An Arranged Marriage S.M.

Chapter thrity one

Not that I'm complaining. I love Shawn more than anything. I didn't know that this kind of feeling was possible but I now know it is. "You alright bubs?" Shawn asked. I love this pet name. This one is my favorite. "Yeah I'm fine." I said, turning to face him. I pecked his nose and he closed his eyes scrunching his nose up. I smiled at his cuteness. He did the same thing to me and I had the same reaction. I pushed him so he was laying on his back and I laid on top of him. My head was on his chest and I listened to the soothing sound of his heartbeat. It was back to normal. His large hand stroked my hair gently, occasionally twirling it in his fingers. "You know it's like ten in the morning right?" He said. Time differences were killing me. In Pickering right now it was almost midnight. "Ugh! Whatever I wanna sleep," I put a pillow on my head. He laughed sitting up causing me to fall. "Ugh, your gonna make me get up and do something," I knew the look on his face. It never meant anything good, on my part at least. "Wow you know me so well," he put his hand on his heart smiling. I wanted to slap him but refrained from my temptation. "I'm going to shower," Shawn said getting up and kissing me. "You can join if you want to," he winked. I threw my pillow at his head. "No thanks. I'm gonna stay out here," I said. Heading towards my bag getting out my undergarments and outfit for the day. I went to check my phone which sat next to Shawn's. His phone rang abruptly. I didn't want to answer it because I didn't want to seem crazy clingy or invade in his personal life. The phone stopped ringing and he got a text.

A=Andrew

A: Shawn we need to talk

A: it's about Maddy. You two shouldn't be together anymore she's ruining your image. I can't have this. You could either brake the news to her yourself or I will. Text me ASAP this important.

I closed the phone knowing I shouldn't have read the message. I got dressed walking out I had the room key my phone and my purse. I decided to call summer. "Hey babe how are you?" She said answering after the second ring. "I haven't talked to you in forever. These time differences are driving me crazy." She said. I laughed trying to chock back tears. "Oh my god what did Shawn do to you?" I love this girl more than anything. "His manager said that I'm not good for his image. That we shouldn't be together. So I left before he knew. He hasn't even read the message yet." I said. I was mentally scolding myself for falling for him again. "I can't believe I thought he was different." I said letting a tear slip. "But enough about me. How are you and JJ? How's the tour? Are you having fun?" I just kept asking question on top of question. "Everything is amazing. And the tour is so much fun. But I miss you," she said. I could feel her pouting. "In two days we will be reunited." I said being all dramatic as I got into the elevator. I went to the main floor heading for the bar. I got a beer while a was still on the phone with summer. I talked a bit and she cut me off. "Don't drink!" She practically screamed. "Alcohol is not the solution." She said as if she were behind me. "Too late." I shrugged as if she could see me. "You know what happens when you have alcohol." She groaned. "JJ," she called. Some things were mumbled in the background and before I knew it JJ was yelling at me for drinking. My body didn't handle alcohol very well after like two drinks I could be drunk. I was now on my third beer. "Grandpa!" I yelled into the phone. I heard JJ face palming himself. "Chill out," I said. "Too late she's drunk." JJ yelled. Summer came back on the line. "You should go back to your room." She slurred trying to communicate with me. "I should not. I'm only getting started. I think I should go out." I said "no I don't think that you-" I hung the phone up putting it in my purse. I walked outside onto the road. I heard a car horn but didn't think about it being drunk and all. I huge wave of pain hit my body. And I tried to get up but couldn't. Everything was black but I heard someone yell something. "Are you ok?" Someone yelled but I couldn't respond. My phone vibrated and I couldn't pick it up. It went straight to voice mail. The last thing I heard were sirens. I woke up in a white room and summer was next to me. They had to give me laughing gas. "Oh thank god your ok." She said running up to me. "Shhh!" I put my hand out to stop her. "Your going to scare the unicorn." I said reaching my hand out to 'pet it'. She laughed. "Right the laughing gas." She mumbled. "Great now she's gone." I said glaring at summer. She threw her hands up in defeat. A nurse came rushing in. "I see she's awake." She said scribbling something on her paper. "Great a unicorn hunter. Run rainbow run!" I yelled out. "The laughing gas should wear off in about five minutes." The nurse laughed. "I feel really tired. Goodnight rainbow." I closed my eyes sleeping for only about 10 minutes. I woke up looking over where summer sat. "Hey," she said warily. "Why am I here?" I asked turning my head back to her after doing a thorough search of the room. "You got hit by a car. I mean not very hard but you got hit." She said. Getting up and coming towards me. "It wasn't hard enough to do much damage like your gonna be let out today it's just you were drunk and the car and your drunken state just didn't go well together." She laughed. There was a soft knock at the door and I sent her to open it. "I'm not sure she wants to see you." She said looking back at me. "I will give you five minutes but if she doesn't want you here than you have to get out." She said opening the door wider letting him in. It was Shawn. I turned my back to the door. He walked in coming In front of me and holding my face. "Please baby," he said and I slapped his hand away. "Don't call me that." I said looking in the other direction. He turned my head so I faced him. "Babygirl you can't just shut me out," he said trying to reason with me. "If we're not dating why do you keep calling me those stupid pet names." I scoffed. "Maddy don't do this." He begged. "I love you." He said trying to get me to look at him. "Madeline Aaliyah Rose Reynolds," he has never used my full name before. "I love you," he said getting up and walking out. Summer rushed to my side as I burst into tears. "I know," she said. Patting my back. JJ and G knocked. "Can we come in?" JJ asked. I nodded signaling them. "You know right before you got hit you were talking to me and you know the last thing you told me was and I quote 'grandpa chill out' that is officially the weirdest thing that you've ever said to me. What happened?" He seemed really confused especially because I never get drunk. "I read Shawn's text. I know I shouldn't have but I did. And his manager said I wasn't good for him and that I didn't fit his image so I left. And got drunk, and hit by a car," I laughed nervously. They both hugged me. "Are you sure your ok?" G asked. I nodded. "I think so. I just don't know what to do." I sighed deeply. "I love Shawn but I don't know if I should go back. Maybe Andrews right. Maybe I'm not good for him. Maybe he would be better off if I'm not around." I shrugged wiping the tears that I let fall. "I assure you he is not better off without you. He's probably just gonna be miserable until you start talking to him again." They both shrugged. I loved these three people. I've known them since kindergarten. They are my family. The only people that actually treat me like family. In high school we all lived together and when Shawn and I broke up they went with Shawn, and to peruse there dreams in the music industry. "I know it's probably not right for me to do this to him, but if this is what I have to do than this is what I'm gonna do. I want him to be happy and maybe he just isn't with me." I shrugged changing into my normal clothes. Summer signed my release papers and we left. "Are you sure about this?" G asked as we pulled up to the airport. "Yeah I'm sure. I'll just go back and stay in my apartment until Shawn gets back and then I think I'm gonna move back 'home'." I said making air quotations at the word home. I know I'm gonna go back and just be abused. Probably twice as bad after what happened with my dad and carter. JJ turned out of the parking lot, and back onto the main road. "JJ," I groaned knowing that he was probably gonna bring me back to my hotel. "What?" He said as if he were actually clueless. "Shut up JJ you know she's gonna slap you and I can't stop her. When she's mad nothing will stand in her way." Summer said to her boyfriend. I almost felt jealous even though we only broke up less than an hour ago. "I'm not letting her go back. She's just gonna be abused and like kill herself or something." He said. "JJ I'll be fine now please let me go." I begged. "And if you do end up killing yourself?" He pulled over turning back to look at me. "Than I will be put out of my misery?" I said hoping he would accept my answer. "No, your gonna go back to that hotel with Shawn and your gonna make up." JJ said. "You might want to hurry," JG chimed in. "Because Shawn's canceling his tour." I stared at him in shock as he showed me the text. "He can't do that. He loves his tours, And his fans." I said. "Well he loves you more," everyone said in unison. "But I'm not good for him. Andrew said so. I'm just holding him back and I can't let that happen." I said to JJ. He pulled back onto the highway. "Your still going back." He said. "And summers gonna follow you up to make sure that you get into your room." He said speeding off. "Whatever," I mumbled. "What was that?" He asked me as if he were my mother. "Nothing," I growled. "Ooh JJ you've unleashed the power of the Maddog." Summer laughed at their nickname for me when I was mad. I hated them for giving it to me. "Whatever." He scoffed. We pulled up to me hotel and I begged not to make me go in. "You have to, now go!" He said pointing to the door. I huffed and got out stomping up to the room. I prayed Shawn wasn't in there. I pushed the room key in and opened the door. Summer watched me until I closed the door and then she left. I watched her though the peephole. Until she was out of sight. She went towards the elevator so I went for the stairs. I quickly ran towards the stairs. Summer wasn't behind me so I was good. I got to the lobby and sure enough Jack G was waiting for me there and sent me back up. "Why do you guys want me to do this so bad?" I asked him as we walked to the room. I pushed the room key in. "He's probably not even here." I opened the door to see some blond chick on top of him. I grabbed my purse putting the room key down. "See, I told you." The tears brimmed in my eyes. I just left. I ran down the stairs to the lobby and back to the bar. "One beer," I said to the bartender. I grabbed the beer walking away. I took large gulps at a time. "Maddy don't do this again." Jack said trying to stop me. "Why should I care. He doesn't." I pushed passed him going to the bar again and getting another beer. "Madeline Aaliyah Rose Reynolds!" Summer yelled at me. "Put the damn beer down." She held her hand out and I gave it to her. JJ came running in. "What happened?" He looked at summer who was busy scolding me and then a at G who told him he would explain later. I just rolled my eyes at them walking away. I walked into the bathroom locking the door and pulling out my blade. I just got a new one. I started making lines up and down my arms. There was a lot of blood but I now had no one to stop me. I made so many different cuts I ran out of space on my arms to make more. I walked out of the bathroom after my blood was mostly dried. I walked out to summer, JJ and G who all stared at my arms in awe. "I'm going to get my jacket from the room. So who's gonna follow me this time?" I tried acting normal. They gulped. "All of us are going to follow you," JJ said. "I need to give Shawn a piece of my mind." Summer joined. "And I wanna fuck up his 'pretty boy' face." Jack G said. Always looking out for me. "And I'm gonna either save Shawn from death or help them. It depends on how badly they beat him," he shrugged smiling at me. I hugged them all. "Thank you," I said as we headed for the elevator. I took a deep breath before sliding in my key and opening the door. The blond girl was still here but Shawn didn't seem to find much interest in her considering the fact that he pushed her off of him when he saw me. "Sorry to interrupt I just need my jacket," I said getting a heavy glare from the blond Barbie doll. I reached for my jacket and Shawn grabbed my arm. "You promised me," he said, The hurt in his eyes was evident. "And you broke me. I loved you Shawn. I cared about you more than you would ever know. I passed almost everyday when summer called me to hang out because I wanted to spend time with you. But what a mistake that was. And then I came back in here to talk to you and found you eating her face off so I don't need to be a part of this. I can't handle it. Maybe I'll see you around but I really doubt it." I grabbed my jacket and left my room key on the dresser. "Maybe your new girlfriend could use it." I shrugged as I put my jacket on walking out. Summer stayed in there and all I heard was a loud slapping noise and G and JJ's yelling. I couldn't stand to be here anymore. I walked over to the elevator pushing the button and going down. I was in there by myself. I pushed the emergency stop button and sank to the floor crying. This is high school all over again. I stood up kicking the walls and then smashing my head onto the elevators door. I hit the button again and it began to move. I stood up trying to fix myself before the doors opened. Once it got to the lobby I got out keeping my head low. They were waiting there for me. I wanted to collapse but I couldn't because there were people everywhere. G came and hugged me tightly. I couldn't handle this emotional pain. This was too much. "It'll be alright." He kissed my head. He's always done that to me. It gives me a sense of security, it makes me feel loved. I sighed. "Maybe for him," I mumbled. I told him I wanted to leave and they obeyed although he still kept his arm around me. We walked out towards the car. My phone began ringing and so naturally I went to check it. Making sure it wasn't Shawn I answered it. "Hello?" I asked into the phone. "Hey Maddy," I heard sighed on the other end. "Aaliyah?" I wasn't sure why she called me. "Yeah." I was now in the car and JJ was starting it. "What's up?" I tried sounding cheerful or at least a little bit happy. "Shawn's scaring me," I could hear her tears. "What's he saying?" I knew this wasn't gonna end well. "He said if he can't be happy here he doesn't wanna be here. Maddy he's gonna kill himself. " she burst into tears and I know the feeling. I could tell just how broken she was. "Did he tell you why?" I needed to know. I couldn't just let this happen without knowing the cause. "If he can't have you he doesn't want anything," her sobs broke me. "I promise that I will try to fix things. Don't loose hope yet." I said into the phone. "Ok please hurry. I don't want to loose him." She cried into the phone. "I promise I will fix it." I said into the phone knowing how seriously she takes her promises. "Ok bye," the call ended like that. "JJ take me back." I said from the backseat. "So now you wanna make up with him," he groaned turning back around. "Last time." He groaned again. Speeding towards the hotel. "Who was on the phone?" Summer asked me. "Aaliyah," I bit my bottom lips nervously hopping I would get in there in time. "What did she want?" Summer asked knowing Aaliyah would never call me u less it was important. "She thinks Shawn's gonna kill himself." I bit my lip again as we pulled into the parking lot. She opened her mouth but I ignored her jumping out of the car. I ran through the building taking the stairs up to the hotel room. I was about to knock when the blond chick stormed out. I slid through the door. Seeing Shawn standing there with a gun pressed to his head. "Shawn put it down," I said trying to get closer. "Why should I?" I moved farther away. "Baby I love you," I said to Shawn. "You have to put the gun down." I tried grabbing it but he moved. "Please?" I said holding my hands out. "Don't do this." I couldn't find any words to express the fear I felt that he was gonna pull the trigger. "I ripped up my record deal." I sighed moving away from me again. "Why would you-" he cut me off. "And canceled my tour." He said moving away from me once again. "All over something I will probably never be able to get back," his tears burned his eyes. "You," he croaked. His finger closer to the trigger. "Shawn please put the gun down?" I begged I pleaded I tried everything. He wouldn't put the gun down. "Shawn please," I begged. "Why? Why shouldn't I?" He yelled at me. "Because Aaliyah and your family. They care so much," I tried reasoning. "But you don't," he moved back against a wall. "Of course I do. I love you more than anyone else. And I wanted the best for you. I left so you could be happy. Everything that happened was so that you could be happy." I tried getting closer. "But none of this makes me as happy as you do. Maddy your the only person that I've ever felt this way about. After our brake up I turned into a fuckboy trying to replace you but I couldn't. And today you left me over something my manager said. Maddy I love you and no matter what he says you would've stayed." I couldn't let him do this but it was all my fault. I burst into tears. "I'm so sorry Shawn. I never meant for this to happen. All I wanted was for you to be happy." I cried sinking to the floor. "I can't live like this anymore." A single tear fell from his face. "It hurts me enough to see you when your crying but like this Shawn you have no idea." I tried standing up. "Shawn please." I had hurt in my eyes. I stood up just running towards him and smashing my lips into his. He kissed back almost imidiatly dropping the gun. I grabbed it Pulling away. "You tricked me." He yelled. "I had to do it for your own good." I cried. "Maddy give it back," he growled I couldn't. I walked up to him kissing him one last time. "Goodbye." I mumbled walking away. "No Maddy," I couldn't look at him anymore. I'm doing this for his own good this is what's best for him. I walked down with tears in my eyes going over to summer. "Give us a minute." She brought me into the bathroom where I let my tears flow freely. "I ended things." I closed my eyes crying on her shoulder. "It's ok." She tried to comfort me but I knew she was lying. She even knew she was lying. "I'm sorry," she rubbed my back. I just cried.