Pillow Talk

Final Answer - B

The drive home was a quiet one. They'd spent nearly 5 hours at the hospital by the time they left, taking the last hour to regain enough composure to make it back to the hotel. Eddie's discharge orders were to return right away if she felt things were getting worse or if she was in a lot of pain, and to follow up with her own doctor as soon as they returned to New York. The nurse had already called and left a message with her doctor's office saying that Eddie would be in with the next few days.

"Can you just hold me all night?" Eddie asked Jamie as they neared the hotel.

"Of course, Eddie", he answered, "I don't think either of us would want to be any place but with each other tonight." They really needed each other after the heartbreak they'd been handed.

They arrived at the hotel at some ghastly hour of the night. "We're leaving first thing tomorrow," Jamie said as Eddie changed into her preferred pajamas, a pair of Jamie's old workout shorts and a faded Harvard tee.

"No, we are not," Eddie replied. "I don't want to think about traveling and we still have to visit your old stomping grounds. I am not letting this ruin what was for the most part a wonderful first vacation."

Knowing that as sad as he was, Eddie was hurting far more, Jamie gave in. She would tell him if she changed her mind. Exhausted both physically and emotionally, they got into bed and snuggled up close to one another and laid there in silence for the longest time, until the sorrow came flooding back. "I'm sorry," said Eddie as she began to cry again.

"Eddie", said Jamie, embracing and pulling her near, "Don't apologize like you did something wrong. You didn't, it's just one of those things that's nobody's fault, sometimes bad things just happen." Deep down, she knew that, but it seemed like someone needed to be blamed for what felt like the cruelest joke on earth. They'd been so happy the past few days, once he adjusted to the idea of a baby, and before they even got to tell anyone else, every ounce of that happiness had been snatched away and replaced with pain and loss.

"It's not fair!" she screamed.

"I know", said Jamie.

"Why couldn't it have all been okay? Why couldn't we have been one of those couples who go in afraid of the worst and find out things are alright?!" sobbed Eddie.

"I don't know, my love," said Jamie, his voice cracking, "I don't know."

They slept late the next morning, they didn't have an itinerary for the day. Jamie got some breakfast then called back into bed with Eddie. Jamie managed to go back to sleep, but Eddie just laid there thinking about everything. "I wonder if it was a boy or a girl..." she thought to herself. She laid with her back to Jamie, not wanting to wake him, and silently sobbed into her pillow. After a couple minutes, she felt his arm wrap around her, and she snuggled in as close as she could get to him and cried until her head hurt. Jamie just held her close, wishing he could take the pain away.

A little before noon, Eddie pushed herself up in bed. "Okay, Reagan...I want to see all the places that you used to bring the ladies to when you were in school."

"Eddie, are you sure you're up to this?" Jamie asked with concern. "I mean, you have to be bleeding kind of heavy..."

"I'm fine, Jamie. I can't just sit here and wonder you know. Let's go." Eddie got up and dressed in comfortable pants, a loose top, and shoes. "You have to take me to that all you can eat wing joint, too."

Jamie sighed and got dressed. He knew Eddie was putting up walls, trying not to feel. He would indulge her for the most part.

Jamie drove them to Harvard Yard and park the car. He held Eddie's hand, 'That building there, that's the law school. And that big tree, that's where I used to sit and study. That's the tree where I went to think, or anything. If I had a fight with Syd, if Danny was being a jerk..."