues to drive up the thin gravel path that leads towards the parking lot. Finally, the car rolls up to a small clearing of land where a few other cars have parked. Marzia switches the engine off and places the keys into her pocket. Everyone but me hops out of the car. I'm so tired. The door beside me, opens up. Felix motions his head towards the outside of the car, telling me to hurry up and get out. I tumble lazily out of the car, nearly face planting on the hard terrain. Instead, Felix manages to catch me.
"What's wrong with you?" He asks worriedly. I wave my hand at him, motioning for him to shut up and follow Marzia.
"Tired." I say while Felix tries to stand me up properly. "Because of you." I add, smirking at him. He raises both of his hands in the air like he doesn't know what I'm talking about. I then give him a look. Felix just grins with defeat and threads his arm through mine.
We both follow Marzia down a small dirt path nestled between the grassy hills. After a few minutes of somewhat "hiking", we manage to reach the spot that Marzia's friends have laid out a picnic rug. Marzia greets them cheerily and I just hide behind Felix's back like a child. Felix chuckles and waves at the fairly small group of two. One of them, a blonde haired girl, ushers us both over with a very welcoming smile. I grab a handful of Felix's Tshirt and don't let go. I just let him pull me towards the group. I know I'm embarrassing myself. I better get over it. At least I have Felix.
Everyone sitting on the rug stares at me.
"Hi, I'm Rosie." The blonde haired girl speaks up first. I give her my most convincing smile I can muster and I think I did a pretty good job.
"Hi, I'm Clementine." I wave a little, but it's too low for anyone to actually see. Felix sits down and I follow along with him, my hand still tugging on his shirt. He doesn't seem to care at all.
"Are you two..." A girl with brown hair points between Felix and I. She thinks we're together? I don't even know that. I shuffle awkwardly in my spot and glance up at Felix for an answer, whose face is as calm as usual.
"Uh-" I begin slowly, but stop once Felix goes in to say something. I shut my mouth instantly.
"Dating?" He asks. The girl nods stiffly. "Well, we've been on half a date." Felix says as an inside joke.
"Half?" Rosie questions. Felix opens his mouth to say something, but I pinch him discretely on the leg which stops him. I smile sweetly at Rosie.
"Yeah. Some girl had a heart attack in the restaurant and everyone was asked to leave." I lie smoothly. The girl with the brown hair gives me a look that I can only place as jealousy. It's like I'm back at the restaurant again. Rosie gasps and Marzia just clears her throat.
"Heart attack?" Felix whispers in my ear. I ignore him.
"You guys brought food right?" Marzia pipes up. Rosie laus and pulls out a picnic basket from behind her.
"Yeah. Annabelle didn't set it up because she thought ants might come." Rosie smirks. Annabelle whacks Rosie on the arm playfully and laughs.
"Um, is it okay if I don't eat? I'm not really that hungry anyway." I say before anyone even opens the food basket. Felix looks at me suspiciously and I just keep throwing my fake smile out there.
"Yeah sure, do whatever you want." Rosie smiles. I nod at her happily. Marzia unpacks all of the snacks. I gladly occupy myself by looking at the afternoon sky. It did take a long time to drive here so the sun looks like its about to set.
"Hey, I'm gonna go take a walk." I whisper in Felix's ear. He looks up at me and nods slightly. I prop myself up with my hands and start walking up a small hill that's covered in daisies. I smile.
I let my feet travel wherever they want to go. I walk across a large meadow, sloping downhill. My pace quickens as the slope gets steeper. At one point, I have to run to keep from tripping over. I gallop down the hillside at a fast pace. The wet grass doesn't really help my shoes grip the floor, either. The world seems to spin in a whiz zing blur. I find myself laughing as my foot slips and I go tumbling the rest of the way down.
I lay in the soft grass, listening to the waves I hear from a source of water somewhere nearby I'm guessing. I sit up, no longer falling. My vision is still blurred, but I manage to help myself up. My left eye seems to have something covering so I lift my hand up to wipe it away. But instead, I pull back, finding a warm, red liquid dripping from a small gash in my forehead. I shrug it off. It doesn't even hurt.
I walk towards the water I see. It's a lake. I look up at the hill I just fell down. Man, that's bloody steep, no wonder my head took a beating. The waves lap at a thin shoreline that is mostly made up of mud, gravel and dirt. Suddenly, I have the urge to take my shoes off and let my feet soak into the squelchy ground. That sounds disgusting.
I look across the water. The sun is slowly descending behind the distant mountains. It's last rays dance across the calm water, playing with the colored light. Suddenly, I hear a crunch of leaves behind me and I turn around. It's Felix, walking towards me with a cute grin.
"What are you doing here?" He asks, still walking up to me.
"I said I was going for a walk." I state.
"A walk? More like a hike." Felix says, out of breath and motioning toward she massive hill. His attention is drawn to my face.
"Shit. You're bleeding." Felix says worriedly, walking all the way up to me so that we're a mere inch away from eachother.
"It doesn't hurt." I mutter, trying not to look at his face which is studying the gash. He ignores me and pulls his sleeve over his hand. He then presses it up against my cut to somewhat staunch the blood flow. It's only when he pulls his hand away, that I see how bad the cut may actually be. His whole arm is drenched in my blood.
"We gotta get a bandage on this, Clem." He says turning back around to start walking up the hill again. I grab his arm, pulling him back.
"No." I blurt out without thinking. He turns around with a confused look laid across his face.
"Clem." He says, trying to reason with me.
"Come watch the sunset with me." I say sweetly, holing out my hand for him to take. He grabs my hand in his and I pull him closer to me. We both sit on a soft patch of moss, still watching the glistful water. I intertwine my fingers, linking both of our hands.
I stare out at the lake. I turn my head to see Felix staring at me just like yesterday. I smile at him, unsure of what he'll do next. So, I just look back at the sunset. The sky is filled with the bright colors of red, orange and purple. My mouth hangs open.
"It's so beautiful." I exclaim, looking straight up at the stars that have started to form. I feel Felix grip my hand tighter.
"You're beautiful." He says in a low tone. It takes me by surprise, causing me to blush. I look back down at him. He smiles and tucks a strand of hair behind my ear. I swallow a breath that was meant to come out, but didn't. And for the second time, I find myself leaning towards him to kiss him...and I do.
It's exactly like yesterday, but with more meaning and the fact that he tastes like strawberries. I smile, resting both my arms on his neck and he cups my face with his hands. And by the time it gets passionate, we both pull back.
"I've waited so long to do that." He grins at me. I giggle. I can't bring up Toby while we're both happy like this. I decide to push the subject down.
"What about yesterday?" I say softly, playing with the cord on his jacket.
"That was my first kiss with you. But this time we didn't get interrupted." Felix smiles. I look towards the horizon that's just above the glistening water. The last of the sunrays have disappeared behind the mountains, now leaving the sky dark and eerie.
"Does anyone know we're down here?" I ask, a little worried that they may be looking for us.
"I just kind of walked off...like you did." Felix says.
"But I told you." I add cheekily, poking him in the chest. He rolls his eyes with a defeated grin.
"Whatever." He chuckles. I pull him into a tight hug. Never wanting to let go. I rest my head on his shoulder as he does the same. I link my arms behind his back.
"Dreaming soft in silence
Been working hard all day
Still the night grows darker
With you now, in every way."
My mouth sings instinctively. Though, it's more of a soft whisper than anything. The way I usually sing. Of course, these are the lyrics to Never Want To Let You Go by Take That. I think I just thought it was a really appropriate time. Felix tenses and I feel him pull away from the embrace. He holds me by my shoulders and looks straight into my eyes with his blue orbs.
"Clem?" He asks. Though I'm pretty sure it was to see if I was awake or not.
"Yeah?" I whisper, concentrating on studying his face. Those eyes are so mesmerizing.
"Clementine, will you be my girlfriend?"
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MOTHER OF GOD! I am finished. IM SO SORRY IT TOOK FOREVER! It's just how I write... :)
Anyways I told you to wait and see...but now it's a semi cliffhanger...hehehehe *sly grin*
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