Girls have a physical unique attraction towards them. There body from head to toe, or boobs to vagina, attracts a man. But its not just the physical form that attracts a man, sometimes its the mental. For it was both. The events that happened in the past when I was young I carried with me, but I got over it. Girls were still on my mind. Really on my mind. Middle school hit hard. One girl had my mouth drooling for days. Shatasha MD. Pretty face, glasses, brains. We have a winner! There was only one problem, she was in for popularity, and I was no Chris Brown type. Girls at that age cared only about their status through the school. Hell, there was even a student ranking on the girls and boys. People did stupid shit in 6th grade. For my I was ranked a little low. Curse the glasses, weight, and my brain, and the fact that I wasn't into television, music, or celebrities like most kids. I gave everything to this girl. My snacks a lunch, a bracelet I made in art, a song I wrote for her, a poem I tried to rhyme. Everybody knew I had a thing for her, and sorta had one for me. I especially had help from my two bros Leonte and Davon. Leonte had a thing for a girl named Shakira, who was just like the celeb Shakira. Davon had eyes for both Shakira and Shatasha. Me and Leonte was not gonna let him take our girls. A day that broke my heart, was the day she found someone else. His name, Shaun, and his twin David. He was this tall, fine, light skinned guy with perfect hair, teeth, and body. Grade wise, really bad. But he had swag, charm, and words that made a girl fall in love instantly. I was so upset when I heard the news on the playground. "Shatasha and Shaun go together!" My ears just deceived me, my brain playing tricks on me, did the lunch food mess with my tongue and im high as fuck right now?!
"Yeah, they go together now, sorry Demetrius." Love sucks, fuck love, fuck life, fuck school, fuck Shaun, fuck this bitch, fuck yall, fuck tears, fuck love. My heart just sank. I left the area and I went and I cried my eyes out. Who the fuck does he think he is, swooping in taking my woman? Bitch you just met her and I been doing this for the longest! She watched me walk away and I saw her face and it was the most sad concerning face I ever saw. She was sad for me. Her friends didn't care about me. Only about how popular she was gonna be. The et couple of days was miserable, my grades dropped, I stopped talking to my friends, I stopped eating. My soul and body was hurt to the core. How? Why? When? Girls sucked to me. Shatasha soon later broke it off after Shaun called her ugly. I swooped back in and after they broke up, it was finally time to be a man, sort of and ask her to be mine, I old schooled and sent it in a note, her face when she said it.... It made me quit on love, women, and just focus on school. She shook her head No! What? I thought you liked me. I couldn't get out of lunch faster. This was the last girl I liked forever.
Down later down the line, I discovered myself. New kid to 8th grade and this guy came in and got a girlfriend in less than 5 min. Jalen was his name. This guy must of been a player. He was a cool guy until the whole middle school 8th grade class found out his secret. His friend yelled in the lunch room because they were fighting. "Jalens Gay!" Walls shattered, people stared, it was like a circus, with Jalen being the freak show appearance. He left the room later. His friend, got in trouble. He went to the bathroom. I left because I had to pee, and I went to the bathroom. I came in and saw him crying on the floor. I awkwardly peed because I didn't know what to say to him. If I talked to him I would be considered gay, my reputation would be ruined, and people would look at me like im some creep pedophile. But I felt his pain for some reason. I had went through the same feeling he went through. We shared something, that no other people shared. Being gay in middle school... Not good, especially when your in a ghetto, hood ass school. I wanted to comfort him, but I didn't know how, I didn't want to. He left and I felt like I was in a scene from Degrassi. From that moment and on, it would hit me like a bullet. I saw myself in him, I starred at myself in the mirror, comparing him to myself. I got rid of all my feelings about guys and girls and focused on my grades.
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Black Lies
Teen FictionThe real story of a boy turned man, the struggle of being who he is, surrounded by people who lie behind his back. The story of a man, being a man, and wanting his truth.This is the truth, my truth.
