When I Met Pewdipie

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

No. No. This isn't true. Maybe it's old. Yeah, yeah, that's it, its an old photo someone just happened to come across.

Wait, no...that's my hat in the background. My hat. This picture is recent...probably when Felix wasn't going out with me. Or was it? No, he was wearing that outfit today...the one he just bought...

I feel my eyes misting up. My hands start to tremble. My phone falls to the floor with an audible crack. I don't even care that it has shattered. I stare down at it, letting my tears drip onto its glossy back.

I hear footsteps coming towards me and an arm go around my waist. He wipes a few tears away from my face. I don't even flinch. Because I know its Toby. He guides me to the side of the street, me suddenly remembering that I had been standing in the middle of the road.

It can't be real. It can't be real. It can't be real. He wouldn't do this. It's not true!

I hear Toby saying things to me and rubbing my back to soothe me, even though he has no idea what's wrong...or does he? I'm questioning everything right now. If Felix was as loyal as I thought. Why this girl is kissing my boyfriend. I stand still. Trying to figure out what I'm thinking at the moment-what I'm feeling.

Toby lets go of me for a second and picks my shattered phone from across the road. It's still unlocked but apparently, from all the swiping he is doing, my screen is broken. He has to squint his eyes to see past the cracks, but I know he's seen it when he retracts his gaze from the phone, almost throwing it out of his hands in disgust. Instead, he puts it into his back pocket and walks back over to me, embracing me in a comforting hug.

"I am so sorry." Toby says in a sorrowful tone, although, I can just slightly hint a source of victory. I nod, sniffling. "I'm gonna take you home to my place. I gonna get you a brand new phone. And we're gonna play some video games, okay?" He whispers, stroking the back of my head. I smile into his chest.

"Yeah. Yeah, I'd like that." I mumble although it is slightly muffled.

"Okay."

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"I guess I did win..." I mumble with a sniffle. I've been constantly crying ever since Toby got me to get into the car. I can't stop thinking about her. Who is she? Her midnight black hair cascading over her pale white face as she pressed her cracked lips against Felix. I wonder if he was enjoying it. I let my tears stream down my puffy face.

I place the controller down to my side, limply, not even in the mood to play video games. Toby shuffles over to me and lifts me up onto his lap. I don't react.

"Do you think its just a misunderstanding?" I ask softly. I feel Toby tense up a little with no response. I wait in almost complete silence (my sniffling) for him to speak.

"Yeah. Lets hope so." He answers. Although his head is behind me, I feel him forcing a smile. I am so grateful for him to be comforting me at the moment. It's so bizarre, I thought at he would just leave me there. He is so jealous of Felix, but he is helping me with our relationship. I admire that.

I feel him hesitantly kiss the back of my head. It makes me break the first smile I have taken in awhile. His hands rest on both of my hips and he rests his head on my shoulder. Strangely, it doesn't feel uncomfortable at all. Am I mistaking Toby for Felix, thinking it is him? Is that it? No, I don't want to think about Felix.

The silence drags on for quite a few minutes, not being awkward...but just...relaxing.

Toby had already convinced me for him to buy me a new phone. I really don't want him to spend his money on me, especially on something as expensive as a mobile. Honestly, I don't even know why he's doing this. I don't know at all.