An Arranged Marriage S.M.

Chapter eighty three

"I know. I'm sorry baby," he kissed my forehead. "I'm ok. We'll be ok." I said referring to Easton. "I'll call everyday. And I'll tweet and text you after every show." He kissed my lips. "And every night I will call and help you put Easton to bed." I smiled holding him a little longer. "We should go down. Maybe tell them your leaving." I held him tight. "Hey baby. Remember the lock. We put it there to show that no matter where we are we will always love each other. I won't ever stop loving you and I will come back," he held me tight. "Ok let's go down," I didn't want to let go. "Alright," he nodded pulling away. He held onto my hand as we slowly walked down the stairs. "Who's turn is it," I sat in the circle type shape that they had on the ground. I held myself as close to Shawn as I could get. "You ok," Taylor looked confused. "Yeah," I nodded my head. "Ok well. It's Maddox's turn," he shook his head and we looked at Maddox. "Seriously. Tell us what's wrong," Carter looked at how tightly I held Shawn. "Wait wait. I've got this." Maddox looked at us. "Shawn's leaving," he paused. "Tomorrow." He looked sympathetic. "How'd you do that?" Sammy looked scared. "Twins, duh." Maddox gave him a weird look. "Ok well yeah," I nodded. Shawn pulled Me onto his lap. I put my head on the crook of his neck kissing it continuously. "Damn bro. You have an eventful week," Cam laughed. "Yeah. Are you gonna be ok," everyone looked to me. "Yeah. We'll be fine." I said talking about Easton. "Ok. If your sure," they were all wary. "Yeah. I'm sure," I nodded my head but I didn't let him go. "Alright," Carter nodded. Shawn rubbed his hand up and down my back. "She'll be ok," he nodded kissing the side of my head. "So Maddox. You go," I held myself against Shawn. "I dare you guys to stop this stupid game," Maddox groaned. "So what do you wanna do?" Taylor whined. "I don't know. Discuss who's gonna come and watch Maddy while Shawn's gone," Maddox looked at me. Matt had given me back Easton but I still stayed on Shawn's lap. I held a sleeping Easton between our two bodies. "Guys. I'll be fine." I kissed Shawn gently. "Alright. If your sure," they were all ify. "Im sure." I nodded. The doorbell rang. "I've got it," I stood holding Easton on my hip. His head was on my shoulder. I unlocked the door and opened it. "Hello," I smiled at his parents opening the door a little wider. "Hey. Were just here for aaliyah," his dad smiled. I moved a little letting them in. "She's in the basement. You can come down if you want." I started walking and they followed. "Aaliyah," I whispered. She looked in my direction and then noticed her parents. "K," she nodded. I went into the sound booth to put Easton in his swing. Shawn was behind me. "I know your in here," I put Easton in the swing. "I'm gonna miss you," I stood up and he pulled me into his chest. "You know I love you. And I do this to support you guys," he kissed my head. "I know. And you love your job. I'm not ever gonna take that from you," I pressed my lips against his chest. "I just don't like it when you leave." He kissed my nose. "I know. But you'll be ok. You always are," I leaned up and kissed his lips. "Go and say goodbye to your family," I sent him away. "Your family too now," I laughed a little going out to say bye. "Bye Aaliyah." I hugged her while Shawn talked to his parents. "Bye," I hugged both of his parents. They walked out of the house. "We'll be back tomorrow." Everyone started standing up. "But right now you guys need space and family time." They waved and walked out. "What do you want to do? Before I leave we will do anything you want," he sat down on the chair in the corner. I walked over to him and sat on his lap. His lips brushed against mine. "Anything at all," my eyes closed. "I want you," his lips hit mine. "Easton's here," he mumbled against my lips. "Please, I want you to love me." I pulled away. "I already love you," he kissed my neck. "Show me. Show me how much," I sighed of relief when He removed the flannel from my arms and began kissing and sucking my shoulder. "You already know though baby," he kissed my lips. "Was a week not long enough," he smirked at me. "One more time. Please, before you leave me for three months," I pushed my lips against his. "Alright," he groaned. "I love you," his tongue slipped into my mouth. "I love you too," his lips moved with mine and his tongue gently flicked against mine. "Well do it later," he pulled away. "Shawn," I whined. He put his head in the crook of my neck sucking on my skin. "Right now. You need to calm down. Later tonight after we put Easton to bed then I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna loose. But until then I just wanna hold you," he pulled me into a hug. "I know you wanna cry," he stood up and started running his hands through my hair. "Just let it all out baby. I'm here," with his other hand he rubbed it up and down my back. I let a single tear slip. "I'm always a wreck when you leave," he wiped my eyes. "You might be. But you are my wreck. And I love you," he tilted my head upwards and pecked my lips. "I will call you everyday. I will text you all of the time. I will send you pictures and I will constantly tweet. I'll video chat and every night I'll call you and help put Easton to sleep." I walked into the sound booth looking at Easton who still slept and I started playing our wedding song. "May I have this dance?" He smiled at me. "Yes you may," I smiled back grabbing his hand and starting to dance with him. He swayed slightly while we moved around the room together. He dipped me. "I have Never met anyone that I've loved more than you," he brought me back up into his chest. "I've never loved anyone nearly as much as I love you." I kissed his chest. The song ended and a kiss me and so far away mashup started playing. "I have the feeling I'll forget. But I'm in love now. Kiss me like the world is gonna disappear." Shawn sang. I grabbed his face pressing my lips onto his. He lifted me a little off of the ground. I slowly pulled away. "Our world is about to crash," another tear slipped down my face. "And when I get back I will spend night and day trying to rebuild the walls we've created." He kissed my forehead. "I won't loose you again," Easton started crying. "I've got him," Shawn let go walking into the sound booth. I breathed out wiping my tears. "Hello East," I smiled while Shawn walked back out. I looked at the small child. "I think he needs a new diaper," Shawn laughed slightly. "I'll be right back," he walked up the stairs. I followed them and but instead of going to his room I went to the kitchen poring myself a glass of wine. I took large gulps poring myself another one. This one I sipped slowly. Shawn came down soon after without Easton. "He fell back asleep," he shrugged answering the questioning look I gave him. "Darling don't drink," he took the glass from my hand. "It's just wine," I contemplated. "I don't care. I don't want you around alcohol. Especially not with Easton around. Plus I worry about you. Alcohol isn't a good solution," he took the bottle putting it high up so I couldn't reach. "Wanna tell me what's wrong?" He led me to the living room sitting me on the couch next to him. "Nothing," I lied. "Please?" "Nothing. I told you. I'm fine." I lied again. "Baby I know that's not true. Talk to me," he gave me a look of sympathy. "When you leave," I sighed. "I'm alone. And I loose a major part of me. As stupid as it sounds." I rolled my eyes at myself. "I spend hours alone. Just staring at walls. My life is do dull when your not around." I looked down. "And my depression. It comes back and I don't ever know what to do." I looked up at him and started crying. "But it's ok. I'll manage. I've got Easton now. So at least I have some part of you." I tried making him feel better. "Baby," he held me against him. "I know it's hard. It hurts me too. But we've got to get through this." I nodded pressing my lips against his. "Can we do it now," I pulled his flannel off. "Please, I just wanna forget." I pouted looking up at him. "Let's go," he gave leading me up the stairs. I followed him into our room. He stripped himself of his clothing and I stripped myself of mine. He pushed me back on the bed jumping on top of me. He reached over to the dresser on the side and pulled out a condom. He put it on himself and then leaned down kissing me. "I love you, I love you. I love you," I would repeat every time he kissed me. "I love you," he looked up. He pushed himself into me thrusting slowly. "Don't go," I kissed him full of passion. "I have to," he kissed back. He continued thrusting. "I love you," I copied what he had done repeating 'I love you' after every kiss I planted on his lips. "Your perfect," he kept his thrusting at a steady pace. "And beautiful," he kissed me as he thrusting started getting sloppy. "Ugh baby. I'm so close," he groaned. "Me too," I moaned kissing him again. He thrusted one last time before both of us released. His lips met with mine. I moaned in his mouth making him smile. He thrusted once more before pulling out. He removed the condom throwing it in the garbage. "I love you and only you," he leaned down again and his lips met with mine. "I love you more than anyone else." I pushed my lips back onto his. "You so special," he had beads of sweat around his face. He held me agains him. My lips met with his. "Your amazing. You are an amazing dad. The perfect husband. And amazing at your job," I wrapped my arms around his neck. "Round two," he smirked. "Harder this time," I whined making him laugh.