An Arranged Marriage S.M.

Chapter three

"We need groceries." I sigh leaning on his shoulder. The only thing we have in our house right now is water and instant coffee. "Are you gonna come?" I cross my arms looking over at him. He stares up and nods slowly. I don't want to make him so uncomfortable but I don't want to have to like him either. He's an idiot and he can be really hard to get along with. "We should probably go soon because everyone wants to come back later and hang out. Our fridge is empty." We still have a ton of boxes to unpack and a bunch of things to put away but our friends are gonna help and there's so many of them in addition to our parents that we should be fine. Our whole house will come together by the end of the day.

"Ok I'll go get dressed." He smiles at me kissing my cheek. He's trying so hard and I feel bad for wanting nothing to do with him but then again he broke my heart. I don't know if I'll ever get over that. He broke me for his career. He barely gave a reason and he ruined me. I spent so many years alone so many nights in tears because I wasn't good enough.

"Who's car?" I call after him looking at our identical sets of keys. It honestly won't matter but it all depends on who he wants to drive.

"We can take either, but I would rather take mine?" He bites his lip slowly emerging from our room. I slept on him last night and I woke up in his chest. I've never seen a bigger smile on his face but I was so mad that he let me sleep on him that I didn't care. I was too busy yelling and crying to do anything.

"Grab your keys and lets go." I grab my purse and my phone and rush out of the condo with him not too far behind.

"Will you kiss me?" He mumbles looking around at all of our new neighbours that stare at me. "Will you at least touch me please?" He's always been really protective of me but it's never been like this before. He's usually very simple with it something like grabbing her butt or hugging her. He's never asked before.

"You owe me for this one." I give a huff kissing his neck while I hug him close. "I love you babe." I smile saying loudly enough for eyes to turn off of me. He smiles down kissing my lips gently.

"I love you so much Maddy." He whispers pulling away only for a moment. I hate the way that he is with me but I love it at the same time. He still loves me so much but I don't know if I love him.

"Let's fucking go." I mumble pulling away. He nods stepping into the elevator with me. We head towards his car and soon enough we're on our way.

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Summer smiles at me from across the kitchen while we set things up. She has the utensils and I have the glassware that I don't trust her with. "Hi baby." G smiles kissing my cheek. He puts most of them away and hugs me. "We miss you at home already and it's only been one day." Shawn smiles at the sight when he walks in. I wave him over and he's quick to be right next to us. "Come hug us you idiot!" He rolls his eyes pulling Shawn into our hug. He leans against my head while Jack cuddles me tightly.

"Maybe we should finish unpacking." Summer coughs making me chuckle. Everything has been so hectic lately and she is the reason why I'm still sane.

"I'm gonna go out and set up the rest of the things out there with the guys. I'll come back and check in soon though." Shawn whispers to me kissing my head and walking off. I hope he doesn't think that this morning meant anything because it didn't but I don't think he's taking it the same way.

"Someone likes you." They tease and I roll my eyes. They don't know the half of the story but they always want to know everything.

"I kissed him this morning, well technically he kissed me but I didn't stop him." I look at my feet. "That's why, he thinks we're back on track or something but we're not and I don't know how to tell him how mad I still am." She shakes her head putting more plates away.

"You're still mad?" He raises an eyebrow and she sighs looking at the floor. "I wanna fix it Maddy please?" He grabs my hand gently and sighs. "I didn't mean to hurt you like I did. I thought I was hurting you by being away all of the time. I didn't want that kind of pain for you." He stares at each of my fingers and then sighs at my ring finger. He bought me the most beautiful ring and he gave it to me in the sweetest way and I haven't worn it once. I barely look at it. It makes me remember everything that we were and what we had and I don't like to think about it.

"I don't care Shawn you hurt me worse than you could understand and I'm not over it yet." He nods slowly.

"I just I hope that one day you'll understand. I hope that you'll see that you don't hate me and I know you don't hate me and maybe you'll see that I loved you so much. That's why I had to go." He hums brushing his hands through my hair. It makes me angry.

"You can't love someone that much and break them! You can't love someone that much and then leave them because you want to hook up with other people! You can't love someone that much and leave them because you didn't know what else to do for yourself! You can't leave someone and break them and stay as far away as possible to make sure that I would never run into you again!" She demands and he looks down.

"I wasn't avoiding you, I was avoiding having to see you but not being allowed to kiss you. I was avoiding not being allowed to hug you or carry you or even fucking looking at you the same way as I did. I didn't mean to hurt you, I wanted to love you! I loved you with everything I knew how to. And now I love you with everything that I am Maddy please." He pulls me into his chest. "Please don't shut me out like this."