An Arranged Marriage S.M.

Chapter eleven

I took his whole length into my mouth causing Shawn to moan loudly. I worked what I could with my mouth and used my hands for the rest. I was moving at a slow pass. "God dammit Maddy faster!" He groaned. I started moving my head up and down faster and faster. He groaned with pleasure. I took him out of my mouth sucking his balls and he moaned with approval. Then I worked his length some more. "Fuck!" He cursed. "I'm gonna cum!" He screamed out. His hands quickly found my hair tugging it gently. I took his whole length in which was enough to send him over the edge. He came at the back of my throat. I swallowed it and he watched me. I stood up. He pulled me I to his chest running his fingers through my hair he was panting. "That was good baby," he whispered kissing the skin below my ear. I smiled listening to the best of his heart. He started swaying us back and forth. It was silent and calming and I liked it. We broke apart and I smiled at him. He smirked. "Wanna keep watching the movie?" He asked and I punched his chest. "Are you crazy!?" I half yelled at him. "I'm not watching that again. Why would you think i would want to?" I said this time in a calmer voice. "I like it when you cuddled into me for protection," he said shrugging. "But fine we don't have to watch it." He gave in. "We can still cuddle though." I said sitting in the couch and patting the seat next to me. He smiled and sat down pulling me onto his lap. I kissed his cheek. "I know that you probably don't want to do this and if you don't want to than it's ok. But wanna talk about what happened today?" Shawn asked. A look of concern crossed his face. I sighed deeply thinking about what a terrible day it's been. "Sure," I said. It was like being in therapy. "How are you feeling?" He asked. I shrugged. "My dad hates me. I just basically killed a child. I feel awful." I said my eyes stinging with tears but I wouldn't dare cry again. Shawn hugged me. "I know it's hard. I know that it sucks." He said trying to comfort me. "I know it hurts," he paused breathing a deep breath. "Bu-" I cut him off by smashing my lips into his. He was shocked but kissed back instantly, as if it were a reflex. We pulled away and tears streamed down my face. "Babygirl please don't cry. It makes me want to cry when you cry." Shawn pleaded. I laughed at him but still I cried. Little by little tears started streaming down his face as well. He kissed me and when we pulled away we let our tears mix. My forehead was rested on his. There was a knock on the door and Shawn had to fix himself up. "Coming!" He yelled running to the bathroom and washing away the stains of tears. As I ran to our room and put on some pants. He opened the door and everyone started flooding in. "What happened?" JJ was the first to ask. I walked into the den where they were sitting. The guys started walking towards me but where quickly pushed away by summer who ran up. "Are you ok?" She asked me. I sighed and nodded. "Don't lie to me." She said sternly. I broke down. Shawn came over hugging me and I cried into his chest. I pulled away. "No." I sighed. "I'm not ok and I'm not sure when the next time I will be is. My dad hates me. Shawn and I still have a wedding to plan and I just lost my baby." I choked. They all gasped except for summer and JJ. They were the only two that had known. "To the rest of you. Yes I was pregnant. But after hitting my head I lost her." I sighed trying not to cry again. "Thanks for checking in tough," I smiled as the tears burned my eyes. Cameron walked to the front. "It's ok to cry. You've been through a lot in one day. We get it. We know it's hard so don't hide you feelings. It's not healthy to keep it all bottles up inside." Cameron said embracing me in a hug. I cried onto his shoulder. When I pulled away they were all standing in line waiting. I didn't know what for but I made my way down as each individual person gave me a mini speech like Cameron had done. And hugged me in the end. "Thank you," Shawn mumble to Cameron who shrugged it off nonchalantly. I got to the end of the line where JJ stood. He didn't give me the long sappy speech he just hugged me. He held me in his chest as I cried. "I know," he said rubbing my back. Shawn and Summer both seemed jealous and furious. But they both knew that he was just comforting me and despite all of that I knew Shawn was thankful. When JJ and I broke the hug Shawn embraced me. Kissing my forehead. I cried on his shoulder and he drew lazy circles on my back. Once I finally calmed down the guys decided to leave and give me and Shawn some grieving space while they went to grieve themselves. On loosing a family member. I love how they thought of me like family even though we have only been "reunited" for two weeks or so. Shawn an I sat on the couch. My head was nuzzled into the crook of his neck. "My tour starts next week." He sighed braking the silence. I laced my hand with his to reassure him. "Are you gonna come?" He asked me. Looking down. "Of course. I wanna be able to support you." I smiled. "And a tv screen doesn't exactly do me justice." I giggled and he smiled sweetly. I yawned and Shawn smiled picking me up bridal style and bringing me into the room. He threw me on the bed and climbed On top of me. I wrapped my legs around him and kissed him. Hard. We were just making out. When he broke the kiss we were both out if breath. "I love you," Shawn said pulling the blanket over the two of us. "I love you too," I said as Shawn pulled me over towards him spooning me. It was comforting. Maybe this marriage wouldn't be as bad as I thought.